Trapped Inside
Hi everyone,
I feel almost constantly anxious, depressed, frustrated, angry etc etc, but I usually appear calm and fairly expressionless on the outside. I very rarely look distressed - even less now that I've starting taking Lithium.
I feel like there's a wall between me and the rest of the world. I just can't figure out how to express how I feel. Its all trapped inside. When the emotion isn't too strong I can describe how i feel quite well. That's a purely intellectual thing, and I can't feel and talk at the same time.
This is extremely frustrating and when I tried to explain it to my partner, he said "I think everyone feels that way." AAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH!!
Anyone relate to this trapped feeling?
Best, Zel.
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Diagnosed with AS, PTSD & Bipolar2.
Only very rarely for me. In my case a little time helps, but it sounds like you need more... I am posting partly so that you know you aren't completely alone.
Be sure to communicate as well as you can with your therapist since he/she should help. Perhaps this is a sign that lithium is not right for you, or something else. It may help to write down your feelings and sharing it with him/her if you are like me.
I wanted to make sure you got at least a few responses too.
Yes I think I relate to this part very much at times. I've been seeing comments about selective mutism and I begin to wonder if this is similar. There are certain issues which I've bottled inside and I just can't for the life of me verbally communicate any of it to anyone, not even my deeply trusted partner. A few years ago, when I was much less happy than I am now, my partner and I took to discussing things via MSN whilst sitting in the same room, each with a laptop. That worked much better though not perfectly. Have you tried that sort of thing? Of course, there are still some things that are so raw, like you say, that they do literally eclipse the ability to communicate. I don't know what the answer is to that.
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Reading the Mind in the Eyes: 32
RAADS-R: 85
RDOS Aspie score: 115/200; NT score: 79/200
Yes, I can relate. I've been feeling this way since I came off SSRIs.
I feel almost constantly anxious, depressed, frustrated, angry etc etc, but I usually appear calm and fairly expressionless on the outside. I very rarely look distressed - even less now that I've starting taking Lithium.
I feel like there's a wall between me and the rest of the world. I just can't figure out how to express how I feel. Its all trapped inside. When the emotion isn't too strong I can describe how i feel quite well. That's a purely intellectual thing, and I can't feel and talk at the same time.
This is extremely frustrating and when I tried to explain it to my partner, he said "I think everyone feels that way." AAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH!!
Anyone relate to this trapped feeling?
Best, Zel.
I call it 'the place'. I think you visited 'the place'.
TheSunAlsoRises
I feel almost constantly anxious, depressed, frustrated, angry etc etc, but I usually appear calm and fairly expressionless on the outside. I very rarely look distressed - even less now that I've starting taking Lithium.
I feel like there's a wall between me and the rest of the world. I just can't figure out how to express how I feel. Its all trapped inside. When the emotion isn't too strong I can describe how i feel quite well. That's a purely intellectual thing, and I can't feel and talk at the same time.
This is extremely frustrating and when I tried to explain it to my partner, he said "I think everyone feels that way." AAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH!!
Anyone relate to this trapped feeling?
Best, Zel.
I call it 'the place'. I think you visited 'the place'.
TheSunAlsoRises
I have a frequent memership card to "the place". I call it that too. I have no idea how to put "the place" into words.
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Learn the rules so you know how to break them properly.
- The Dalai Lama
It's not a trap, that wall. Wall is a defensive structure.
That's right. Build a wall further. No, a fortress.
Then position archers on the wall and fire at everything that approaches it.
Don't forget to train guards too, just in case something sneaks inside without you noticing.
That's because everything you have is inside and you don't want anyone to take it away, do you?
I feel almost constantly anxious, depressed, frustrated, angry etc etc, but I usually appear calm and fairly expressionless on the outside. I very rarely look distressed - even less now that I've starting taking Lithium.
I feel like there's a wall between me and the rest of the world. I just can't figure out how to express how I feel. Its all trapped inside. When the emotion isn't too strong I can describe how i feel quite well. That's a purely intellectual thing, and I can't feel and talk at the same time.
This is extremely frustrating and when I tried to explain it to my partner, he said "I think everyone feels that way." AAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH!!
Anyone relate to this trapped feeling?
Best, Zel.
I call it 'the place'. I think you visited 'the place'.
TheSunAlsoRises
I have a frequent memership card to "the place". I call it that too. I have no idea how to put "the place" into words.
Inner world.
In my humble opinion, you are experiencing, sporadically, what children 'caught in their own worlds' are living on a daily basis. This is the defining characteristic of Aut-ism as it relates to the individual BEFORE we begin listing impairments in three domains:1) socialization 2) communication and 3) behavior.
It might be worth it to watch the whole video BUT i find 5:30 to 5:43 of interest.
[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YlH5s-XPKm0[/youtube]
TheSunAlsoRises
Thanks for all replies.
Inner world.
In my humble opinion, you are experiencing, sporadically, what children 'caught in their own worlds' are living on a daily basis. This is the defining characteristic of Aut-ism as it relates to the individual BEFORE we begin listing impairments in three domains:1) socialization 2) communication and 3) behavior.
It might be worth it to watch the whole video BUT i find 5:30 to 5:43 of interest.
[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YlH5s-XPKm0[/youtube]
TheSunAlsoRises
I haven't been able to access ths video. Could you give me the name of it so I can search for it on YouTube maybe? I really think your comparison with the "children 'caught in their own worlds' " is spot on. Thanks for your insight.
Zel.
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Diagnosed with AS, PTSD & Bipolar2.
When the emotion isn't too strong I can describe how i feel quite well. That's a purely intellectual thing, and I can't feel and talk at the same time.
I can only write about what I think/feel because when I talk about it I listen to my voice and it feels weird like if I were lying or someone else were talking, do you feel that way?
Inner world.
In my humble opinion, you are experiencing, sporadically, what children 'caught in their own worlds' are living on a daily basis. This is the defining characteristic of Aut-ism as it relates to the individual BEFORE we begin listing impairments in three domains:1) socialization 2) communication and 3) behavior.
It might be worth it to watch the whole video BUT i find 5:30 to 5:43 of interest.
[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YlH5s-XPKm0[/youtube]
TheSunAlsoRises
I haven't been able to access ths video. Could you give me the name of it so I can search for it on YouTube maybe? I really think your comparison with the "children 'caught in their own worlds' " is spot on. Thanks for your insight.
Zel.
Hello zeldazonk,
Here is the name of the video: LOCKED-IN SyNDROME
Here is the youtube link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=pl ... lH5s-XPKm0
Anytime. I appreciate the compliment.
TheSunAlsoRises
When the emotion isn't too strong I can describe how i feel quite well. That's a purely intellectual thing, and I can't feel and talk at the same time.
I can only write about what I think/feel because when I talk about it I listen to my voice and it feels weird like if I were lying or someone else were talking, do you feel that way?
YES YES YES!
Why is that I wonder?
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Diagnosed with AS, PTSD & Bipolar2.
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