Intense fear. Does anyone know what this was?
I don't know if this is the right topic.. I am new here so.. Oh and English isn't my native language so sorry if I make many mistakes ..
Something weird happened a few years ago. I have to say that I had anorexia and things didn't go really well that time.
I was in a clinic for eating disorders but it was weekend so I was at home.
Suddenly I got really scared. I went with the bus to a friend of mine, but in the bus I felt unsafe and I didn't know why. Later that day I felt more and more anxious.
When I came home I heard something bad had happened in our country, it was on the tv.. people died. I got more scared.
I went to bed early because I wanted to sleep, so i could stop thinking and panicking.
The next day I was even more scared. And I just didn't know why. It was so strange..I wasn't able to eat (didn't had to do with my eating disorder) I wasn't hungry at all, I felt so bad. I also didn't dare to talk to friends or other people beside my mom.
What I wanted to do was to lay in bed all day.. and that was what I did.
It was like my fear was getting bigger and bigger every minute..and I didn't even know where I was afraid for! How weird is that?
I think this whole thing took about 3 days. I got so sick of it that I called my pscyhiatrist and he gave me valium, which really worked.
He thought that maybe this all had to do with switching medicine. Before all this , I went from 2 prozacs to 3, so perhaps 3 was just too much for me, I don't know..
However, even though this is years ago, sometimes I am still wondering what this could have been . Could it have to do something with autism? At that time, I didn't know I had autism.
I never had an experience like this anymore, and I hope I will never ever have one..because I was SO scared, I just can't describe it.
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This might be the most bizarre response ever, but things like this happen to NT's as well. You mentioned something bad happened in your country - and you sensed it. Kind of an odd psychic phenomenon. You will sometimes hear about a one friend who was thinking about someone, then suddenly receive a call from them. Or someone is really upset about something, and they suddenly get a text with an encouraging message. Animals get it too, though in a different way - my birds for example once panicked over a 5.0 earthquake that happened 100 miles away.
Supposedly, this sense can be super heightened in Auties and Aspies (because we are either hypersensitive or hyposensitive) - but because we generally have difficultly processing "the world around us", we are mostly unconscious of it, or shut it out. But of course, there is always coincidence - and things like this can come off as highly suspicious. But believe what you will.
Thanks for your responses!
But I had these feelings before this bad thing had happened in my country. Only when I heard the news on television I got more and more scared.
Do you mean i kind of felt it before it actually happened? Sorry haha I just don't know how to ask this in proper English