Got the diagnosis at last - Don't know how I feel now
Hi everybody!
After 36 years of agony (actually 30 years - my first 6 years before school were quite nice), I finally got my AS-diagnosis.
30 years of anxiety, anger, powerlessness, self blame and exclusion.
I thought that it would make me happy finally to know that I was just born different, and that I couldn't have done anything to avoid it. And in some way I am !
But now .... I feel hatred towards all those people who didn't do s**t to help me, other that just force me to do whatever they wanted. And by "those people" I mean those teachers, kindergarden teachers and all those professionals, who just didn't care.
Until lately I couldn't remember much of my school-years. But now I know why
Maybe those deamons are comming back now - I fear ..
All those dreams that perished... All those years in vain...
I want to ask:
How did you feel when you got your diagnosis? And what did you do to cope with it?
Especially those of you who hit rock bottom before you got diagnosed.
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Your Aspie score: 168 of 200
Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 30 of 200
You are very likely an Aspie
Diagnosed
AQ=44, IQ=136
I am still awaiting my diagnosis, but I wanted to say that my mother's family comes from Fredericia. I hope that if/when I get a diagnosis, it will be redemptive. I also hope that I will be able to acquire skills to help me with what seem like deficits to NTs.
I don't think it's useful to feel hatred towards those who didn't help. They may have had issues themselves, or they may have not been able to recognize yours. Instead, maybe feel gratitude towards whose who are helping you now!
Oh my god! Small world
I know that it's not useful to feel hatred, but I 36 (not dead yet, I know) I can't help thinking about all those things I could have acomplished if I've got diagnosed years ago. By the way - my brother has got autism - pretty severe, so I can't imagine why they didn't make the connection.
And YES ! ! I can't even express how thankful I am towards those people who are helping me now. And by the way ... They are doing it out of kindness, and not because it's their jobs ! !
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Your Aspie score: 168 of 200
Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 30 of 200
You are very likely an Aspie
Diagnosed
AQ=44, IQ=136
I went through a phase where I was upset with the people that should have helped me too. We're about the same age, so maybe my reason for forgiving them may work for you too.
AS wasn't in the DSM until a couple years before I graduated high school. It takes a while before a new diagnosis will be well known enough for people to recognize it. The people that could have helped me were probably as confused about what was going on as I was, and I think they did the best they could (most of them). For instance, your kindergarten teacher couldn't have possibly recognized AS, because the diagnosis simply didn't exist when you were in kindergarten (before 1994).
I hope that helps you with getting some closure, and not holding on to negative feelings that won;t ever help old wounds heal.
-j0sh
It was probably because you could talk. Before AS was added to the DSM, it was unheard of to diagnose someone with Autism if they could talk. I know... the whole timeline and doctors not understanding Autism thing just sucks. Trust me, I know.
Yeah... I know that the diagnoses didn't exist then, and I recognize that. But actually, the school I attended was especially chosen, because it was a small school, and a preferred school for kids with special needs. But all they had was disipline and punishment, including beating those kids who didn't do things right. Well ... not sure if I should mention it, but it was a Chatolic school ....
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Your Aspie score: 168 of 200
Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 30 of 200
You are very likely an Aspie
Diagnosed
AQ=44, IQ=136
Edit: I'm self diagnosed so take that how ever you want.
I believe you're right. I'ts probably just a phase ....
... and by the way... your opinion isn't worth less, just because you're self-diagnosed. Many people with AS are self-diagnosed before getting an official diagnosis.
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Your Aspie score: 168 of 200
Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 30 of 200
You are very likely an Aspie
Diagnosed
AQ=44, IQ=136
Edit: I'm self diagnosed so take that how ever you want.
I believe you're right. I'ts probably just a phase ....
... and by the way... your opinion isn't worth less, just because you're self-diagnosed. Many people with AS are self-diagnosed before getting an official diagnosis.
I'm glad you feel that way, I just wanted to be clear because you asked about after diagnosis and technically I never had one but I know exactly what you are talking about and experienced the same thing.
What boggles my mind, is if you took a graph of all of human time,
from say 40000k, to about 20 years ago, the concept didn't even exist.
All I can feel is why now, and why me. The odds of one being diagnosed in the terms of human history is so very low.
Now we gotta get use to this new world, and I don't know what to think.
Can you imagine if in star trek they predicted that 1-2 percent of the population would essentially be vulcans.
Fredericia, der kan man bare se
Diagnosen asperger fandtes slet ikke dengang du (og jeg) var små, og slet ikke i Danmark. Tilsyneladende er Dannark årtier efter bla. USA i disse diagnoser.
Selv blev jeg diagnostiseret (ekspertudtalelse) tidligere i år, da var jeg 40. Det var en kæmpe lettelse at finde ud af hvorfor jeg er som jeg er, men naturligvis er der også en vis irritation over ikke at være blevet opdaget noget før.
Der er faktisk nogle stykker fra Danmark her på WP. Tilsyneladende så går det ikke så godt med mødestederne her i landet?
Hilsner
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from say 40000k, to about 20 years ago, the concept didn't even exist.
All I can feel is why now, and why me. The odds of one being diagnosed in the terms of human history is so very low.
I don't know about 40000k years ago but just because we've come up with a name for it recently doesn't mean it didn't exist before.
from say 40000k, to about 20 years ago, the concept didn't even exist.
All I can feel is why now, and why me. The odds of one being diagnosed in the terms of human history is so very low.
I don't know about 40000k years ago but just because we've come up with a name for it recently doesn't mean it didn't exist before.
Also, I don't think there was as much aspie interbreeding in traditional societies. In modern times a career, and inpersonal cities, seem to suggest that some form of racial grouping may be in our future.
Sorry guys, but I'l be answering the post from helles in danish. Anyway we're just talking about danish forums and things mostly localized to Denmark ...
Ja, åbenbart. Jeg måtte såmænd også belære psykologen om at AS skam lå på autisme-spektret. Og det føltes
faktisk også som om jeg vidste betydeligt mere om det en han gjorde.
Hvad indebærer en ekspertudtalelse ? Jeg overvejer nemlig kraftigt en af de udredninger man kan få på Autisme Centeret (i Valby tror jeg). De kan nemlig også udrede skånebehov mv.
Mit har altid været så tydeligt, at jeg faktisk blev "opdaget" allerede inden jeg startede i børnehaveklasse. Men desværre viste det sig at skolevalget (eller rettere sagt den af kommunens sundhedsplejerske anbefale skole) var et yderst uheldigt valg.
Nej, jeg har osse ledt med lys og lygte efter danske mødesteder, men jeg har kun været istand til at finde et dansk forum, hvor man skulle godkendes. Godkendelsen kom aldrig, så jeg må antage at den lå i dvale.
Kender du noget til Aspergers-foreningen?
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Your Aspie score: 168 of 200
Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 30 of 200
You are very likely an Aspie
Diagnosed
AQ=44, IQ=136
Okay
Thank god you can't HEAR how it sounds ... then you would probably think, that real aliens had invaded WrongPlanet ...
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Your Aspie score: 168 of 200
Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 30 of 200
You are very likely an Aspie
Diagnosed
AQ=44, IQ=136
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