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KagamineLen
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13 Dec 2012, 12:27 am

I was at a 12-step meeting earlier tonight, and I basically spilled my emotions out there. I have come to the conclusion that my entire existence has been reduced to a constant cry for help, or for at least a pat on the head and some encouraging words in my direction.

I always have been thinking that others were looking down at me in judgment. Come to think about it, that is what I was raised to believe. My parents always hammered into my head that I was embarrassing them, that people thought I was a horrible son, that every little misstep I took ruined the day for everybody around me.

I came to the realization that people don't think of me like that. They have their own lives. I am not as important and significant as what I was led to believe.

The relief is overwhelming.

I think I can start to breathe easy, and I can be who I want to be, and I can be there for others now.



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13 Dec 2012, 12:34 am

Thanks for posting this. I struggle to remember similar things.



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13 Dec 2012, 2:14 am

I am pleased for you.

For those with mild AS, or those with AS
that can articulate their emotions, the 12-
step community, with its formal structure
of communication, can be a real blessing.

wishing you well