I'm going to cheat and offer you my own song I wrote and did a video for today on my phone at home (under lockdown) I hope the lyrics will resonate with at least a few other adults on the spectrum who 'pass' as neurotypical
Joined: 9 Jul 2021 Gender: Male Posts: 27 Location: Belgium
15 Jul 2021, 10:20 pm
Erewhon wrote:
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Het andere forum wordt overgenomen in oktober, Amoebe stopt ermee, ik zag dat het hier ook wel leuk was. Ginder is het ook nog leuk, maar ik wil niet weer ineens forumloos worden zoals met het asperger-forum toen.
Het andere forum wordt overgenomen in oktober, Amoebe stopt ermee, ik zag dat het hier ook wel leuk was. Ginder is het ook nog leuk, maar ik wil niet weer ineens forumloos worden zoals met het asperger-forum toen.
Zou jammer zijn als het stopt. Ik heb al genoeg moeite om mezelf een beetje in het gareel te houden, laat staan dat ik een het zootje ongeregeld op Autsider moet modereren Dan word er ala minuut een coupe op me gepleegd Doe ze maar de groeten, ik val over een tijdje wel weer een keer binnen.
For me, during my reluctance to make an appointment for an evaluation to find out where it was that I indeed stood on the spectrum, as I struggled to accept my diagnosis whilst being in full denial, sunmerged in shame and defeat (I was extremely stubborn and furiously insulted when multiple psychologists/psychiatrists/family members (apparently it runs in my family) and other doctors would continually insist that I seek a specialist to seek what they expected, confirming that I was indeed autistic, during the hieght of the pandemic..
Being diagnosed as an adult, the lack of resources and support that I needed wasn't there..
I was in a very dark place; in addition, coping with the internal warfare waging within myself, in regards to finally confronting and seeking treatment after a lifetime of absolute denial and suffering to acknowledge and accept the fact that I was indeed also a transsexual.
During this time, I found this incredible song by a relatively underrated mostly unknown artist (My youtube algorithms helpful for once); recommended an artist named "Sevdaliza", the name of the song being "Habibi"...
The lyrics resonated with me till I got to tears and still get today, I get goosebumps listening to this song and watching the music video.
[Verse 1] Habibi, habibi No one understands me Habibi, habibi The caring left Habibi, habibi No one understands me Habibi, habibi The caring left
[Verse 2] Habibi, habibi As long as I sing Habibi, habibi I'll let the birds in Habibi, habibi No one understands me Habibi, habibi The caring left Habibi, habibi As long as I sing Habibi, habibi I'll let the birds in
[Verse 3] Habibi, habibi No one understands me Habibi, habibi The caring left Habibi, habibi As long as I sing Habibi, habibi I'll let the birds in