Too stressed living with people, too lonely living alone

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I share a house with other people, but they aren't always around. Some of the money I save by sharing a home I put in a separate savings account so I can stay in a cheap travel lodge nearby for a couple of days if I ever need alone time to recover. It would probably sound odd to most people, but a few days away in a hotel where other people clean, cook and fetch me stuff, where I can remain completely isolated if I want to, is a really good arrangement for me. It feels like a mini holiday and I come back much calmer. I tell everyone I'm 'staying at friends' so no one asks questions.

I don't know what to do. I'm starting to get horribly stressed living with people. I have a very demanding family what keep coming round at the most awkward times, like when we're cooking the dinner, and it gets very hectic. It sometimes causes me to become overwhelmed and I can't enjoy any privacy. I've been wearing earplugs nonstop lately, and they are good but my ears are getting painfully sore, and I get bored keep listening to music all the time with headphones. And I work at week-ends, which I hate anyway, and when I come home my brother and his cousins and friends are all there, and I obviously can't tell them to go away because that won't be fair. So I've just got to put up with it.

I am looking into moving out, but moving out is a big change and I've got to make sure I know what I want. But then that will mean I will be lonely, as I've had so many years of being able to talk to people in my house about my feelings and things, which always helps. I don't have many friends, and the friends I do have live a bus ride away. I could try to look for a place nearer my friends, as I know my friends aren't likely to come and sit round mine at awkward times. Anyway I only see one friend at a time because they don't all know each other.

If I do socialise, I prefer to socialise in the day, and be able to have time to myself at night without hearing any noise from other people. So for a person with high anxiety levels and prone to feeling agitated with noise and activity of people, I believe living on my own will be the best bet, despite how lonely I might feel. At least it will be my home so things will be more in my control, which is what I want - and need. I can't have no control over what happens when I'm living under the same roof as three other people and a noisy cat. For those of you that live on your own, is this why you wanted to move out?