Harming other people

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This just talks about harming other people.
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If I'm really angry enough, I will think about hitting anybody with a baseball bat or get in a fist-fight with them. I fear that my temper may cause a very large anger meltdown....... all because of my rather short temper.

I have gotten into a few fights like this, so......

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I used to do this when I was a lot younger, but now I think I've outgrown it.

I still get angry, just not enough to inflict pain on anybody...

Most people think about punching people when they're angry at them.

The only danger comes when you start to think about it constantly. Because that makes you hate the other person. And if you give in to hate, if you feed it, you might very well get angry enough to hurt them.

I think about repeatedly smacking their head against a hard surface but only if it is someone who has been bullying me for a long time.

I tend not to be violent in person though. I just fantatsise about about it is all.

I fantasize about inflicting pain on others who victimize me, embarrass me, or touch off my sensory issues....I feel that if I can just force someone to feel on the outside what I feel on the inside every day, all day, then I'll have some satisfaction, however hollow it might be. My therapist and I are currently working on this.

No, I'm a gentle sunflower.

I never act on what goes on in my imagination.

But inside my head....

I frequently fantasize about having telekinetic powers. To be able to just toss the car in front of me 1000 feet with a mere finger movement.

And sometimes I have very violent dreams that disturb the heck out of me.

I have thoughts at times... but think most people do. Sometimes when walking in a mall past people I get the urge to trip them or knock whatever they are holding out of their hands.
I always feel bad for thinking it. I used to be terrified I would act on it. My therapist said the fact that I have remorse over the thought itself shows I would never do it. If I think about it, he is right. I have been known to self harm if I got too mad at someone because I did not want to even hurt them with angry words.

I've fantasized about harming people. Especially male friends and acquaintances who had girlfriends (Out of envy and jealousy).

In person, I've tried breaking up couples but mainly through more cerebral means There was one time when I got angry at a girl for having gotten married and I demanded that she cheat on her hubby. I've never liked women I knew hooking up with guys other than myself. Most physical stuff I did was brief shoving against one guy.

I'm a very gentle soul. I wouldn't think of doing that to anybody.

It's actually hard to believe I got into a few fistfights with people......

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Feel free to talk to me, if you wish.

Every day is a gift- cherish it!

"A true, true friend helps a friend in need."

When people bully us, they are threatening a big part of the basis of our reason to want to exist, so it is obvious we get furious.

There are 3 solutions:

1. Fight - not literally, but by bullying back in the hope they will stop.
2. Flee - avoid bullying people.
3. Try to be more social (i.e. train up a pack mentality if possible so the bullying also appears to be "playful socialization" to you)


I have realized number 3 is not for me. I cannot compromise who I am to that degree. So my solution is a mixture of 1 and 2.

I have an rule that is easy to understand: If you dont want to get bothered by me physical, you simply should not physically bother me.

I actually can get so destructive at times, that I kick walls, and even once broke the branch of one of my high school's trees.

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Feel free to talk to me, if you wish.

Every day is a gift- cherish it!

"A true, true friend helps a friend in need."

i have trouble keeping myself from hitting others, mostly boys for some reason, even if im not angry! i always hit my ex friend Christian, mostly in the arm and crotch.

but when I'm angry, all hell brakes loose, i hate being taunted and when someone pisses me off, they're opening a can of whoop ass! i once bit a girl until she bled for taking my hat, and kicked a kid in the face for teasing me, i punched a boy for calling me a boy and sacked another boy for calling me Rudolf when my nose was red from a rash