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4912
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02 Mar 2014, 10:46 am

Once I have decided to do something I will work hard to achieve it rather than just moan about the situation. But even though I get bored doing the same thing, change is very frightening. I have applied to a few job vacancies and now am petrified that I will not be able to communicate properly and will I fit in if I get the job will they understand my special little ways? Why did I do this just because I need to push myself for more and better myself, what have I done?

Do you put yourself through this? :?



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02 Mar 2014, 3:23 pm

4912 wrote:
Once I have decided to do something I will work hard to achieve it rather than just moan about the situation. But even though I get bored doing the same thing, change is very frightening. I have applied to a few job vacancies and now am petrified that I will not be able to communicate properly and will I fit in if I get the job will they understand my special little ways? Why did I do this just because I need to push myself for more and better myself, what have I done?

Do you put yourself through this? :?


That is one reason I agonize and take forever to make a decision because once I decide to do something I commit to it to a fault. I do stay at things that are bad for me because of commitment. And all of the things I described above are very typical spectrum traits, specifically Executive Function deficits associated with Autism.

I will talk about this more specifically in another post in the jobs section, but I am accepting a boring position at minimum wage with a hellish commute just to work. This will be the first post diagnosis position so I hope with the knowledge I have gained I do not repeat the bad pattern.

Going into any situation concerns about getting along with other people are realistic but I have found that sometimes they are unwarranted. Good luck


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