Mootoo wrote:
So... I just thought... so many people over my life just disappeared into thin air... just because they were supposed to be 'professionals' and those kind of people vanish as soon as some set goal is achieved. I guess I'm the stupid one to think that I might have some sort of friendships with teachers and others...
Currently I only talk to one person IRL for three hours every week... if that stops somehow (heck, he's retired recently...) - where in my mind am I if all time is uniform? If we adjust our own personality according to our surroundings then technically there is no relativity in my mind, right?
Wow, that's a very deep question! I knew I was different when I was very small, so I did two things to try to resolve this. 1) Copy other people and try to be like them. 2) Within that framework try to show how I'm different.
Problem is, Who am I? Am I what I do? Am I just an anomaly trying to smooth myself over to fit into the crowd (unsuccessfully, I might add)?
Is this what you're dealing with, Mootoo?
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