Do I have schizotypal disorder or even schizophrenia?

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I noticed "mysterious 21.7 coincidence" in my life.

7.10.2014 a visit with my former psychiatrist was planned, but it was postponed to 21.10.2014 (that day the visit took place in fact).

Next visits with that doctor took place at: 27.1.2015, 28.4.2015, 21.7.2015 and 8.12.2015.

I received interesting diagnoses at 28.4.2015. F84.5 (Asperger's syndrome), F42.2 (mixed obsessive-compulsive disorder), F21 (schizotypy). Look at the numbers - there are geometric sequences in them and associations with numbers: 7 and 21...
84.5
42.2
21

Numbers: 21, 42, 84 form a geometric sequence:
21 = 21*2^0 = 21*1 = 21
42 = 21*2^1 = 21*2 = 42
84 = 21*2^2 = 21*4 = 84

Sums of digits in numbers: 21, 42, 84 also form a geometric sequence:
2+1 = 3 = 3*2^0 = 3*1 = 3
4+2 = 6 = 3*2^1 = 3*2 = 6
8+4 = 12 = 3*2^2 = 3*4 = 12
Sum of the numbers: 3, 6, 12 is 21, and their arithmetical mean is 7!

First digits from numbers: 21, 42, 84 also form a geometric sequence:
2 = 2*2^0 = 2*1 = 2
4 = 2*2^1 = 2*2 = 4
8 = 2*2^2 = 2*4 = 8

Second digits from numbers: 21, 42, 84 also form a geometric sequence:
1 = 1*2^0 = 1*1 = 1
2 = 1*2^1 = 1*2 = 2
4 = 1*2^2 = 1*4 = 4

Sum of numbers: 21, 42, 84 is 147 which is 21*7!

Sum of numbers: 2, 4, 8 is 14, which is 7*2.
Sum of numbers: 1, 2, 4 is 7, which is 7*1.
Sum of the sums of digits in three numbers: 21, 42, 84 is 21 is 21 (2 + 1 + 4 + 2 + 8 + 4 = 3 + 6 + 12 = 21)!

Put the sum of first digits in numbers: 21, 42, 84 (sum of 2, 4, 8 is 14) before the sum of second digits in numbers: 21, 42, 84 (sum of 1, 2, 4 is 7) and you will receive 14 and 7 ---> 147 ---> 147, which is the sum of 21, 42, 84!

Sum of digits before "." in my diagnoses from 28.4.2015: 2 + 1 + 4 + 2 + 8 + 4 = 21
Sum of digits after "." in my diagnoses from 28.4.2015: 2 + 5 = 7
So it forms "<21.7>"! Date of my next "ambulatory" visit was 21.7.2015. My previous (28.4.2015 is named as the date of "present" "ambulatory" visit here) "ambulatory" visit took place at 27.1.2015.
21+7=27+1=28
Write these three dates in chronological order, latter below earlier...
27.1.2015
28.4.2015
21.7.2015
In the "row" for month "147" is formed, 147 is the sum of 21, 42, 84!

I watched an audition (it was not so clever audition, however because of its content, I disagree strongly with its "beliefs" and ideas, which are for me "stupid") at 18.12.2015 (twenty-first century, fifteenth year of that century, twelfth month of that year, eighteenth day of that month), between 5 p.m. and 6 p.m. (in the time zone in my country) and I received mysterious coincidences because of it! Few weeks earlier I watched the same audition (but another topic was discussed), also between 5 p.m. and 6 p.m., at the same day of the week and at the same channel, that day the audition was about an inventor who was named as "megakook" (translation from Polish) by an Aspijka whose blog I quite often read (she wrote that that inventor would have received OCD diagnosis, if not AS diagnosis in recent time) and during that audition I heard about three numbers which form an arithmetical sequence (are three first numbers in that sequence) in which 21 is the 7th "number" of that arithmetical sequence!

Interesting "facts" about geometric sequences associated with 21, 42 and 84 and 21.7...

2 + 4 + 8 = 14 = 2*7
1 + 2 + 4 = 7 = 1*7
21 + 42 + 84 = 147 = 21*7
(2 + 1) + (4 + 2) + (8 + 4) = 3 + 6 + 12 = 21 = (2+1)*7

It looks "amazing"... If we have schizotypal disorder, mixed obsessive compulsive disorder, Asperger's syndrome then we have three diagnoses from ICD-10 (which I received 28.4.2015): F21, F42.2, F84.5.

Sum of digits before ".": (2 + 1) + (4 + 2) + (8 + 4) = 3 + 6 + 12 = 21
Sumof digits after ".": 2 + 5 = 7

I received primary diagnosis (Polish: rozpoznanie zasadnicze) of paranoid schizophrenia last month. I was on medical observation in mental hospital about three weeks ago, but I did not finish it. This month a psychiatrist gave me medical prescription allowing to buy Abilify (antipsychotic drug containing arypiprazole) for very low price (about 2% of its "general" price). After using this drug I got some sort of akathisia, which is really unpleasant and disabling. So arypiprazole does not appear to be solution to my problems.

Fragment fromhttps://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Schizotypal_personality_disorder:

I had a lot of coincidences with black cat motiff. It looks mysterious. Last time I also observed curious events associated with black cat.

When my coincidences started about 19 months ago, I saw dead black cat lying on local road (which was not so much trafficked). The person who was associated with this coincidence is also strongly associated with black cat in my mentality.

24.06.2016 - I finished quite long psychiatric observation, after which I got diagnoses of F84.5, F42.2 and F21 again. Sum of the numbers in the date 24.06.2016 (2+4+0+6+2+0+1+6 = 6+6+9 = 12+9 = 21) is 21
I am "powerless" about my mental situation.

My obsessions (in Polish natręctwa) can be really nasty in my case. They often are asscoiated with religion, sinning last time. I have terrible habit of giving oaths (also to The Most High) since quite long period of time.
F42.2 may be worse for me than F21 (a mental illness) and F84.5 (a pervasive developmental disorder), although it is classified as only neurotic disorder, anxiety disorder.

I get 30 mg of paroxetine since few months and 5 mg of olanzapine since about month. My level of functioning is "the same as earlier". Even writing posts may be "harder" for me. Alogia or something similar?

Yeah I fit a least some of the criteria too, but I already believe I have mild autism instead.

I would say that I have "clinical insanity". Something squirrely is in my mind. I have problems with functioning. I appear to be asocial in some way. Even posting may be in some way "difficult" for me.

i share many traits with you

Still the same in my case. I have even "problems" with writing posts containing more text. I "made" quite many very short posts containing numbers last time on this forum.
Psychiatrist wrote that I presented paralogical thinking, "raisonneurism" (undisciplined thinking?), delusional content.

I remember once before you mentioned schizotypal autism, at least as proposed in Europe.

My condition might be called schizotypal autism, but it is not Mendelsohnn's syndrome. My condition is not like "standard" autism. I could name it as PDD from schizophrenia spectrum. Fixative interests, autostimulating behaviors can be present in it. Nonverbal communication impairment is present since childhood.
In adolescence I began to be suspicious about other people who are not from my close family. I have "fear" that "alien" people would poison or harm me.

there are so many permutations

I think that there can be more sorts of schizotypal autism than Mendelsohnn's syndrome. My sort of autism clearly differs from typical Asperger's.

My "more classically schizotypal" symptoms began not in later childhood, but in adolescence (suspiciousness started when I was about 16). I had rare "pseudohallucinations" when I was younger (about 18?).

I suppose than in Norther America I would not have a diagnosis of PDD or ASD, but rather NVLD instead. For me NVLD is a misnomer which should be not use to describe "socio-emotional "oddness"". Autism is "socio-emotional "oddness"", not NVLD.

I read somewhere that one linkage between autism and schizophrenia is in the area of neural pruning- in autism there isn't enough and in schizophrenia there is too much.