My Introduction

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Hello. I go by Let_It_Go on a couple places now. I identify very strongly with/as Elsa, hence the name. I am currently 25, I'm female by birth (fluid by identity, but primarily still female). I'm asexual, but I do have a fetish. My special interests (as I've heard them called) are "Frozen", Cher, Cyndi Lauper, and most prehistory subjects...especially human and general mammal evolution, and I love tattoos (I have five right now). I'm a nerd, and I carry around a backpack containing textbooks, even though I am not currently in college. (I am, however, looking for a job that will not cause too much stress at the moment.) I can also name the (basic) geological time scale by heart...usually. The spelling is sometimes off, however. (Hadean, Archaen, Proterozoic, Cambrian, Ordovecein, Silurian, Devonian, Carboniferous, Permian, Triassic, Jurassic, Cretaceous, Paleogene, Neogene, Quaternary.)

I apologize if my mood seems...off. I've been struggling a lot lately with a lot of disorders (not just autism, since I also have bipolar, generalized anxiety, and ADHD). Social issues have been really tough on me lately (I'm really sick of crying right now), and there have been a lot of misunderstandings, which is why I joined. I wanted to make some friends, since I already have so much trouble with that. Most of my friends are neurotypical, but I want (if not need) some autistic friends, if for nothing else than a little sympathy and understanding of why I am the way I am. Neurotypicals, as much as they may try to help out, don't always understand where I am coming from. Right now I'm attempting more than ever to learn social skills from them, however, and put my feelings into words, rather than cry and throw a tantrum because I am hurt.

Also yes, I will admit, I do vocally stim, and I hand flap (object flap?) with pens (I feel calmer that way, and get upset if I don't have a pen or pencil in my hand), pace, ect. I will also be honest, and say that I have bashed my head against walls and bitten myself when upset or overstimulated. I've matured some since, though, and do those things less frequently now. Some of these behaviors I have managed to conceal from the public, but some of them still remain visible to the public, even though I try to hide them.

Alright, my writing is terrible and disorganized right now, which I find awful as I am a perfectionist when it comes to wording things. I do write essays, so this is rather embarrassing. I'll chalk it up to my mental and emotional state right now.

Anyway, I'm here now, and hopefully can get some support and make some friends!

Hello and welcome! You seem like a really cool person. I love Frozen

Hey Let It Go welcome.

Thanks for the welcome, RoadRatt!

Welcome To WP!