Mountain Goat wrote:
For me I call a full shutdown where I lose my eyesight and usually my hearing... Well. My hearing is often distorted in a partial shutdown anyway. Difficult to tell as when I get a shutdown, I am not even thinking about if my hearing is working or not. My brain just shuts down. It is not a sudden thing though. I get one thing shutting down after the next...But when the sight starts to go and the loud tinitus begins, I know I am fully shutting down.
I partially lose my hearing and get a sort of tunnel vision during what I call a shutdown, and my brain stops all but the most basic things. It all starts at the same time for me, starting off mildly and getting worse as I get deeper into the shutdown. That's why I'm not really sure that I get partial shutdowns, because I don't ever get it where just one sense shuts down or something. I can sometimes hold it off if I catch it quickly enough and then focus enough, but once I lose that focus I shut down.
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Yet in my new wildness and freedom I almost welcome the bitterness of alienage. For although nepenthe has calmed me, I know always that I am an outsider; a stranger in this century and among those who are still men.
-H. P. Lovecraft, "The Outsider"