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TheAvenger161173
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16 Oct 2016, 4:45 pm

When I was around 16 I had a severe drug induced psychotic experience with LSD. It was horrific I hallucinated badly. I thought it was the apocolypse and end of times. Some of the feelings,hallucinations I felt were indescribable. There was a point where I was hallucinating that my whole being was changing shape into these different almost psychedelic patterns, these patterns would expand to an infinite size, then back to my normal self, it was awful I could feel everything. I was traumatised after and still have anxiety about the experience. The other experience was with ecstasy. This was probably the worst experience of my life. I was on a night out and while on the drug I looked I front of me and everyone in the place looked at me, they all had evil demon faces. I ran outside panicking, at that point I became so deluded I thought I was dead. It was horrific, I remember believing I was really dead and in hell, hallucinating badly and mourning my family. Some of the feelings,emotions and terror I felt were something I dont think I have,or will get over. With the first experience the episode lasted maybe 8 hours but I had residual effects after, but also with anxiety about the trip. With the second experience it lasted 8 months, I ended up in hospital for that period. I still get flash backs and believe I suffer from some kind of ptsd from the event. This was over 20 years ago. Before this period I had anxiety/depressive periods related to what I now know to be an ASD etc and generally struggling with myself and trying to fit in. I feel the drugs tipped me over the edge and it's likely I'm susceptible to this kind of thing, via past experiences, and possibly a genetic predisposition. It's took a long time to really understand myself and what iam about. I don't want to sound like a do good er but I would caution anyone about the use of mind altering substances. Lecture over



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16 Oct 2016, 4:55 pm

TheAvenger161173 wrote:
When I was around 16 I had a severe drug induced psychotic experience with LSD. It was horrific I hallucinated badly. I thought it was the apocolypse and end of times. Some of the feelings,hallucinations I felt were indescribable. There was a point where I was hallucinating that my whole being was changing shape into these different almost psychedelic patterns, these patterns would expand to an infinite size, then back to my normal self, it was awful I could feel everything. I was traumatised after and still have anxiety about the experience. The other experience was with ecstasy. This was probably the worst experience of my life. I was on a night out and while on the drug I looked I front of me and everyone in the place looked at me, they all had evil demon faces. I ran outside panicking, at that point I became so deluded I thought I was dead. It was horrific, I remember believing I was really dead and in hell, hallucinating badly and mourning my family. Some of the feelings,emotions and terror I felt were something I dont think I have,or will get over. With the first experience the episode lasted maybe 8 hours but I had residual effects after, but also with anxiety about the trip. With the second experience it lasted 8 months, I ended up in hospital for that period. I still get flash backs and believe I suffer from some kind of ptsd from the event. This was over 20 years ago. Before this period I had anxiety/depressive periods related to what I now know to be an ASD etc and generally struggling with myself and trying to fit in. I feel the drugs tipped me over the edge and it's likely I'm susceptible to this kind of thing, via past experiences, and possibly a genetic predisposition. It's took a long time to really understand myself and what iam about. I don't want to sound like a do good er but I would caution anyone about the use of mind altering substances. Lecture over

These experiences mimic those of others Ive known, except the exstacy thing. But point is while it can be fun its dangerous business.



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16 Oct 2016, 5:15 pm

Very interesting topic, hope it survives and don't get deleted.

@Claradoon: Psychedelics are substances which are characterized by a mental state of profound sense for intensified sensory perception, sometimes accompanied by severe perceptual distortion and hallucinations.

Hallucinations is the point, LSD, mushrooms, mescaline and DMT are these kind of drugs.

Salvia, Cannabis, amphetamine, Cocaine, MDMA or Ecstasy are no psychedelics.


I have tried LSD, mushrooms, MDMA, amphetamine, ecstasy, cocaine, cannabis and salvia.

Have taken with 17 the first ecstasy pill and selled a bit of them, but at this time i smoked cannabis a lot and did not take anything else, except this one pill. So I smoked from 16 to 20 mostly every day, which was nice, fun and relaxing.
At 22 I had a couple of months fun with amphetamine and cannabis, have taken it very often, because I was hanging around with a dealer and got it for free, but after I used it one month every day I noticed very bad changes on my mind and stopped immediately, which is no big deal for me, because I just cancel the contacts, of course you got some weeks hard withdrawal symptoms, but there is always cannabis, which is no replacement, just nerve medicine.
After this experience I did not take anything for two years.
But it was boring and I was 25, so I organized new contacts and got on Goa partys, which was great fun, nature, drugs, good music and feeling of freedom.
There you can buy anything, so I started shopping and got LSD, I took them home, don't wanted to have bad people experience on these new drugs. After some weeks, when I read enough trips and advices I started taking a half one, I think 25um or so (you never know whats really on it).
I was alone in my room and anything feeling just great, amazing, my thoughts and fears of the future and me became complete meaningless and then on these level my white ceiling was morphed and i saw the universe with stars.

I have taken after a half one and one full and had also a very pleasant and releasing feeling, many bad thoughts and fears just gone.

My mushrooms trips was also really awesome, but they are complete different, I have seen colors in nature and my room which you can not believe, anything just was blinking and we thought the people in TV screen where really there and just behind a window :D.

I have bought 8 selfgrow boxes from netherlands and started growing these mushrooms, so i had very much, five different sorts of and tasted them all over a half year, which was quite fun :mrgreen:.

The best ones are mexicans, columbians and thais, but thais are much lower, but makes you feel good. With mexican and columbians you will get the best hallucinogenic trips at high dosage (4-6g dry).


Was one of the most life changing experiences, in good and bad.
It opened up my mind after years of depression, the bad side was that I was so open minded that I forgot about the reality, which isn't very the problem if you don't have a job and responsibility in life, but it is difficult to get back after these experiences.



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20 Oct 2016, 6:54 am

I've taken a lot of acid in the last two years and have had great experiences almost every time. Unlike a lot of people, I have mostly used it in clubs because of how great a lot of dance music sounds when you're tripping and I find it removes my anxiety about dancing in the presence of others. It doesn't necessarily make me more sociable but when I do talk to people during trips, I feel more coherent and able to explicate my thoughts in a more complex fashion.

Only one time did I experience ego death which was quite a profound experience. As, like a lot of aspies, I spend the majority of my time alone, losing that sense of self and feeling a genuine unity with the other selves I was inhabiting was quite overwhelming. I can understand how people dedicate their lives to political activism if that is something they feel naturally.

My experiences are simply that. For me, acid helps my brain function to a higher level. I feel as if I can work concepts out in a more detailed way and the insights that I make during trips strike me as having more depth than those I make in a sober state. On the other hand, dissociatives such as Ketamine don't appeal to me as much, though I wouldn't say I've had a terrible time using them.

Weed is a drug I have a healthy relationship with in the sense that I can pick it up and put it down whenever I feel like. I can't think of one time I've had a bad time with it over a decade of fairly regular use. MDMA is wonderful of course but that doesn't seem to be much of a controversial opinion.

Alcohol is the devil drug for me. Unlike with other drugs, I really struggle to exercise self-control and heavy use exacerbates my aspie traits (running away from friends on nights out, thought loops, stimming among others). If there was one drug I'd recommend autistic people avoid, it's alcohol.