Dugan wrote:
ive tried to be happy and it just backfires. theres no point in anything anymore. i just want to die. at least then the pain would stop
You think.
Your thoughts cause pain.
The pain makes you want to die.
I understand.
The goal is to not to think.
Let your thoughts come and go without becoming emotionally involved in them.
It takes training but it can be done.
For now, try to engage in activities that preclude thinking.
Take a break from those thoughts.
Be kind to yourself.
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