beakybird wrote:
I don't know. But if you find out please let me know. I am unable to be content for any significant period of time for the same "wanting more". That may be having more material things, a more secure life with less worry, more money to blow on things like drugs and alcohol. But I always want more. Often, as it seems with you, I don't always even know what this more even is that I want.
I get depressed over it, but often just feel very dead inside. Joyless. Like someone shut off the part of me that's supposed to like stuff and enjoy things.
Yeah that's is exactly it. I mean people say just accept your life and stop worrying but it is not worrying really. It is just like there is this emptiness, that makes you feel unsatisfied. Your not really happy but at the same time I don't think I am really sad, I am just not content. It is not me wanting material things necessarily, it's just like "what am i doing" I guess, it is hard to find the words to describe it.
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Diagnosed with ASD and Depression.
Your neurodiverse (Aspie) score: 127 of 200
Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 82 of 200
You are very likely neurodiverse (Aspie)