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Emu Egg
Emu Egg

Joined: 5 Mar 2016
Gender: Male
Posts: 1

05 Mar 2016, 8:19 am

Where do I begin. I feel like no one. Im empty and tired. Ive spent the last 7-8 years in psychospiritual turmoil losing my mind, especially these last few. My thoughts eat me alive. Ive destroyed my psyche by dwelling so feircely on negativity: the only truth available for me to see. Ive been through the medicine mill and only came out worse, much worse, for the wear on the other side. I don't know what is keeping my mind from oozing out onto the sidewalk.
Tonight/this morning I find myself here. I need help, but don't believe in it. I dont believe help really is help. I only see foolish human beings with exhausted ideas. I see corruption. I see carelessness. I see job security.

What am I going to do with myself?
I am cursed with a disease that divides me. I should not exist.


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Joined: 7 Nov 2015
Age: 59
Posts: 3,215
Location: USA

05 Mar 2016, 12:23 pm

If you truly feel you should not exist, then you need to see a professional immediately. Check yourself into a hospital or something.

That sounds like depression/suicidal ideation.

Diagnosed April 14, 2016
ASD Level 1 without intellectual impairments.

RAADS-R -- 213.3
FQ -- 18.7
EQ -- 13
Aspie Quiz -- 186 out of 200
AQ: 42
AQ-10: 8.8


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Joined: 4 Feb 2014
Gender: Male
Posts: 69,945
Location: Queens, NYC

05 Mar 2016, 12:43 pm

Aspergers is not a disease. It's a very treatable disorder.

What are you REALLY interested in?