i'm not good at anything ! !!

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when i was a child i used to live in my head . didn't need people to talk to , i didn't need to talk at all. the only thing i wanted to do was to be. to watch what's happening around me and to connect the sounds with the images , for exemple if i saw a tree , i'd believe that the tree is making the music i'm hearing! thought the music is from somewhere else. i still do that and i don't know why . the problem with that is that it makes me detached from my body .that mean , i'm not able to play the violon for exemple , because if i do ,i'd be sad and uncomfortable. telling myself , this is not my passion ,it's for people who are devoted to music and violon . and it's in everyhting i do , i mean i refuse to dance , or even to study , i'm confused when doing so. i'm not interested in any field .the only activity i'd like to do is to sit by myself and be an observer. now i know it's kind of a good thing but it's like a disability . it's like i'm passionate but my passion won't come out .it can't be visible in any art ! what's wrong with me ? does anybody knows ?

There's an idea I came across in my not-nearly-misspent-enough youth that conscious life is how the universe becomes aware of itself. In some people that manifests as a specific interest, but in some of us it's more passive, so we just observe rather than participate. It's kind of a monastic thing - to be in the world, and intensely aware of it, but always apart from it.

That's my excuse anyway

You seem very passionate and imaginative. Those two things will be expressed and contribute in some way even though you don't how yet.

For me, you're exotic. Are you from Tunisia?

Welcome to the Forums!

We need more people from other than the "First World."

The best thing to do is to believe in the good around you, and try to assist in getting rid of the bad.

yes i'm from tunisia , thanks , but it sucks cause i never went to a psychiatrist , they think it's only for crazy people . i didn't get diagnosed too

Do you go to University?

i used to think i was awful at everything until i discovered an odd talent, im really good at stealth video games, im utter trash at basically everything else but not stealth games.......i mean really universe, out of all the useful things to be good at you pick stealth games? poor choice haha. so maybe yours is something like that within your area of interest, like im obsessed with video games, its all i talk about and do, but the only type of game im actually any good at is like 1 in 20. so maybe theres something there you haven't tried or you have tried it but not realised that your good at it yet, as i only noticed i was at stealth games when i noticed most other people when i watched them play were really poor at it compared to me.

I know how you feel. I was very passive too as a child. I am frequently passive still to this day. My favorite thing to do is just walk somewhere alone, exploring and stimming. I do have an interest in Braille right now, but it is restricted to translating what I see or hear into Braille in my mind.

I was so stressed when I had to take the Armed Services Vocational Aptitude Battery in high school (a career exploration tool using aptitude tests and interest self-assessments) that I started crying in class. "What do I like doing? I don't know!"

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31st of July, 2013
Diagnosed: Autism Spectrum Disorder, Auditory-Verbal Processing Speed Disorder, and Visual-Motor Processing Speed Disorder.

Weak Emerging Social Communicator (The Social Thinking-­Social Communication Profile by Michelle Garcia Winner, Pamela Crooke and Stephanie Madrigal)

"I am silently correcting your grammar."

> I'm Not Good At Anything ! ! !

I sometimes feel that way, even though from the outside I look like I have skills and accomplishments of various kinds. But they never quite seem to be what anyone is looking for.

Braille would not be very useful in cryptography, even a blind person could see what I wrote.

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31st of July, 2013
Diagnosed: Autism Spectrum Disorder, Auditory-Verbal Processing Speed Disorder, and Visual-Motor Processing Speed Disorder.

Weak Emerging Social Communicator (The Social Thinking-­Social Communication Profile by Michelle Garcia Winner, Pamela Crooke and Stephanie Madrigal)

"I am silently correcting your grammar."

My interest in Braille was discovered only recently. I have not given up on it becoming a passion, but I have not had good luck in the past; my previous interest in reading programming languages was useless because:
• I did not have the skills to translate practical ideas into computer language,
• or problem solve technical issues within the code.

Now that I think about it, most of my attempts at finding an interest that I can use has been prevented by the human aspect.

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31st of July, 2013
Diagnosed: Autism Spectrum Disorder, Auditory-Verbal Processing Speed Disorder, and Visual-Motor Processing Speed Disorder.

Weak Emerging Social Communicator (The Social Thinking-­Social Communication Profile by Michelle Garcia Winner, Pamela Crooke and Stephanie Madrigal)

"I am silently correcting your grammar."