I've sung under a lot of conductors,, and they are all different. I assume you have experience as a choral singer to be so inspired. Watch and study the methods of a conductor who is really successful. I think you'll find he or she begins with high expectations of the singers and works hard in rehearsal to really put on the polish. He or she will encourage the singers to be just as attentive to each other as to him or herself. There is a certain charisma required, which means social awareness and self-expression, but don't give up on yourself. Keep watching those good conductors and learn from them. You can develop it in yourself. Being on the spectrum means these things are challenging, but it does NOT mean we are incapable of them.