Today I was at a wedding reception of somebody who I had never met and was there for 5 hours. It was my stepdads brothers wedding. And as selfish as it seems, I wish I hadn't gone.
It was one medium sized room with lots of people all talking. I was basically sitting there for the entire 5 hours only talking to the few people I knew there (my mum, siblings, stepbrother, stepsister, step uncle and step cousins and step grandparents).
I came home about half an hour ago and I've just completely shut down. I had a bad start to my day as I had to go to the hairdressers and suffered one of my infamous dizziness attack things (menieres disease possibly, going to see a doc about it to try to get diagnosed) and then today I've basically not had much time to myself.
I was going to play my games console but I'm too exhausted to do even that, and can't decide whether it's mental or physical exhaustion. Either way I'm laying on my bed, feeling useless with my fleece on me, not even motivated to go and eat despite being hungry.
Everyday I come home exhausted as I go to college for a full day every day (half days on Mondays though) and then have to go straight to work with a 10 min break in between if I'm lucky (even that is used to get ready). So I'm wondering maybe I've been suffering from mental exhaustion every day all this time.
24 Jun 2017, 12:19 pm
