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18 Jul 2019, 4:23 pm
Even when I was angry with Tsion, this song still summed up how I felt more than anything. I kind of wish I could have told her, but I'm also relieved I never did since it wouldn't have changed s**t and just would have felt like a pointless loss of face.
_________________ Watching liberals try to solve societal problems without a systemic critique/class consciousness is like watching someone in the dark try to flip on the light switch, but they keep turning on the garbage disposal instead. 戦争ではなく戦争と戦う
Joined: 6 Feb 2005 Age: 44 Gender: Male Posts: 24,195 Location: 28th Path of Tzaddi
20 Apr 2020, 3:24 am
_________________ “Love takes off the masks that we fear we cannot live without and know we cannot live within. I use the word "love" here not merely in the personal sense but as a state of being, or a state of grace - not in the infantile American sense of being made happy but in the tough and universal sense of quest and daring and growth.” - James Baldwin
This song definitely reaches deep into my soul. I've included the lyrics.
Vnv Nation ---"Illusion" I know it's hard to tell how mixed up you feel Hoping what you need is behind every door Each time you get hurt, I don't want you to change Because everyone has hopes, you're human after all The feeling sometimes wishing you were someone else Feeling as though you never belong This feeling is not sadness, this feeling is not joy I truly understand, please don't cry now Please don't go, I want you to stay I'm begging you, please, please don't leave here I don't want you to hate for all the hurt that you feel The world is just illusion trying to change you Being like you are, well, this is something else Who would comprehend? But some that do lay claim Divine purpose blesses them, that's not what I believe And it doesn't matter anyway A part of your soul ties you to the next world Or maybe to the last but I'm still not sure But what I do know is to us the world is different As we are to the world, I guess you would know that Please don't go, I want you to stay I'm begging you, please, please don't leave here I don't want you to hate for all the hurt that you feel The world is just illusion trying to change you Please don't go, I want you to stay I'm begging you, please, oh please don't leave here I don't want you to change for all the hurt that you feel This world is just illusion always trying to change you Please don't go, I want you to stay I'm begging you, please, please don't leave here I don't want you to hate for all the hurt that you feel This world is just illusion, trying to change you Please don't go, I want you to stay I'm begging you, please, oh please don't leave here I don't want you to change for all the hurt that you feel This world is just illusion always trying to change you Source: LyricFind
This song also tears right through me because I can actually feel the song...
Suicidal Tendencies "How Will I Laugh Tomorrow When I Can't Even Smile Today"
Here I sit and watch my world come crumbling down I cry for help but no one's around Silently screaming I bang my head against the wall It seems like no one cares at all Always an emotion, but how can I explain How can I explain Kind of like the scent of a rose With words I can't explain The same with my pain Caught up in emotion-Goes over my head Goes over my head Sometimes I got to think to myself is this life or death Am I living or am I dead The clock keeps ticking but nothing else seems to change Problems never solved, just rearranged And when I think about all the times that I've had So few good-So many bad I search for personality and I look for things I can not see Love and peace flash through my mind Pain and hate are all I find Find no hope in nothing new Never had a dream come true Lies and hate and agony Through my eyes that's all I see If I'm gonna cry Will you wipe away my tears? If I'm gonna die Lord please take away my fear Before I drown in sorrow Last thing that I'll say How will I laugh tomorrow If I can't even smile today Today today, when I can't even smile today Today today, when I can't even smile today How will I laugh tomorrow, when I can't even smile today How will I laugh tomorrow, when I can't even smile today
This song seems to speak to me, too. Pain is not always silent, though some will attempt to silence it. And true beauty often comes from the places seldom searched----- I'm not the only one who feels pain or a sense of not belonging. Many people do. Too bad we "weirdos" can't all find each other and not feel alone or discarded...
BTW, I actually created this video and dedicated it to a local homeless woman I admire for refusing to fall down and away, or disappear from people's sight, despite her overwhelming odds. I haven't seen her in a long time, though... she was on the elderly and stoic side and didn't want pity or handouts. Maybe she found a place to call home... People looked down at her, even people who considered themselves caring and giving. But much like the beautiful yellow dandelion that doesn't realize that it is considered a weed to many, she always stood tall and persisted. And why not? Because doesn't she matter, too?
Warrior Soul--- "The Losers"
Have you ever wanted To besomeone you´re not But you look into the world And you see what you´ve got There´s nothin´ there But brains and guts Finally open the door And then it shuts Look to the center And i´ll think you´ll find The people that are gettin´ They are blind You changed the channel And there´s nothin´ there You weren´t born pretty And it isn´t fair... Here´s to the losers The substance abusers To the rejects All the imperfects ´Cause i think we´re beatiful ´Cause i think we´re beautiful ´Cause i think we´re beautiful No matter what anyone says I think we´re beautiful The most beautiful in the world You try for jobs But they say you´re strange You´re sportin´ a style That they call pain So you get in trouble And your brain is gone You´re cryin´ out man But the words are wrong Here´s to the losers The substance abusers To the rejects All the imperfects ´Cause i think we´re beautiful ´Cause i think we´re beautiful ´Cause i think we´re beautiful No matter what anyone says I think we´re beautiful The most beautiful in the world I know you´re tierd Of being put down And all the crap that´s said in town But you´re a person thatmatters most I raise my glass, And make a toast Here´s to the losers Substance abusers To the rejects All the imperfects To the ret*d And the broken-hearted To the starving masses And the lower classes ´Cause i think we´re beautiful ´Cause i think we´re beautiful ´Cause i think we´re beautiful No matter what anyone says I Think we´re beautiful
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09 May 2020, 7:55 am
I've seen dark before, but not like this This is cold, this is empty, this is numb The life I knew is over, the lights are out Hello, darkness, I'm ready to succumb I follow you around, I always have But you've gone to a place I cannot find This grief has a gravity, it pulls me down But a tiny voice whispers in my mind You are lost, hope is gone But you must go on And do the next right thing Can there be a day beyond this night? I don't know anymore what is true I can't find my direction, I'm all alone The only star that guided me was you How to rise from the floor? But it's not you I'm rising for Just do the next right thing Take a step, step again It is all that I can to do The next right thing I won't look too far ahead It's too much for me to take But break it down to this next breath, this next step This next choice is one that I can make So I'll walk through this night Stumbling blindly toward the light And do the next right thing And, with it done, what comes then? When it's clear that everything will never be the same again Then I'll make the choice to hear that voice And do the next right thing
I chose this song Because in my life I’ve gone through so many hardships and felt like it never going to end. I delt with ignorance bullying biases abuse as well as other things and going to hospital several times
And the time that changed me forever I was abused/ assaulted the first time I went to a mental hospital it’s a long story I believe I posted in a long time ago
The lyrics that especially speak to me are
This grief has a gravity, it pulls me down But a tiny voice whispers in my mind You are lost, hope is gone But you must go on And do the next right thing
_________________ Your Aspie score: 192 of 200 Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 9 of 200 You are very likely an Aspie PDD assessment score= 172 (severe PDD)
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09 May 2020, 4:35 pm
All aboard for OZZY hour
People look to me and say Is the end near, when's the final day? What's the future of mankind? How do I know, I got left behind
Everyone goes through changes Looking to find the truth Don't look at me for answers Don't ask me I don't know
How am I supposed to know Hidden meanings that will never show? Fools and prophets from the past Life's a stage and we're all in the cast
You gotta believe in someone Asking me who is right Asking me who to follow Don't ask me I don't know I don't know I don't know I don't know
Nobody ever told me I found out for myself You gotta believe in foolish miracles It's not how you play the game It's if you win or lose You can choose: don't confuse, win or lose It's up to you It's up to you It's up to you It's up to you
People look to me and say Is the end near, when is the final day? What's the future of mankind? How do I know? I got left behind, and now I'm lost
Everyone goes through changes Looking to find the truth Don't look at me for answers Don't ask me I don't know
_________________ And in the end, the love you take is equal to the love you make.
13 Jul 2019, 8:17 pm
