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What are my coincidences?
Supernatural phenomena 13%  13%  [ 3 ]
Delusions, symptoms of psychosis 35%  35%  [ 8 ]
Ideas of reference 4%  4%  [ 1 ]
Effects of mere mathematical chance 48%  48%  [ 11 ]
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08 Sep 2018, 3:06 pm

The quotient of sum of the numbers in sequence 21, 42, 84 and sum of the digits in that sequence is 7:
21+42+84=147, 2+1+4+2+8+4=21, 147:21=7
The quotient of sum of the numbers in sequence 33, 42, 51 and sum of the digits in that sequence is 7:
33+42+51=126, 3+3+4+2+5+1=18, 126:18=7

From reading of the sequence 21, 42, 84 backwards we receive another geometrical sequence - 48, 24, 12.
The quotient of sum of the numbers in sequence 48, 24, 12 and sum of the digits in that sequence is 4:
48+24+12=84, 4+8+2+4+1+2=21, 84:21=4
From reading of the sequence 33, 42, 51 backwards we receive another arithmetical sequence - 15, 24, 33.
The quotient of sum of the numbers in sequence 15, 24, 33 and sum of the digits in that sequence is 4:
15+24+33=72, 1+5+2+4+3+3=18, 72:18=4

Numbers 7 and 4 are coincident with the date 28.4.2015 - the date of my first receiving F84.5, F42.2, F21 at the same time:
- "4" is the number meaning month,
- "7" is the quotient of the number meaning day in month and the number meaning month (28 : 4 = 7),
- product of numbers 4 and 7 is 28 - the number meaning day in the date 28.4.2015.



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09 Sep 2018, 12:23 pm

The three-numbered sequence which is arithmetical and starts with 21 and 42 is 21, 42, 63.
Sums of digits in that sequence are: 3, 6, 9.
From first digits of the numbers forming 21, 42, 63 the number 246 can be formed.
From second digits of numbers forming 21, 42, 63 the number 123 can be formed.
Sum of numbers 246 and 123 is 369. 3, 6, 9 again!
The sum of digits in 21, 42, 63 is 18, like the sum of numbers or digits in 3, 6, 9.
Sum of numbers forming sequence 21, 42, 63 is 126 - the same as sum of numbers forming sequence 33, 42, 51.
Quotient of sum of the numbers forming sequence 21, 42, 63 and the sum of digits forming that sequence is 7:
(21+42+63):(2+1+4+2+6+3)=126:18=7

The sequence formed by reading the sequence 21, 42, 63 backwards is 36, 24, 12.
Sums of digits in that sequence are: 9, 6, 3.
When we make that sequence ascending instead of descending, we will receive 12, 24, 36.
Sums of digits in that sequence are: 3, 6, 9.
Sum of numbers forming sequence 12, 24, 36 is 72 - the same as the sum of numbers of the sequence formed by reading the sequence 33, 42, 51 backwards - 15, 24, 33.
Quotient of sum of the numbers forming sequence 12, 24, 36 and the sum of digits forming that sequence is 4:
(12+24+36):(1+2+2+4+3+6)=72:18=4

The three-numbered sequence which is arithmetical and ends with 42 and 84 is 0, 42, 84.
Sum of digits forming that sequence is 18 and the sums of digits in the numbers forming that sequence form an arithmetic sequence (0, 6, 12):
0=0
4+2=6
8+4=12
Sum of numbers forming that sequence is 126 and sum of digits forming 0, 42, 84 is 18. 126:18=7.

The sequence formed by reading the sequence 0, 42, 84 backwards is 48, 24, 0. It is an arithmetical sequence.
Sums of digits in 48, 24, 0 form an arithmetical sequence (12, 6, 0).
Sum of numbers forming 48, 24, 0 is 72 and the sum of digits forming that sequence is 18. 72:18=4.



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10 Sep 2018, 4:31 pm

In last 4 years some dates were associated with marked coincidences:
1. 19.9.2014 - that day I made photos of Jewish cementery and a fragment of Catholic cementery using my smartfone, on which I saw photos of Jewish cementery and Catholic cementery made by an Aspijka, black cat was also a motiff in that coincidence
2. 7.10.2014 - that day the visit with my former psychiatrist was planned, but it was postponed
3. 14.10.2014 - memorable day, many coincidences happened then
4. 21.10.2014 - my first visit with a doctor after beginning of coincidences
5. 27.1.2015 - my first schizotypal dx
6. 14.2.2015 - coincidences with an Aspijka (not the same as in 19.9.2014) and smartphone photos (another ones, no cementeries though)
7. 28.4.2015 - BIG coincidence, my first combo of F84.5, F42.2, F21!
8. 21.7.2015 - that day I saw text: "Czarny kot potęgą jest i basta" ("Black cat is a power and that's enough), also a visit vith my former psychiatrist
9. 31.7.2015 - "koty, koty, więcej kotów" ("cats, cats, more cats") and Waneko (black image of cat)
10. 3.8.2015 - coincidences with black cats, quite massive
11. 8.8.2015 - very hot day, I learned that in Spanish wasp is avispa and bee is abeja
12. 13.11.2015 - last two digits in the date form an arithmetic sequence, that day I heard about Tesla 3, 6, 9 first time
13. 8.12.2015 - my last visit with my former psychiatrist, with whom I had visits since 2009, no 3, 6, 9 in the date of that visit after beginning of coincidences again
14. 18.12.2015 - BIG coincidences again, next members of "Tesla's arithmetic sequence" are formed by two last digits in the date
15. 4.4.2016 - my first day in day hospital, from the date four-membered arithmetical sequence can be formed: 0, 2, 4, 6
16. 20.4.2016 - first programme of my group with me in day hospital, on one of posters there was... black cat (yes, black cat again), from the date four-membered arithmetical sequence can be formed: 0, 2, 4, 6
17. 27.4.2016 - programme about animals in day hospital, there was a book with black cat and two films with Reksio dog in which cats were present, they were about pigeon and UFO (coincidence with Tesla and one of Aspijkas)
18. 11.5.2016 - second programme in day hospital with my participation, there was large poster with The Little Mole and quiz with cat, squirrel, pigeon and hedgehog
19. 24.6.2016 - BIG coincidence, I ended my first going to day hospital, diagnoses were: F84.5, F42.2, F21, F65.8
20. 5.7.2016 - last digits sorted ascendingly form an arithmetic sequence with sum 18, like in 3, 6, 9; I might be diagnosed with "miraculous" combo that day
21. 25.8.2016 - big coincidence with "gatyok", squirrel and swimming in the pool
22. 30.9.2016 - diagnoses of F21, F42.2 and F84.5, the sum of digits in the date is 21 and 3, 6, 9 can be formed
23. 8.11.2016 - beginning of my second going to day hospital, four-membered arithmetical sequence can be formed from that date: 6, 8, 10, 12
24. 13.1.2017 - I heard about "squirrel in head" in main hall in the day hospital
25. 27.1.2017 - end of my second going to day hospital, two 21.7 can be formed from the digits of the date, I was diagnosed with F32.1 instead of F42.2 (3, 2, 1 - arithmetic sequence which quotient of the digits is the same that their sum)
26. 19.4.2017 - I did not guess about the hedgehog in day hospital (I was a guest, not a patient)
27. 27.4.2017 - the beginning of my third going to day hospital
28. 15.5.2017 - coincidence with the initials and journal
29. 21.7.2017 - I got the certificate needed to get ruling of disability from the psychiatrist, on it there were F84.5, F42.2, F21, the date is obviously coincident with 21.7
30. 24.7.2017 - end of my third therapy in a day hospital (other than associated with two earlier goings)
31. 31.7.2017 - three prime numbers in the date and the sum 21, F84.5, F42.2, F21 as diagnoses
32. 11.13.2017 - relatively weak coincidence, three prime numbers in the date
33. 16.4.2018 - LARGE coincidence with "Kot mruczy, a krowa muczy" ("Cat purrs, and cow moos"), Kowno i Grodno (Kaunas and Hrodna), "krowno" (my neologism for cow excrement) and "Kot - po niemiecku znaczy to "kał"" ("Kot - in German it means "feces"");
34. 6.4.2018 - coincident combo again, sum of digits - 21, five-membered arithmetic sequence can be formed.



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11 Sep 2018, 3:50 pm

It is my post number 2284 :)

16.4.2018 - coincident date. 4 and 16 are second and fourth powers of 2. From that date we can separate five numbers which are natural powers of 2:
- 16 is 2^4
- 4 is 2^2
- 2 is 2^1
- 1 is 2^0
- 8 is 2^3
These numbers formed ascendingly or descendingly form a five-numbered geometrical sequence! 1, 2, 4, 8, 16.
Interesting arithmetical sequences can be formed from 16.4.2018:
- 0, 2, 4, 6, 8 (may have 10 as sixth term when we write the date as 16.04.2018)
- 0, 4, 8, 12, 16 ("engages" all digits in the date)
- 0, 6, 12, 18
- 0, 8, 16, 24

Weaker coincidences are present in the case of the date 4.6.2018. The sum of digits is 21. 21 can be formed (from digits in number meaning year). If we remain only last digits of th date, we will receive 4, 6, 8 - "Tesla-like arithmetical sequence".



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13 Sep 2018, 4:48 pm

Let's sort numbers forming sequence 21, 42, 84 ascendingly or descendingly.
When we sort them ascendingly, we receive 1, 2, 2, 4, 4, 8. Let's make three two-digit numbers from them. 12, 24, 48. Geometrical sequence with sum of numbers 84!
Let's sort them descendingly now. 8, 4, 4, 2, 2, 1. Let's make three two-digit numbers from them. 84, 42, 21 - geometrical sequence with sum of numbers 147!
Both numbers 84 and 147 have the digit 4 in them and have the same sum of digits - 12.

Let's sort numbers forming sequence 11, 22, 44 ascendingly or descendingly.
When we sort them ascendingly, we receive 1, 1, 2, 2, 4, 4. Let's make three two-digit numbers from them. 11, 22, 44. Geometrical sequence with sum of numbers 77, the same as in original sequence.
Let's sort them descendingly now. 4, 4, 2, 2, 1, 1. Let's make three two-digit numbers from them. 44, 22, 11 - geometrical sequence with sum of numbers 77, descending counterpart of 11, 22, 44.

Let's sort numbers forming sequence 10, 20, 40 ascendingly or descendingly.
When we sort them ascendingly, we receive 0, 0, 0, 1, 2, 4. Let's make three two-digit numbers from them. 00, 01, 24. No geometrical sequence.
Let's sort them descendingly now. 4, 2, 1, 0, 0, 0. Let's make three two-digit numbers from them. 42, 10, 00 - no geometrical sequence.



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16 Sep 2018, 12:28 pm

Sum of numbers in codes: F21, F42.2, F84.5 is 154 (21+42+2+84+5). It is the sum of numbers in geometric sequence 22, 44, 88. Sum of digits in the codes is 28 (2+1+4+2+2+8+4+5). It is the sum of digits in geometric sequence 22, 44, 88 (2+2+4+4+8+8). Sum of products of digits of the sequence 22, 44, 88 is 84 (2*2+4*4+8*8=4+16+64). 84 is the largest member of "miraculous" geometrical sequence.

Differences of numbers in the codes: F21, F42.2, F84.5 are: 21(-0), 42-2, 84-5 --> 21, 40, 79. The sum is 140. It is the sum of numbers in geometric sequence 20, 40, 80. 2+1+(4+2-2)+(8+4-5)=3+4+7=14. 14 is the sum of digits in the sequence 20, 40, 80.

"Middle" diagnosis in the group formed by F21, F42.2, F84.5 is F42.2. The result of multiplication of numbers 42 and 2 is 84 (42*2) and the result of division of that numbers is 21 (42:2). 84 and 21 are members of "miraculous" sequence.

21, 42, 84 and its descending counterpart 84, 42, 21 are (at least probably) the only geometrical sequences which produce geomtrical sequences formed by natural numbers when digits forming these numbers would be added, subtracted, multiplicated and divided:
2+1=3, 4+2=6, 8+4=12; 3, 6, 12 - geometrical sequence formed from natural numbers (qoutient 2)
2-1=1, 4-2=2, 8-4=4; 1, 2, 4 - geometrical sequence formed from natural numbers (quotient 2)
2*1=2, 4*2=8, 8*4=32; 2, 8, 32 - geometrical sequence formed from natural numbers (quotient 4)
2:1=2, 4:2=2, 8:4=2; 2, 2, 2 - constant geometrical sequence formed from natural numbers (quotient 1)

11, 22, 44 and 22, 44, 88 do not form geometrical sequences when the digits forming that sequences are subtracted, they form constant arithmetical (but not geometrical) sequence - 0, 0, 0 [although some may consider 0, 0, 0 as geometrical sequence, but I think that it is not proper.



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16 Sep 2018, 1:08 pm

And what does all of this prove?



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16 Sep 2018, 2:38 pm

These coincidences may be vieved as the proof of existence of supernatural beings. They are numerous. It is not one coincidence or two. It is complicated "network". Someone might consider them as extensive delusional system. If I would be diagnosed with (paranoid) schizophrenia (F20(.0)) instead of schizotypal disorder (F21), there would be no "miraculous" geometrical sequence 84, 42, 21. In Polish AS forum there was a person who write above well above 100 posts and had the login F21 (not F20 or F22). That person formed account in 2015, the year in which I received F21 diagnosis first time. The combo F84.5, F42.2, F21 was written in many "excerpts" from my ambulatory visits with psychiatrists, first time these 3 diagnoses appeared together (as only 3 diagnoses which I got) 28.4.2015. The date is strongly coincident with three diagnostic codes.

I noticed something interesting about date 28.4.2015. It was 118th day in 2015 year. At 2015 there was also one another date composed by the same digits and with the same sum of numbers - 24.8.2015. Between 28.4.2015 and 24.8.2015 there were 118 days and 24.8.2015 was 236th day in 2015 year.

Next dates which have at least two digits "2" and at least one digit "1", "4", "5" and "8" and have the number meaning day divisible by the number meaning month are 28.4.2051, 24.8.2051, 14.2.2058, 12.4.2058. Digits forming numbers meaning day and month sorted ascendingly or descendingly will form geometrical sequences with sums 14 or 7: 2, 4, 8 (8, 4, 2) and 1, 2, 4 (4, 2, 1).

viewtopic.php?t=186433&start=7275#p8015996 - today I posted in "counting topic" on WP forum first time since quite much time. The number which I typed was coincident. It was 42,714. From that number 42, 7, 14 (three numbers divisible by 7) can be formed. 42 is the middle term of my two very coincident sequences - arithmetical 33, 42, 51 and geometrical 84, 42, 21. 42 is (21:7)*(21-7). 14 is 21-7 (the difference of 21 and 7) or (21+7):2 (arithmetical mean of 21 and 7).



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17 Sep 2018, 11:06 am

I don't know what your status is related to mania issues but if you don't have that or history of schizophrenia-like symptoms, ie. if this were simply heavy OCD melding with a self-reinforcing thought structure a good mushroom or LSD trip under the auspices of a physician might help clear this out. 'Pharmakia' might not mesh with your religious beliefs but it's perhaps one of the few ways that your reward and task-related systems might have their current restrictions thrown open enough for you to catch some daylight between your self-concept and this rigid system of numerological thinking and consequently you might then have a shot at climbing out of this on your own.


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17 Sep 2018, 2:24 pm

The Numbers, Letters, and Word Place is larger trapped
in the Neo Cortical Mind and one reason why so many OCD/People/
Behaviors Love to Stay in that Place is to escape the Amygdala of Fear.
Tame the Amygdala
Get Free and
it's worth Noting that Science now
Shows that Meditation Shrinks that
Brain Fear Center in ways of Reduction of Gray Matter.
I Recommend a Free Style Meditative Dance in Balance that Science Shows
Now Helps to Regulate Emotions and Integrate Senses in Taming the Parts
of the Brain that Continue to Bring Fear and overall Mal-Contentment. Some Autistic
Folks Use Stimming/Flapping the Same; but I Make it Art as the Dance Audience Recognized
me as a Legend
for Public
Dance in a little
over a year for hey
if you are gonna Remedy
Your Imbalances of Mind and Body
Real Now You Might as well Do Epic in Art and
Get Noted in someone's By-Line of Life as a Legend;
And Excite all the Females too in Ecstasy of Kisses and Smiles.
And I'm Just providing one of Two-Thousand Photos of Evidence Again;
in Case the Legend thingy is Harder to believe than Legally Permanent
And Medically Disabling Conditions
That are remedied
Enough
to do
the Legend thingy too.
Seriously, though if you are trying
Your best to avoid any potential of Psychosis;
Sticking with the OCD Behaviors in Numbers/Words/Letters might
be Better; but I Suggest you Talk to Your Psychiatrist and just hope he's up
on the latest Research in how to all Naturally Remedy these Issues for more Freedom too;
as yes, Numbers
and Letters
and in General
Word Talk can and
will be much more
Confining than a Free
Dance that Brings Female
Smiles by the Truck-load now..:)

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17 Sep 2018, 4:22 pm

techstepgenr8tion wrote:
I don't know what your status is related to mania issues but if you don't have that or history of schizophrenia-like symptoms, ie. if this were simply heavy OCD melding with a self-reinforcing thought structure a good mushroom or LSD trip under the auspices of a physician might help clear this out. 'Pharmakia' might not mesh with your religious beliefs but it's perhaps one of the few ways that your reward and task-related systems might have their current restrictions thrown open enough for you to catch some daylight between your self-concept and this rigid system of numerological thinking and consequently you might then have a shot at climbing out of this on your own.

I do not have mood disorders such as mania or depression.
I have "suspiciousness" since being about 16 years old. Before the coincidences onset I had very few ideas of reference associated with mysterious object (probably meteorite, asteroid, comet or (part of the) satellite) which fell from the sky 31.08.1997 (last day before my first day in school) and road accidents near my home (in which nobody was hurt although they look as really dangerous).
Coincidences do not look to be OCD symptoms because they are generally pleasant and fascinating, not "intrusive" or suffering-causing.
I also did not use LSD, hallucinogenic mushrooms or other narcotics.

Why 21.7 and 3, 6, 9 are so important for me? 21.7 is associated with geometrical sequences, 3, 6, 9 with arithmetical ones. The smallest non-constant geometric sequence formed by natural numbers only is 1, 2, 4 (or its descending counterpart 4, 2, 1). The sum of numbers in that sequence(s) is 7.
The smallest number which is the sum of more than one geometrical sequence formed by natural numbers only is 21.
21=7+7+7 (quotient 1, constant geometrical or arithmetical sequence)
21=3+6+12 (quotient 2)
21=1+4+16 (quotient 4)
Sum of quotients of these three ascending geometrical sequences is 7.
Sums of the smallest three-membered non-constant arithmetical sequences formed by natural numbers only are 3, 6 and 9.
0+1+2=3
0+2+4=6
0+3+6=9
1+2+3=6
1+3+5=9
2+3+4=9



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17 Sep 2018, 4:41 pm

"suspiciousness" is the essence of paranoia (belief that you are the victim of conspiracies).

Tech wasn't accusing you of using narcotics. He was (incredible as this may sound) recommending that you use them....BUT under a doctor's supervision. A bit unorthodox. That last part...you needing professional attention...I agree with that part.

Okay...its not a nasty intrusive obsession, but a pleasant obsession. So its not OCD, but like an aspie obsession. But it is SO narrow and so inane and pointless that its way beyond aspergers and is doubtlessy psychotic. And (like you yourself said)it has elements of reference, and elements of suspicion and paranoia.

You remind me of friend who ...one night he saw a UFO. And then suddenly he started seeing aliens everywhere. And photographed them and posted his photographs of aliens online. Alien faces in the clouds, in the tree leaves in his backyard, etc. Trouble is that even in the photographs no one else could see these faces. The aliens kept bugging him and playing footsie with him for weeks on end (like these "spirits" are supposedly toying with you by way of numbers, on and on). But nothing every happened.

You would think that...after crossing hundreds of light years of intersteller space, and then picking this one Earth dude who lives in Bumphuck Maryland to be anointed as the intermediary between themselves and the human race- you would think that these aliens would eventually stop play footsie with him and present themselves to him (drop the other shoe and ask him to "take me to you leader" already gray guys!). But NO...they just kept on playing peekaboo with him.

Finally he went to a doctor and got diagnosed with Lyme disease. Soon as he got the medication for it BANG! The aliens all disappeared and never bothered him again.



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17 Sep 2018, 4:45 pm

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I also did not use LSD, hallucinogenic mushrooms or other narcotics.

That sounds almost like the opposite of what I was saying.


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18 Sep 2018, 4:36 pm

Do you think that medical (ot recreational) narcotics like LSD would heal me from coincidences, psychosis, delusions?

My coincidences will have their fourth birthday soon... 19 IX 2014 - first marked coincidences, they may be noticed only 21.09.2014, so not immediately. But 18.09.2014 I saw (probably first time in my life) that Venn diagram (I see a vulgarism on it and satanic symbol):
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18 IX 2014 there was the referendum about Scotland's independence and Scots are called "Jocks". In addition, there were blue and (not so much) white colors in part of the diagram which is associated with "Jocks" and on Scottish flage there are two colors: blue and white. "Nerds" and "Goths" were associated in my mentality with an Aspijka about whom I had coincidences 19.09.2014!



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18 Sep 2018, 5:15 pm

nca14 wrote:
Do you think that medical (ot recreational) narcotics like LSD would heal me from coincidences, psychosis, delusions?


It's a distinct possibility.

Also worth noting:

nar·cot·ic
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a drug or other substance affecting mood or behavior and sold for nonmedical purposes, especially an illegal one.


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