Not liking going home as a child or Home is where fun...

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This thread reminded me of what a fool I have been.

I was oblivious to the fact that I had a toxic family, I have to have some accountability for things I omitted to do, for another thread as I am too triggered to go into it now.
Bullied at school, bullied at home, erroneously believed it was all my fault as I had so many, right?
I wanted to stay in our old house at 18 instead of move with my parents, and was told No!! !
I wanted to get a social place but mother told me I didnt have enough points as I was not pregnant.
Dad wouldn't let me get psychiatric help, he thought I was mentally ill, I would have qualified if I went to doctors and told them everything. Still stuck at home.
Drifted from fake friend to fake friend and wanted to leave at 23, no longer cared about buying a property.
Mother told me I needed a bond and it was dead money so at 25 I bought a structurally challenged house and was told not to get it inspected for building defects, which it had.
Spent a month living at parents, house uninhabitable but so what, big row with mum and I slammed the door and told her to pi%% off
Cold night, came home to my own house to a manipulative note and ended up getting taxi back to parents.
Should have stayed, could have easily got a blanket.
In the February when the house was almost done I suddenly decided I couldn't stand it at parents and moved out at 25.
made bad mistake by moving in with them for 2 months while I got new house, should have gone from my old jhouse to new house.
Mum missed bossing me about she said, then told me it was a joke.
Lived in newer house for 6 years then bitter and resentful of them I relocated and am in a crappy flat.
I cut off contact with them but phoned them when really anxious and rekindled, stayed 3 weeks then came back to flat.
had various problems ever since.
Moral of the story, dont get bitter towards abusive parents, politely cut them out of your life, and dont relocate to run away.

I would have moved out at the age of 23, but I had a breakdown that year. I had to spend more years living with my parents than I wished. I put on a persona of Englishness to hide my true colours. My dad was always stating the obvious, because he thought I was slow and my mum expected me to have a stiff upper lip at all times, getting angry whenever I'd cry which wasn't very often around her. I made good sure of that.

My parents were very loosey goosey. My concern about having a partner is suffering in-laws that act like parents, as if they have some right to have a say in my life.

I had a bad experience with a roommate with a mother who meddle to much in our affairs. That wasn't even a mother-in-law.

I like my freedom too.

I didn’t like “going home,” either.

Actually, I did leave at 21 because I couldn't stand my Mum's mood swings. We were always walking on eggshells around her because you never knew what mood she would be in.

She has sensory issues too, but we could never really work out the triggers. She hated me making soup. I moved out so that I could make soup.

My parents have always supported whatever I wanted to do though. I always had freedom to be myself as long as that didn't produce too much soup smell lol.

What’s wrong with making soup? That makes no sense.

I had to “walk on eggshells” with my mother, too.

Tell her about "Nilodor" You just put about two drops in a room, and it gets rid of all the smell. Magic? No - it's a Nasal Anaesthetic!

I was largely a free-range kid. I would think this is quite common when one or both parents are ND. My daughter tells me an ASD friend gets tracked by her parents through her phone. She goes on a bike ride and they track her down. She is attending college . My daughter thinks they are being helicopter parents.

I think we need a poll on the parenting style we experienced as kids. It should control for time era and perceived ability to be independent.

Going home was a problem for me none the less. My father was a verbally abusive alcoholic and my ND mother was useless at dealing with that situation.

The only part of "home" I liked was my room where I could hide out and read all day.

Yeah, I often didn't like going home either as a kid. I wasn't able to go really anywhere but school, or go play outside, so when I came home from school I just spent most of my time in my room or downstairs playing a game while my parents argued. It wasn't that being at school was more "fun" (I hated it because I got harassed by students and teachers lmao), but I liked going outside and getting to actually interact with people.

I also got heavily reprimanded for not acting right in public (I was told I "embarrassed" my parents if I did anything even NT kids do and that they wouldn't let me go outside with them again) and was also yelled at for not sleeping quickly enough (it did take me until 12-2 AM, but I just stayed in bed).

My dad has Asperger's and my mom has ASD traits, so I don't think any of this was from not "getting" me as a kid and more they just didn't want to deal with me since I didn't adjust to things as well as they and my brother did.