hale_bopp wrote:
Though I wonder how common it is for people to be madly into the person they’re dating. It often seems like it’s not the case.
I would say I've been about 50/50. Half of the girls I would say I've been mad about, and the other half...not so much. Some of them I wasn't sure why I was even with, and some of them I liked a lot for a while, but it waned. One girl, I'm pretty sure she had BPD, and that instant attraction was very intense and amazing...but her constantly pushing me away and pulling me back, I couldn't handle it anymore, and reading BPD + ASD horror stories didn't help either.
Most of the breakups were not initiated by me, so obviously the "madly into" did not usually go both ways =)
It also seemed like it was always more exciting when I was younger. As I got older, love provided a lot less butterflies than it originally did. My first real crush was in middle school, and everything about her felt like a bright, vivid, cloudy dream. One of my favorite girlfriends, we would wake up with the sun shining on us, and I felt as though God was beaming with smiles, as if He had fought so hard to bring these two souls together, and finally succeeded, and all was right in the universe.
As an aside, I am often reminded of the quote, "To love and be loved is to feel the sun from both sides."
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