Would you like to get rid of the ASD?

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It's OK my post wasn't referring to your post.

What do you mean? Hamlet's monologue?
Sometimes we have to overcome our fears to get a life that's worth living.

I like myself as I am and I don't feel any need to change anything about myself. I celebrate being autistic because I've proved all of my detractors wrong and I'm doing things that my detractors thought that I would never be able to do. I also have my AS to thank for my rich and colourful imagination that I can paint onto a variety of paper that has a variety of prints. I also wouldn't have discovered the music of the Mid-Late 60s if I wasn't on the spectrum because I would have blindly followed the fads and trends while in high school. My special interests in the various events of the 20th Century also wouldn't have happened if I wasn't autistic. Swinging London and Carnaby Street in particular. In fact, a lot of my art looks like Swinging London and Carnaby Street or stuff that would have been seen around Carnaby Street in the 60s. I also wouldn't have felt a connection with movie and TV characters who appear to have my level of Autism. Sid from Flushed Away and Sgt. Schultz from Hogan's Heroes are two of the best examples that I can speak of. I'm not as bad off as Rain Man and I'm not as well of as Austin Powers or that character from Bones.

Yes, hamlet's monologue. Half of Shakespeare is dumb jokes.

You are wrong. It's rather a question of the philosophy of life that you choose and as far as I see even for you.

BTW: http://dilbert.com/strip/2018-10-12

I think I'd keep it. It's always been with me and is a part of who I am. Like I can't imagine myself without it. I(unknowingly) tried to suppress it a few years ago and it didn't go well. All that happened was that I got better at masking it. Plus it gives me a unique perspective on life that I enjoy. And while I would like to minimize some of the weaknesses, I wouldn't want to give up the rest to nuke those. I think I had a conversation with my mother about this recently and she was surprised about my answer.

I'd like to be able to carry on a conversation with someone. I'd like to be able to function at work and do well in doing it. I'd like to be able to read a book. I'd like to be able to remember things. I'd like to be able to learn things much quicker than I do now. I'd like to be able to go see sports live and not feel overwhelmed. I'd like my limbs to do a better job of listening to my brain. I'd definitely like to be able to advocate on my own behalf.

Yeah, I could do without it.

After all I didn't really expect that most of the AS people don't want to get rid of ASD.
But there are still several of us who really suffer because of the problems and want to get rid of them. For those I think it's worth to search a way out. I can't force others to change themselfes in a way that they don't want. But if you don't want to change just hold back. Sometimes also the way is a goal like in martial arts because it changes your own way of thinking because you start to feel less helpless. And for this I think an emotional training is at least worth a try for those who really want to improve.

This is my honest response. I do not want to get rid of ASD. If I got rid of it, I would be an interely different person, and that in itself scares me. Although I still feel overly ashamed for being like myself, with problems no one understands, in public setting, and feel forced to mask who I am in a daily basis, I'm slowly getting in peace with who I am, even if gradually. I do not know what would be the consequences if I would get rid of it... would I really be happier, just as what is promoted? That is not for certain. As for most of the problems that concerned me the most, I'm slowly getting better and better, and such life challenges is what motivates me to go, and being able to celebrate such events makes gives me a special happiness unknown to most people. My kindhearted family wouldn't think I would reach this level of capacity, but I proved every expectation wrong, and they are proud of me for always giving my best. I'm able to go to university and I can be very capable in things if I focus in it. I'm kindhearted because it's in my nature, and I have suffered a lot in life (mainly because of ASD related problems and extreme chronic GERD and other health problems) and wish for people or animals to not feel the same, and I'm very honest with people, to the point I'm easily taken advantage of. I don't think I would still be like myself, even with my own experiences of suffering that shaped my personality, I would be willing to keep it for the rest of my life.

Such an easy solution, and forgetting the joys and challenges of being myself, would be offputting. I have my own life styles, perception of reality, my personality and interests that I'm not willing to change. I don't know if I would reconsider it later, but I would probably keep my opinion unchanged. If I changed my opinion, it would be for my own good, not for others.

I know well enough that there are positives of getting rid of ASD entirely. I have a history of problems most people can't relate to me, but people with ASD can relate in some degree: sensory issues, history of bullying and feeling of isolation in a spiritual level, being unable to make and keep friendships, having problems with motor skills and some fine skills, being unable (but also uninterested) in keeping a job (since there are more interesting things to do), history of depression, functioning only on meds (sertraline), almost never having a good night sleep... and so on and so on.

Mostly, I have a different approach to it, not a black and white thinking of having it or not. I'd like to get rid of some of the problems related to ASD, but not entirely, and that I have a garantee I can still be who I am despite it. For example, the sensory issues (especially sensitity to light, since I'm forced to use sunglasses even when it's not sunny), having more theeshore to anxiety, being somewhat better at socialising for my own convenience, and so on. I still have dreams that are difficult to achieve because of ASD, such as travelling the world. However, I was able to achieve one of my dreams: making truthful friends, something that I felt would be near impossible. Having people that treasure the way I am, hearing for the first time that I'm liked being myself and sharing interests with friends, and being able to get rid of some of my masks around them, was one of the best moment in my life. Although I have my own limitations, I won't get putten down because of them, I'll keep pushing myself at an steedy pace so that I won't fall midway. Because I remember how difficult it was when I was a child, and being told I woundn't be able to do certain things, but shaking those beliefs, I know that I'm able to go further if I keep trying and falling.

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I think you have wrong expectations. It's not as easy and you don't have to change yourself once you learn something new. I.e. if you want to learn German then it takes time and even if you are able to speak and to understand it you don't have to do it. If it comes to me I'm even more myself now. And I like my new skills. I was my whole life quite positive but now I'm able to generate an emotion of positive feeling too because of it. Among all the mostly depressed, negative and stressed normal people somebody who just feels really good makes a little difference. Other people are in a way positive to me now as never before. But I don't have to be that way and I can be the same way as before. Whats wrong with it?