ohhhhhh no small doses doesn't mean small talk
I don't even think I know how one does small talk
I mean, just not speaking my whole mind in one sitting, not letting it all out on you( which I often fail to do)
And when I was younger I didn't use to say alot, I would always be quiet and sit in the back and people didn't know what to think of me, they used to say how mysterious I was ( and I LOVED IT) even though it was really hard to be that way , I preferred those times because no one knew my thoughts, I wrote more, I was more observant not caring about the concept of friends and I was happier then.
I gave up on my pretenses a long time ago and Now I often go FULL THROTTLE more than usual (and I hate it) because I also suffer the consequences of not controlling my thoughts and what comes out of my mouth! just speaking bluntly and unabashedly
*Most of us here are quite blunt and honest and that's good
but
NOT everything that is true and honest has to be told!
sometimes I forget this, so I have to remind myself .. ok in SMALL DOSES!
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The guardhouse sits just on the moons lap like a dying child.
She whispers in the greyest of grey voice. "hush my child, hear now this is the antithesis of the end".