I have work soon and I don't know if I can do it.

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Mountain Goat
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01 Jul 2019, 4:36 am

They are desperate. Short staffed. They need an extra hand. I can't say "No" as I need to try to get back into things. But at the same time I don't know how I will cope. I told him that I will give it a try and see how things will go.
Fortunately I will be out the back assembling bikes next to a big air conditioning machine which I love, as though it is noisy, I am in a world of my own as it drowns out all other sounds. If the other guy is not there, then I get this prime position to work in.
My problem is that I am getting partial shut downs when I tried to work on a friends bike at home. Hopefully the shutdowns will leave me alone! I am generally not feeling that strong. Actually feeling weak. Umm. But unless I try... I have to try. They need me!


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01 Jul 2019, 5:12 am

Good luck MG!


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07 Jul 2019, 7:36 am

I feel like you will do well, Mountain Goat.



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07 Jul 2019, 7:54 am

I'll dona decade of the rosary for you, and consider you if I go to Mass tonight.



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07 Jul 2019, 7:59 am

Assembling bikes sounds like a good thing to do. Good luck.


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07 Jul 2019, 8:12 am

Thank you people. They need to get permission from head office to employ me. They have the allocated hours to employ... Just not permission yet.
I am waiting for them to get in touch.
To be totally frank and honest, I am easy either way in that yes, the money will come in handy... But if it is a "No", I am not dissapointed as it saves me from the stress of having partial shutdowns which are certainly not nice to get, and I am likely to get them daily... "Grrr!"


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09 Jul 2019, 8:48 am

I went to the dentist today just for a check up. I was soo nurvous. All is fine. I have been nurvous about this date for a few months.

I hardly slept last night...

Now tomorrow I think there is nothing on so I just rest. The day after is work time. I don't feel at all ready to start work but I have to try, as I need to try to pull myself out of this rut. Ok for now I am safe in the rut... But "Grrr!" What happens if I can't cope? Is not coping in life called burnout, where I am not up to doing anything much? Is this burnout? If it is I have it!
But I must drag my body and try to subdue the nurves. Try my best to avoid partial shutdowns. "Grrr". So difficult. "SWITCH" Must be all conquering and positive... I'm positive I don't feel like working! Erm... No. That's not it...
I can do it... I can do it... I must do it... I can do it... I'm the greatest bicycle mechanic I know! I can do it! I can work on bikes! Helping new bicycles hatch out of their little boxes.... They need my help! I'm coming little bikies! I'll be there! I'm coming! Don't worry little bikies. I will assemble you! :heart: :heart: :heart: I love you bikes!
I must carry on... I must carry on. I MUST. I MUST. I MUST!
Get up body... Shake yourself... Wake yourself... Get some "GRRR" into you! "GRRRRRRRRRRRRR!"

"HELP!"


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10 Jul 2019, 10:52 am

It is tomorrow... And strangely I am a little more relaxed. I have worked out why I seemed to be having partial shutdowns due to panic when working on bikes for friends... Well. Prior to this I had shocked myself as when another staff member was trying to speak to me I was coming out if a partial shutdown and it was just not going in, and I made a mistake.


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10 Jul 2019, 5:42 pm

Ummm. Some workplaces don't want human beings. They want human doings. I don't feel much of a doing.. At the moment physically I am not that strong...


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11 Jul 2019, 1:18 pm

Hope your job is going well MG :heart:


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11 Jul 2019, 2:00 pm

Thanks. It was all on the computer and some to do at home as ran out of time... But I can't do it as hard to see on the tablet, and is so frustrating. Is something kiddies would be good at... I am not a kiddie. I just gave up! Grrr. (Not the job. The tasks I am supposed to catch up with at home).
I hate these educative courses which one does not learn at all. Is about clicking things in the right sequences! Grrr. FRUSTRATING!


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12 Jul 2019, 1:45 am

Sending you a big hug MG :heart:


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12 Jul 2019, 3:32 am

Thanks Teach51. I know that if I didn't come away from it when I was soo frustrated, I would get a build up of pressure inside. I used to have that when in school where I couldn't always come away from it... I would have to switch off my brain and go into daydreaming about trains to let off the pressure. I was thinking about this this morning while in bed. Is it something rhat I do or is it common to everyone? Usually I find when I reach challenges that I can't tackle if I try to push myself my mind goes blank. Nothing. I can't think of anything at all. I have to mentally step back and go around the problem. I either ignore it to avoid the pressure (Hence daydreaming about trains) or I sit there stuck at the mind blank stage (Which when in school I would usually put my hands over my ears and try to stop any more information hitting me... But I later developed a way I could switch off my hearing to some extent... Does not always work!) or I would scoot around the problem (If it was something to do with something I could latch onto) and I would then explore avenues aroud the problem where I ignoted the problem itself, but by exploring around it, the problem itself would then slot into place. This could take many months of thinking every avenue out carefully to do... But in this situation I don't have months... "Grr!" The question... Well. I am logically minded so the subject itself I either know or could easily tackle. However, the way these computer questions are where one has to tick the exact right boxes in the right places one after the other in the section to pass and the logic to it (As there is no logic if one can't think in the way the one who set the questions can think) is sometimes warped, so I have to then ignore the questions and try to answer it like a complex form of the board game "Mastermind" but instead of just four variables, here I have about 20... And these sort of puzzles hurt my brain!
Where the problems stem from is the paragraphs we read to get the information to answer the questions are written so the questions themselves often can't be answered directly. For example (And I'm simplifying here) if I said "The cat is red" I could easily answer a question on "What colour is the cat?" However, if the question refers to the colour of yhe cat in an indirect way I will be stumped, even though the question is a very simple question to work out? I think it is along these lines I am getting the issues.
If I was being asked by a person and not a computer I would be fine as I can question further. I hate computers in this way! I never fit in a tick box society! "Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!"


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13 Jul 2019, 7:33 am

I hope that a diagnosis will bring you a deeper understanding of yourself MG.
It wasn't till I had to fight the system for my ADHD kids that I realised, after they were diagnosed, how serious my own ADD is. Then I became more tolerant of myself and my own difficulties. It is nobody's fault to have disabilities. I just learn how to live with myself in peace, my best has to be good enough, though it's a struggle. I was told that I was lazy and stupid as a child, now I know that I miss a great deal of what's going on due to a wandering mind and an inability for abstract thinking. Motivation and hard work have earned me two professions, and my ability to focus and be efficient takes an unbelievable effort. I am very unconventional in my approach and do very well with my students who are ND's.
I ensure that I get enough rest, avoid draining social situations, prefer one on one gatherings and provide myself with a calm environment. It really helped me to learn my own limitations and how to organize my life to suit my needs.

I stopped nursing because I couldn't stand the way other staff cut corners and were negligent, and I couldn't get the patients out of my head when I was off duty, I couldn't separate their pain from myself.

Have you finished with the computer stuff that you hate MG? Was it just a preliminary requirement for the job?


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13 Jul 2019, 7:36 am

Mountain Goat wrote:
Ummm. Some workplaces don't want human beings. They want human doings. I don't feel much of a doing.. At the moment physically I am not that strong...


Personally, I feel the world would be a better place if we had a bit less doing and a bit more being.


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