I've felt that caught in the middle thing multiple times.
I do have many friends who are on the spectrum, and a lot of them are great people.
I also have a tendency to notice when other people who are on the spectrum may not pick up on the social rules as much as I do, may be lower in a certain area, and other things. Don't get me wrong, there are people who are proficient in certain areas I am lacking in while I am more proficient in an area they are not. It varies from person to person.
With neurotypicals my age, there is a certain awkwardness, and disconnect. I kind of worry about people seeing me in the areas that I'm lacking. It kind of stinks to be in this limbo. I do have friends, but there's also a sense of rarely truly fitting in anywhere.
_________________
All glory to the hypnotoad.
INTP 9w1-5w4-2w3 sp/so