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I saw just seconds of clear video of a column of refugees, and it reminded me of times I've had to move on with what I could grab. I've worked most of my life to prevent refugee-causing situations, yet I'm sitting here making things worse with my furnace more than once an hour. I don't know if I should work on reducing my footprint, or work on the overall system. Either way, I'm likely to hit walls of misunderstanding, repeating frustrating old patterns.

Feeling lethargic for some reason and hoping it's not the onset of some sort of flu because I've made special plans for Christmas this year and I don't want to be ill.

Went to pick up a refill on a monthly prescription and the shrink accidentally wrote for less.

Could be anything, really.
It's mostly just me and my misinterpretations of things, the costs and attempts to make a change out of myself while undergoing certain changes myself. Really, it could just be anything.


Must I remind myself, no matter the situation, a mere whisper in my mind came as I mindlessly walked to work:

"You're in the era of Peace. Be grateful and enjoy it."

Dunno where it came or that if I actually thought of it. But what I do know is that it doesn't impose this view, and take it as is. The message is entirely up to you or myself to interpret.

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The giant crowd at the bowling alley.

My children fighting.

A family member and I got in an argument yesterday about plans we had made to spend time together.

He thought that I agreed to hang out with him on Friday, but I was really busy on Friday so I'm positive that I had told him I could do any day "other than Friday". I actually thought we had agreed to Thursday instead. So when Thursday had passed and he never called me to hang out (he was going to call me when he was free), I figured he was just busy or something and didn't worry about it. Truth be told, I would have been hurt by this if it were any other family member or friend, but he bails on maybe 60% of plans he makes these days. Reasons he cites include having trouble sleeping, work responsibilities, or even just not wanting to come sometimes. I heard through his wife that he slept in through his morning work meeting and so I assumed it was another one of those cases. For this reason I didn't feel the need to call him to ask why he canceled. I figured this would only stir up drama unnecessarily and so I just decided to hang out with my Mom and Dad instead.

Because of this miscommunication about the day though, on Friday he called me asking to hang out. I had to tell him that I couldn't because I was busy. Instead of being accommodating about the mix-up like I had the day before, he yelled at me and said that I "intentionally blew him off." My sister says he just gets upset around the holidays and that I shouldn't take his reaction to heart, but then she got into an argument with him about how he treated me too. Now it's Christmas Eve and everyone's mad at everyone (except for me, since I am more confused than mad), and I feel bad because my miscommunication seems to have been the catalyst for it all.

My room was very cold when I woke up this morning.

it's christmas.

Finding out that my fear of unpredictable people (and avoidance of them) somehow makes me "just as intolerant as a homophobe," according to an NT friend.

NT standards stress me out every day. But today was "special."

Opening presents.

For yesterday, sharing the breakroom at work during my break. My boss keeping on asking me if I need anything, when I told him that I'm fine. I don't want to be a broken record.