I have been isolated and alone for 2 weeks because of Corona (not sick). No-one is allowed in my home, groceries are ordered and left outside the door and my connection with the outside world is virtual only.
Now I am fine staying at home, I had a breakdown last year and for six months I literally didn't leave the house. This is different. No-one can come in, no touching, no hugging, no drinking coffee with friends, no conversations with neighbours when I throw out the garbage. 2 meters distance between people. No more than ten people anywhere allowed to gather. No restaurants, coffee shops, galleries open. Only pharmacies and food stores. The number of sick triples every day but the fact that we have no fatalities yet encourages us to do as we are told and isolate to delay mass simultaneous infection. This is going to be a long time. Will I go mad? I am a social creature. I have 100 rolls of TP ( you may be jealous) plus a bidet so my rear end is amply provided for but .... I have a little garden that is keeping me sane and also my belief that this virus has come to change us, to teach us that this time of upgrade and consumerism and botox is not the correct path. We have abused nature and we must restore the equilibrium by being responsible for each other and not exist for self gain only.
I am painfully lonely though I talk to many friends throughout the day, even having therapy with my psychologist by Skype. Can I survive months walled up, I have no car and buses and taxi are dangerous regarding being infected with the virus. But I have food and supplies, I encourage others to hold on and not be afraid, I am not afraid but I want to live to see a kinder, more benevolent world before I leave it.
It is like living in a bizzare movie, I have survived many wars and much personal suffering but I have never experienced or imagined anything like this. I think the world will never be the same and that is not a bad thing. Corona is natures' way of saying start respecting each other, work together in harmony, stop destroying everything good just for greed. Spend less love more.Take care of your children, live simply, be grateful. How long will it take? Not seeing my lover, not allowing anyone in, my life depends on it, though Corona is a quick death and sometimes I think, Teach, that's not a bad way to go all things considered, when I am so battle weary and tired. For now I am shut away in my own head and I am still fairly sane
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My best will just have to be good enough.