Lockdown - am I a misanthrope?
Whenever 'what are you missing' gets brought up on social media, people bring up their friends and family. Even people they've been speaking with every day.
I don't miss a single human.
Socialising is socialising to me. I'm still socialising with all my family whether through texting or phone or Zoom or irl (I live with parents). I'm socialising online on here and social media.
All I miss is things. But I feel guilty saying that when everyone else has mentioned somebody rather than something...
I'm actually dead set on not returning to some social situations. For eg crowds. I never want to be in a crowd again. I never want to make small talk again. I never want to be around kids with sticky fingers again.
Does this lack of missing people mean I hate people? Does it make me a bad person? Is this an aspie thing/social anxiety thing?
(I also don't miss my cousin's leapy dog who doesn't know how to approach people without jumping on them. Hope that mutt stays away from me at Christmas.)
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No you aren't a misanthrope KT. You live with your mother and your stepdad and you care about them. You care about your father too. You worry about him a lot. If you were a misanthrope you wouldn't care about anyone. You don't want to see your family because you are already with them, so you haven't had an absence. Most people here aren't talking about missing people other than their parents, their children, or their significant other, if they're separated by lockdown. You don't have an SO or children / grandchildren, and you are already with your mother / stepdad.
Today I felt like seeing my brother but the feeling passed after ten minutes. I'm fine to text him. Even in normal life I only see him a few times a year, usually for special occasions, and yet he lives about three miles from my house.
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Thanks Isabella.
I read a 'poem' about social distancing and it made me feel bad. It had lines like 'never take a crowd for granted'. Thing is, I wasn't taking crowds for granted, they were creating in me feelings like I was going to have a meltdown and once when I was abroad I almost fainted in a crowd.
And people are talking about missing their loved ones (I get it with missing little ones or very old ppl, granddad won't zoom) but - we're still in contact... ? That confuses me
It's the same when my parents go on holiday. Mum says 'did you miss me?'. I find I have to lie cos the truth is of course I didn't miss someone I was constantly texting.
I missed her when I went on holiday for a week as a kid cos all we had was one phone call in the whole week.
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Was the poem by an autistic person? Don't forget that it's completely normal for autistic people to dislike crowds and social gatherings. Now, that preference is reinforced even more for us because we worry about germs and other people's welfare on top of it all. We're deep thinkers so we get anxious about healthcare workers and the snowball effect too.
It's also OK that you don't miss your mum when she's on holiday. You're a grown adult! You see her every day of your life when she's home (which would drive most people mad). It's normal that you enjoy having privacy, regardless of the fact you are autistic.
You have a huge heart and you love your family dearly. That's all that matters! Hang tight and be yourself.
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And in the end, the love you take is equal to the love you make.
I thought I had social anxiety (well, I did), but now I'm craving for crowds again. I just miss going into a store and not having to queue up outside or having to remember to keep 2 metres apart from others or not to go the wrong way around the store. Life was much easier when you could just walk into a store, do your shopping at your own pace, pay without having any distancing rules, and leave the store.
Or maybe it's not the crowds I'm missing as such, but the freedom and normality.
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Not misanthropy.
Probably introversion or/and asociality.
One can be very social (emotionally and socially ful/filling and appreciative) yet asocial (in essence and intent, indifferent and lack of social drives and desires).
All and all, social anxiety or lack of thereof does not factor.
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Or maybe it's not the crowds I'm missing as such, but the freedom and normality.
Yeah my mum's shielded so we're shielded in practice. So we're online shopping. Most of the time that's easy, it's only difficult when you have to queue for online shopping which I can't remember being a 'thing' before.
I think it might be like a human equivalent when mum's dog can hear her outside. If she's out properly (pre lockdown/when she's at hospital) she doesn't whinny. When mum's in the garden and she's not, she whinnies. Maybe being so close to freedom makes the lack of it harder than what I have which is totally being at home for months.
And yeah I'm on the spectrum, like most people on here. And have diagnosed social anxiety.
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Sure, misanthropy is the general hatred, dislike, distrust or contempt of humanity and/or human nature, and a misanthrope or misanthropist is someone who holds such views or feelings; but what about a person who simply does not care?
I don't mean "does not care about others"; I mean "has ambiguous feelings toward humanity and/or human nature". Is the correct word "athropic"? Is that even a word?
I honestly don't know!
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Probably not. No. I'm the same and it's not anxiety with me.
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So unscrew my head
And rinse it out
Polish my thoughts
Turn into doubts
I feel the same way... in no way am I a misanthrope... people and social contexts pull all of the energy out of me.
I actually like my teammates but I am dreading going back to the office.
Especially after a rare and precious work friendship blew up due to my aspieness before the lockdown!
My biggest compliment to anyone is: "Being with you is as good as being alone." NTs don't seem to like that, lol.
What I feel you are doing, is invalidating your own experience by labeling yourself bad... or even asking the question. This is a learned behavior that many aspies have because our internal experience is constantly invalidated. It is sometimes part of impostor syndrome.
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I may use terms that are part of my theory of "Functional Cognitive Typology". Diagnosis is always a mixed bag but generally they map to the cognitive type when in dysfunction:
C = Cultural (NT), EC = Extra-Cultural (ASD)
U = understanding ~ ADD/ADHD
A = acceptance ~ baseline, normal
T = trust ~ possible schizotypal disorder
R = respect ~ NPD
C = cerebral (adrenaline averse), S = somatic (adrenaline seeking)
I am ECUC/S (cusp cerebral/somatic)