Something Profound wrote:
As a 38 year old who is seeking potential diagnosis, I am sure I have been masking my entire life and didn't realize it. Knowing what (very little) I do now about ASD and looking back, I realize that I assumed my stimming was nervous quirks (Shaking my knee up and down a lot, rocking slightly [apparently, I do not realize I do this], waving my hands near my side when I am frustrated or upset). I learned how to be an expert at employing words effectively, but when people ask me about how I became so articulate they don't realize that words made NO sense to me until I learned how to take them apart and put them back together (I enjoy the heck out of etymology because it helps me understand what words mean) and to this day I have to use long, round-about processes to do simple math equations. People trying to teach me how to do it the "regular" way irritates me. But I have become so good at doing these things (Which I assumed everyone had to do, silly me) that I seem...average more or less. I have odd quirks still, "but doesn't everybody?"
So can you be masking and not realize it? If I am indeed on the spectrum...yep. Absolutely. The things I had to learn to do to "be normal" I thought were just normal things. I didn't realize I was covering up my quirks, idiosyncrasies, etc to function, but now that I do, I feel as if it is a relief that my other behaviors I was covering for are ok.
Welcome to WP and good luck on finding your diagnosis .!
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