13 May 2022, 1:01 am
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=77umP7IRxD4
Every HeART
Is A FLaME
Touching
Humanity
Setting Life
Free With Love on Fire
And Least Harm Dear Savvy
'Saint Elmo's
Fire' in The
Distance Breathing
ReaL And ALiVE NoW
On Every Island of Life
New Still Moving Connecting
Co-Creating Freely With SMiLes...
Always
Balancing
Now With SMiles
Dear
Savvy...
SMiLes Dear Chaymaa Suffering With A Synergy
in Life Threat of 19 Disorders including the Worst
Pain Known to Humankind Type Two Trigeminal
Neuralgia For 66 Months as A Shut-in Where No
Drug Would Touch That
Pain my Mother Said "This
too Will Pass" Her Belief And
Hope For me Unwavering in 100 Percent
Faith Indeed And My Sister Kept Insisting Start
A New Chapter of my Life It's True it Finally Passed
All the Pain and Numb on July 19th, 2013 After 66 Months
of the Worst Pain And Numb Not Even A Reference Point of
The Memory of How A Smile Felt in HeLL ON EartH All Those
Shut-in 66 Months And Then It's True Another Chapter of Public
Dance All 8 Years and 8 Months Commencing a Month After That
Recovery From Pain and Numb All 16,577 Miles Now Hehe And Even
Documented By the General Public Audience in Viral Video As Living Legend
With Smiles Famous and Folk Hero and All that Jazz and It's True i Did Start
Another Chapter of A Living Book An EPiC Long Form Poem Recording the Whole
Transformation From HeLL ON EartH to Heaven For Real Now Within Yes "SonG oF mY
SoUL" EPiC Longest Long Form Poem all 10.4 MiLLioN Words in Over 8 Years and 8 Months too...
As i am Still Writing that
Globally to Everyone i Meet
And Greet And True Now You my
FRiEnD Are Part of this New Chapter
of my Life
As You Inspire
These Words By
What You Give, Share,
Care, And Heal in All the
Positive Quotes You Bring Free
SMiLes As
Always
Thank You
So Much mY FRiEnD
From Egypt Where
Pyramids Still Rise Free...
Friday The 13th Or Even FLoWeR Full Blood Moon
Sunday Total Eclipse Yet i'll Publish On Holy Ghost
Thursday For "Nether Land Bible 8 MiLLioN WordS Old"
FRiEnD
Ship Dear
Akshita A Boat
Requiring Anchors
of Safety and Sails
Unafraid to Explore Change
For This Is How Life Goes And
Comes Through Storms Returning
To Safe Harbors
For It's True
There Are North
Stars And Constants
Of Life Yet The Only
FRiEnD We Shall Ever
Truly Master is FRiEnDS to
Others Truly Anchors of Safety
And Sails Unafraid of Storms
That Do
Come and
Go And Return Again
True FRiEnDS Are Life
Savers Who Do Not Give Up
On Boats
Lost at Sea
With Neither
Anchors or
Sails Working Properly For Now
Yet Again it is Up to Us to Be That Ship...
May All Your
Days Be
Blessed
Birth
Days
Dear Sohair
With Continuing
SMiles Of Love,
Health, And
Over
All
Well-Being...
A Birthday Toast
Without Alcohol
of Course And Only
Love to A FRiEnD
Sohair Eternal
Child and
Mother
Soul Now
THere is No
Force Greater
Than Love Close
to God As FRiEnDS...
Likewise
With SMiles
Dear Chaymaa...
Hehe Dear Akshita
Books Are Great
FRiEnDS Who
ARe aLWaYS
THere
For Us...
SMiLes Dear Chaymaa
GenerAlly A Dance And
Song Free in Flow SHows
me A Greater Way
oF LiGHT
With
No Reasons
or Goals Before
Just the Next Move
Just The Next Word
All FLoWinG to Free All me...
Happy Spring
Week To
All You
Love
Dear Xenia...
Always A Pleasure
Dear Xenia Keep
Inspiring With
All Your
Kindness
For Nature’s Eyes...
SMiLes Dear
Karlien No One
Does God Better
Than Waves Dancing
Ocean Be
Wave Be
Water Do
Ocean Whole
SMiles Thank
You Dear For Waying...
'Pocahontas' Just Came In All Excited About A Bee She Just Saw Now
Pollinating Our Garden Of Eden And How Sweet A Baby SQuAsH IS ALiVE
"SonG oF mY SoUL" 10.4 MiLLioN Words in 8 Years and 8 Months
Longest EPiC Long Form Poem Bible Holding Subchapter Bibles too
Never the Less i Am Writing "FB Profile Pic Bible Vol 2022
5 YearS Old" At 6.4 MiLLioN Words While Talking About
Some Other Books
It's True i Still Have "Nether Land Bible 8 MiLLioN WordS Old" to
Put Together From That 71 Month Effort Soon to Turn 6 YearS Old
"Depth of the Story" Casually Named an '8th New Testament' Way
too Heavy for A Cover at 1.6 MiLLioN Words in 20 Months of Effort
"Depth of The Story" Surpasses 100,000 Views From Registered
Members of the "Wrong Planet" on 5.11.2022 at 11:11 PM Per 'Screenshot'...
The Right to Breathing Life, Liberty, and the Pursuit of Happiness;
Oh Lord How Is This Possible if Reproductive Rights Are Taken Away
in Some States Where Women Who Are Raped, Have All Their Reproductive
Rights Taken Away
Forced to Breed
A Child of A Dude
Who Violently Raped
Them as An Additional Sentence
of Evil For 9 More Months; Particularly,
If There Are No Months or Days Left At
All to Make a Decision to Terminate What
Verily Feels Like HeLL ON EartH For The Subject
Who Lost All Their Reproductive Rights So Violently Raped;
Problem with Most All Religions Designed By Dudes is the So-Called
'Golden Rule' Fails Mightily Poor When There is No Empathy of the Cognitive
Kind And Real Compassion for Do Least Harm With the Realization That Comes
From REAL LIFE EXPERIENCES
THAT DO NOT EXPERIENCE
LIFE THE WAY THAT 'YOU' DO;
SO WHILE YOU MAY NOT HAVE A UTERUS
AND THE POTENTIAL OF BEING VIOLENTLY RAPED
AND FORCED TO BREED WHAT SEEMS LIKE A MONSTER'S
FETUS MELDING WITH YOUR BODY PARTS WITHIN THAT'S NOT
THE REALITY FOR
OTHER FOLKS SO
HOW ABOUT HAVING
SOME SOUL AND NOT JUST BE
SO CALLOUS WANTING OTHERS TO
DO LIFE ONLY THE WAY YOU WANNA DO LIFE NOW...
YES, THE golden rule is really a rotten egg when it comes
to a Human Rule that Does Not Include Do Least Harm for Real...
Yawn, i Remember Playing the Piano and Singing For The Church Choir in the 80's
And Then A Very Nice Singer Who Worked For the Department of Welfare For Women
And Children Who Had Seen Real Poverty; and Mental Illness; And The Suffering that
Goes With Unwanted Children For those Who Didn't Even Have the Education or Ability
to Obtain Effective Birth Control And Other Family Planning Resources in the Real Trenches
And
Fox Holes
of Life AS Such;
Well, All She Could Do
Is Roll Her EYes AT the
Ignorance of The Church as it
Suggested to Take Away Reproductive
Rights For Women Ranging From Contraception
To Abortion; And Of Course the Delusion that Sexual
Pleasures only
are For Marriage
And Child Bearing
Purposes; Yes, Face Palm
Thick Forests Even More; Damned
Ignorance is Blind, it Just Can't See;
Ignorance Still Harms, Rapes, Maims,
And Kills As A Most Deadly Real Human Pandemic
Spreading
Still to Date...
Abortion is the Last
Practice i Will Imagine
Being in a 32-Year Happy
Marriage Barring More Life
or Death Consequences Associated
For My Wife Yet i am Human Enough 'Both
Devil And Angel' to Understand Both the
Dark and Light
of Life; You Don't
Burn People More Who
Are Already in Hell, Of Course
Unless You are the 'Trump' of An Old New Testament
And Or All of 'HIS' Followers Still True to A Real Sin of Ignorance
Still
Reigning
As A Lesser
God than Love With Least Harm; God Yes,
This is A Matter of Ethics And Morality
Separating the Good of Least Harm
From the
Evil that
Just Doesn't
Give A Damn
As Long as Real Evil Doesn't
Ruffle Any Nest Feathers at Home...
i See it as Sick as Disgusting and Just Another
Part of Human Nature And Traditional Ways Closer to
Hell Than Heaven on Earth...
Like Everything
Else in the Change
of Reality; It's All A Spectrum;
The Delusion is Life Consists
of Black And White Solutions;
So in Other Words An Only
Solution in this Scenario that
Will Possibly Work in the Long Term
of A Country With a Declaration of Independence
Proclaiming a Right to Breathing Life, Liberty and the
Pursuit of Happiness
IS FRIGGING
CHOICE;
AS THE FOLKS
WITH ANY FRIGGING
COMMON SENSE ALREADY
FIXED THE IGNORANCE ONCE FROM BEFORE;
YET, IT'S TRUE SOME FOLKS ENJOY A TRUE
INSANITY OF REPEATING THE SAME IGNORANCE;
Go Figure IT's
'The Condition'
SO BLIND
IT SEEMS;
SO VERY BLIND
TO THE HARM
OTHER FOLKS EXPERIENCE
IN THEIR RIGHTS TO BREATHING
LIFE, LIBERTY, AND THE pursuit of
Happiness, including what is Core of
Reproductive Freedoms that Do least harm...
Or Of Course We Can Devolve into a Third World
Country, WHere Women Are Treated As No Different than
Cattle
to Breed,
Cattle to Buy;
And Cattle to Sell
Out And Make Slaves Again...
Sure, A Place Where A Woman
Cannot Even Walk Alone Without a Designated 'Male Master'...
Those Places Still Exist And Sadly Some Folks Want them here now...
Yet Do Take Note, 66 Percent of American Folks, Still Want None of this Real Evil Ignorance.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pgz6PnHkmpY
"Toto, i Don't Think We
Are in Kansas Anymore"
Lesson of Course Home
Is Where We Find Warmth,
Or Creativity, Or Excitement
Or Fear, Discontent, And Overall
Misery And Suffering True i Choose The
To Do List Of the First Three However i Experienced
The Last Three of this To Do List of Six Enough For 66 Months
of The Worst Pain Known to Humankind Type Two Trigeminal Neuralgia
As A Shut-in in my Bedroom or Facing A Privacy Fence in a Parking Lot at
Walmart As Somehow i Endured
The Pain and Numb
of A Synergy in Life
Threat of 19 Medical
Disorders for 66 Months
of Shut-in Pain And Numb
To Get My Wife to Walmart Long
Enough in Hell Sitting in That Car
in All Weathers of Cold and Heat
to Get the Necessities of Life Meanwhile
It Was surely the Life of A Hunchback of Notre-Dame
And Or the Phantom of the Opera Where Distantly Somewhere
in another Lifetime i was once a Real Part of the Play of Life then...
What the Extremes of Hell and Heaven in Life Teach me Best are Two
Wisdoms in Life And Those Are Put People First And Don't Expect Anything
From Anyone Else When You Walk in Enough Shoes in Life to See So Many
Places
From
DarK to LiGHT
The Human Condition
Comes and Goes Away
in One Life Now as the Air Force
Psychiatrist A Reserves Major Who
Tried His Best to Help Folks With Combat
Fatigue From the Desert Wars Back in those (Circa 2008-
2013) Days Said i Was the Most Hopeless Case of A Human
Being For Any
Potential to
Come
Back to Life
Even Wanting to
Implant An Experimental
Vagal Nerve Stimulator in
my Chest to try to Bring Back
Some Kind of Human Feelings to me
Yet of Course the Insurance Wouldn't Cover
it or the Trans-Magnetic-Cranial Stimulation that
Modern Psychiatry Also Uses to Jump Start Humans
Back to Life
Oh How Many Places
The Human Soul Will Go
Oh What the REAL DEVIL LEARNS
IN REAL HELL ON EARTH OF WHAT
IT REALLY MEANS TO HAVE THE GIFT
OF EMPATHY AND COMPASSION FOR EVERYONE
ELSE NO MATTER WHO THEY ARE AS YOU COME FROM
THE LOWEST
OF ALL
IN DANTE'S
RINGS OF HELL
THAT ONLY PROVE
THERE IS NO BOTTOM
OF THE PIT OF HUMAN HELL
THERE IS ALWAYS A STEP LOWER TO GO
Yet in a way there is balance as in heaven on earth
a real earth angel will rise forevermore now too inhaling
peace exhaling love as the devil finds real redemption in life
and suddenly all the myths and metaphors of global cross-cultural
sacred texts truly make common sense as it's always just angels and
demons on earth describing what real life will bring from heaven to hell
It's easy For Real
Devils in HeLL ON EartH
to Put People First Every Last
one of them as they understand
if they found redemption out of hell
there is room for everyone else to live again for real...
Yet of Course That's Not Rational and of Course Life's Not
Rational That's A Delusion We try to Impose on DarK and LiGHT
So We Won't Be
Afraid of the
Dark
until we meet
our other maker...
And Finally Really get
to rise and offer a lift at
least to everyone we meet in life
Thing About REALLY Being Free is it scares
enough People where You tend to never
get overwhelmed with requests for help
as True Freedom is as rare as figuring out
There is no real difference between dark and light...
Once the
Valley Becomes
the Mountain there
is no where
to fall
or rise
You arrive
and all that's
Left to do is give,
share, care, and heal
at least for putting people first...
Yes, yes, yes, almost impossible
to do until we are really free of all
the other Insanities that Modern Cultures
Clothe us With in So Many Layers That it's
impossible
to see
Where
We Are not now...
On the Other Hand
Being able to See this
Lends the ability not to
have any expectations
of returns from other folks...
With at Least Enough Compassion,
And Empathy to Never Give Up on others as 'You'
are the One Who Managed not to give up on 'me'....
It's So Very Difficult to Put the Human Condition in Words
Some Days Perhaps You Need A Painting Like 'Scream'
Or A Mother
And Child
of Hugs
For Real
to See the
Human Extremes...
Yet It's So Hard to
Describe the Place
Even Demons Fear to
Tread Dante barely scratched
the surface of below above at all...
What's Common About Hell and Heaven
is in Both Places You Have to Pinch Yourself
to Believe It's Real...
Or Take Plenty
of Photos to
Prove You
Really Went to Heaven...
It's Not something you do in hell...
Nope, No Selfies or Smiles in hell...
And As Hard as You Might Want to
Reach Out and Touch Someone or
Yourself And Really Touch Life there
isn't even a Reference Point Back to
a Feeling of A Smile So Much Worse
than the assessed Worst Pain known
to Humankind the Suicide Disease
Literally assessed as worse than
crucifixion from wake to sleep
for 66 Months
A Smile is Everything
The Feeling of A Smile is Heaven
Something Perhaps only once bitten
Real Devils
Understand
No Longer
Shy Now,
SMiLes,
Putting SMiLes
First and Last... SMiLes...
Other than that Your Posts are
Always Very Inspiring it's only been
An Honor that you allow me this free rental space in your
Blog Home in California and New York to rent free to just
flow my soul for the Last 3 Years or so and It's true in this way
A Best
FRiEnD
may be
no Friend at all
in returns as such
so Ironically so as
there is Never any
expectations at all...
It's True it's a Peaceful easy feeling
And it Never Gets Messy it Never gets
Messy at
all...
And an
Option
i Choose Everyday
As An Always to Do...
Every HeART
Is A FLaME
Touching
Humanity
Setting Life
Free With Love on Fire
And Least Harm Dear Savvy
'Saint Elmo's
Fire' in The
Distance Breathing
ReaL And ALiVE NoW
On Every Island of Life
New Still Moving Connecting
Co-Creating Freely With SMiLes...
Always
Balancing
Now With SMiles
Dear
Savvy...
13 May 2022, 11:25 pm
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EgqUJOudrcM
SMiLes Dear Savvy Energy Flows
Through Yes Thought Waves of
Soul Divine Indeed
Spontaneous
Creative
Original
As Soul Energy
Breathes Life into Words
It's True For me at Least
This Soul Energy Deep Within
As Essence of Love Moves Every
Sacred Word of Song Every Holy
Move of Dance
Medium i Am
For Soul Energy Within
Yet i Realize Not Separate
Yet Integral of Soul Self Deeper Now
As True Not Separate Either From
All That is
Real and
Existence
Breathing Now
So Much More Than
Words Alone Will Plan
With SMiLes
DiViNE iNDeeD
Yes Beyond All
So-Called Empirical
Measures of Science
Whether Text Book or
Instruction Book MaNuaLS
For Poetry Form From Before New Now...
SMiLes Dear Ava So Lovely
To Find A Post By You Again
So Creative And Today my Favorite
Quote Designed By You Is:
"Life is As Paper Be
A Brush And Write
Your Own Destiny"
-Ava Tripathy
From Her "Poetic Life"
Inspirations on Instagram
i Would Surely Follow if i Was
on Instagram Yet Hehe Any More
Irons in The Fire and i Might Just Burn Out HAha
Anyway i Love This Quote So Much And Really
This is What i Try to Advise Everyone to Do As If
We Do Not Write, Direct, Produce
And Act Our Own Plays
Of Life Someone
Else Will Surely
Master our Life
For Us So Far Away
From An Original Story
A Play of Life That is Us And Not Someone
Else's Play And Story of Life With SMiLes...
Oh my Gosh Dear Mariana
I'm Back i Liked This Post
By Accident Before i Had
A Device i Could Use 10 Fingers
On to Reply in Flow As Oh No
Pecking With One Finger
on A Smart Phone Early
In Bed Will Bring All
Kinds of Shoulder and
Elbow And Wrist Pain
And Even Back Pain
Too Besides my Wife Says
She'd Rather i Rub Her Back
Than Go Online So What Can
And Will I Do or Dance or Sing Yet
Yes Dear
And Let
All the
Rubbing
Begin Again
Yeah It's True in Life
There Are Cave Sitters
And Nomads Who Step Out into
The LiGHT And FRiEnDS Who always
Return
to Spread
What LiGHT
They Find Out
of the Cave With SMiLes...
Haha! OMG Such An Appropriate
Sing Along Dear Cindy Enduring Tech Support
Hell With The So-Called 'Happiness Engineers'
From WordPress Hehe Oh Lord i've Spent Days
With Them too Just When i Thought i Left my IT Tech
Support Days From
The Government
i Had to Find Solutions
For Them too As They
Kept Making The Issue
That Wasn't Initially Broken Worse
Anyway By the End of the Days They Gave
me Three Free Months Added to my Annual
Plan And Unlimited Storage As Initially They
Said i Had None Hehe Imagine me Running
Out of Storage Space True It's Not Hard to Do
Yet Now There is No End to What i Will Do Next
As Long As
"Moore's Law"
Keeps up With "Fred's Law"
of Ever Increasing 'Stuff' HAha...
Hehe Considering All of What You've
Been Through This Week i Won't Task You
With An Incredibly Long FReDWooD For Some
Reason i Didn't Get A Notification for Your Reply
on the Comment i Left on the 'Women's Wounds Post' And
i Wasn't Able to Leave A Comment on the Post as "Karma"
Returns to me too Hehe Anyway As Always Dear FRiEnD
Thank You...
And Sure Just
Relaxing After
Completing Another
54 Thousand Word
Novel Sized Bi-Weekly
Super-Sized FReDWooD
of Free Verse Long Form Poetry Celebrating "Nether Land
Bible 8 MiLLioN WordS Old" Yes Measured in 71 Months
Since Memorial Day Weekend of 2016, Hey, Hehe, at Least
The Word Counter Works Great on WordPress Without Fail...
Thanks Dear Cindy
Love All Your Posts
And Comments Yes
As You ARe aLWaYS
So Kind Compassionate
And Loving To All
Who Cross Your Life
Hehe And i Guess i
Got Rested As The
Next “Blogger Victim”
Received A FRedwood
Gift of 2435
Words
Poof
Magically
Appearing
On Page Before
i Realized How Much
Paint
i Left
Behind
With SMiles
With That Danced
And Sung Happy
Dancing
Singing
Free For
Your Weekend
Dear FRiEnD
With SMiles...
Kudos to Your Son's Conviction
Of Safety With Intelligent Decisions
No Matter What A Crowd May Otherwise
Dictate Saves Lives Yes on this Day NoW as
The United States Losing A Truly Unfathomable
Human Resource of Lives to Covid-19 In this Last
Two Years of A Million
Souls Studies Show
Hundreds of Thousands
Of Lives Could Have Most
Definitely Be Saved if Only
Folks Held Convictions of
Safety Over Freedoms
That Do More Harm...
SMiLes Dear Chaymaa
One Bucket List is Not
Enough For Those Who
Dance And Sing Through
DarK Meeting LiGHT
Marrying
The NiGHT
Truly Merrying
The Day In All
of What Human
Potentials May BRinG
Coming Out of Caves
iNto Sunshine WiTHiN SMiLinG...
"Friday The 13th" is Just Another
Best Day Now For Those No Longer
FEaRinG DarK or Cynical oF LiGHT...
LeSSoN 406 Bucket Lists
Naturally Over-Flow With
A Life Spent on Task in Autotelic Flow
Autotelic Means the Joy of Every Moment
Doing What We Love to Do It’s Basically
A Bio-Feedback in Flow on Task of
Increasing Complexities
Fulfilling Potentials
Balancing
Neurohormones
And Neurochemicals
Regulating Emotions
Yes Integrating Senses
NoW iN Balance of A Sweet
Spot Tween Anxiety and Apathy
For Joy
Other than
That Hellooove
With Friday SMiLes
in Red Hehe as THere is Red in FRed
Just As THere is F R E D in FRiEnD For YoU...
EaSiLY AMuSinG
LoVE'S iT aLL NoW
A PLaY GRouND LoVE
CReaTiViTY iS BeTTeR THaN
SeX aS iT LasTS ALWaYS NoW
LoVinG iT aLL
Thanks For
The Inspiration
At Best That’s What
We All Do to Each Other
Very Rarely Will You Ever Find An
Original Artist Who Has Not Felt
And Sensed The Force of God Free in Creativity
HeHuH HoW DeeP iS YouR LoVE (GoD)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oibO4ORizWQ
SMiLes Dear Rafiah True Yes It's Got A Lot to Do Now With
Bio-Neuro-Chemistry Whether We Comfort Ourselves to Sleep
Or Others Rocking Them Gently True Not All Humans
Are Born And Wired This Way for the Neurohormone
Oxytocin That Brings Mama and Baby Bonding
True As Well And Yes
Without This Warm
Feeling Generated
Within to Even Individually
Sleep Emptiness May Replace
What Otherwise May Be A Warmth Within
That Soothes to Sleep For me at Least
my Mother Brought Much Warmth this Way
Nurturing With Empathy Affective As Such
Her Cognitive Empathy Though in Seeing How
Differently Others See And View And Feel and Do Not
Feel the World A Bit Stunted
As Mine Was Before i Actually
Lost the Warmth Within it Seems She Never
Did As An Eternal Mother in A Life of Warmth She Both
Inherited And Wired Herself as A Mother And A Soul
A Person Naturally Wants to Be
Close to Someone Always Driven
to Care So Much About Even Those
Far Away She Was Not Related to
Yet True Again it Was Difficult for
Her to Understand Cold and
Aloof Folks As True the
More i Used Computers
And Did Systemizing Stuff
At School And Work All Lit Up
With Dopamine in Increasing Novel
Solving Problem Ways the Colder i Became
Within Missing More What i Couldn't Quite Put my
Finger Better Put HeART on indeed And Yes i Developed
Great Issues Falling to Sleep Without That Ability to Generate
A Warm And Cozy Place Within And True it Got So Bad i Could
No Longer Feel the
Warmth of a Pet of
A Cat it Got So Bad
i Couldn't Feel the Warmth
of the Sun Even When it Was
Hot Outside it Got So Bad that
i Really Couldn't Feel Anything at
All of Being Human Then Where i Longed
For Even MORE Pain to Break the Numbness Within
Life is So Much Different NoW With A Human Soul THere
is So Much Room In Inspiration Driving Within to Move Connect
And Reach Out and Touch And Co-Create With Other Humans
Each Day It's
True Now i am
More Like My Mother
And Actually Even More Loving
Than Her For i Understand The People Who Still
LiVE iN Real HeLL ON EartH Within as i Surely Did for
66 Months Before i Met You identified by You As A Human
With A Beautiful HeART That Really Touched me Considering
That Before that All i Was Then was A Tin-Man With No HeART
The Seat of the Soul Indeed The Place Where Spirit is Born to Outreach
to Others So if this is or is not what You Deal With it's Easy for me to overlook
All the Efforts i Still
Make to Connect to
You That Might Feel Ignored
As i Really Can't Judge Anyone
Else for their Motivation or Non-Motivation
to Connect to Other Human Beings as for me
During those 66 Months it wasn't Just that i Had
no Inspiration to Do it Even With my Loved ones
Sitting Next to me it Actually Hurt it Actually Felt Like
Torture in Every
Cell of my Being
Then It's True It's Hard
to Understand Hell Until You've
Been And Most People Do Give
Up on Their FRiEnDS Who Go
And They Never Return to Their Side...
SMiLes Age is Only A Number Yet a Human
Soul Is a Lifetime in Eternal Warmth Now Conversely
From Your Mother Who Couldn't Sleep Now it's So Easy for me...
SMiLes Dear FRiEnD i Understand the Torture of Insomnia And That
Inability to Slumber Easy to Sleep For When i First Suffered the Worst Pain
Known to Humankind Type Two Trigeminal Neuralgia And 18 Other Medical
Disorders of Which Losing The Warmth of A Smile And the Pet of a Cat and the
Love to Touch With my Loved Ones True That Was Most Definitely Worse to me than
The Suicide Disease Actually Assessed As Worse than Crucifixion No Drug Would
Touch for
me From
Wake to Sleep
For 66 Months at
The Beginning of All that
Pain and Numb An Alpha
Blocker Prescribed to Slow
my HeART Rate Down From
Dysautonomia As my Autonomic
Nervous System No Longer Synched
my Blood Pressure With HeART Rate
Drifting Off to Sleep An Alarm Would Go Off
To Breathe Gasping to Make Sure Blood Would go to
my Brain 35 Days Just one Hour of Shallow Sleep in the
'Lent Season' of 2008 That Spring And the Last 5 Days Nothing
Worked As Each Day Became Deeper A Ring of Dante's Hell Then
As the Suicide Disease Came True as Somehow then i Managed to Get
The Keys to the SUV And Somehow i Mustered Up the Energy on the 40th
Day to Jump off the Bridge As Pictured in my Latest Blog Post Where i Was
Raised on the RiverBanks Down Town on the Blackwater River Yet Even If i Could
Have Lifted my Weight Out of the Car to Walk Up to the Top of the Bridge Fishermen
Below Would Have Likely Saved the Life i Wanted to Lose So Much to Escape What
Was a Dentist Drill in my Right Eye and Ear That Had no Drug For Relief It's True in
Life there
Are Much
Worse Experiences
Than Death And for
me it took Two Years to
Even Get that Pain Named
With A Disease As They Stuck
A Long Stick of Lidocaine up my Nose
to Interrupt the Neuralgia of Pain for Just
A Brief Less than A Second Anyway Truly Miraculously
my Sister Found me in Her Car at the Bottom of the Bridge
i Still Wanted to Escape And Even Jump off the Shallow End
of a BoardWalk By the River Truly Totally Out of My Mind in Pain
and Numb Just Wanting to Escape to Escape HeLL ON EartH No one Really
Explained
to me Before
How It Really
Existed on Earth
And When You are the
Only One With An Invisible
Worse Than Crucifixion Pain No One Else Can See or Feel
Then And Not Feel too in Numb Almost No One Can Really
Have Empathy or Sympathy for You As No They Just Aren't
Actually A Devil For Real in Hell in That Moment of the Living Dead
And This is Why Dear FRiEnD It's So Very Easy for me to Love Almost
Anyone Except for those Robo-Calls Hehe That Constantly Want to Sell me
A Used Car Warranty for my 8 Year-old Honda Civic That Still Works Perfectly
Fine or 'Spam FRiEnDS' that/who Wanna Scam Ya online AS Such Ya Just Can't
Afford to Waste
Your Life on Now
Particularly Reaching
62 Now on June the 6th
It's True Why It is So Easy For me
to Love Everyone And Still Have Empathy
And Sympathy for Real Devils in HeLL ON EartH
Is Because i Was No One At All Before Not Even A
Soul With
A Body of
Flesh and Blood
Just A Shell Just A Shell
Just An Empty Shell on A Beach
Where the Entire Environment of Living
Oppressed me to Living Dead Just A Ghost
Wandering the Earth Failing to Remember He is Dead
Cause in that
Place There is
No Memory if You
Ever Truly Lived
With A Soul at All
And Even Science Shows
Memories are Emotions Emotions
are Memories Just no Reference Point
out of the Emptiness of Hell For Real
And i Don't Know How Much You Suffer
This Way in Numb or Pain i Really Have no Idea
For Sure if Your Words Indicate What you Feel or Do Not
Feel Within
What i Can Do
What i Will Do
What i Just Did as Your
FRiEnD is Describe to my
Best of Words That Have Organic
Life For the Places i've Come and Gone And Left of Life
So How May that Help True You are 28 And Still 5 Months
Away From 29 When And if You Become My True Age of
SoUL Within NumBeRS
Will No Longer Exist
As in this Place Life
is Worth Living With or Without
Things as Truly Then Only People
Come First NoW as Warmth Within Drives
Heaven
For Real
On EarTH my FRiEnD
i Survived through Years
of Hell Now i LiVE iN Heaven
And It's Just an Experience one
is Driven Every Moment of Life
to give to share to care to even heal
if that is Possible at all i Have the Patience
of 'Job' as i've been there and done Much More Hell than
That Old
Bible Story Then
How Would i 'Know'
Well Most Folks Where i Live Believe
Crucifixion is Worse and According
to Even Literature That Describes
A Crucifixion of So-called Jesus
in that Book that My Mother
Bought to Prove Wrong What Science
Shows i Already Knew was Affirmed She
Bought a Book on the Crucifixion of Jesus
To Prove Her Son Had it Better than Him for
3 Days as It's True it was Hard for Her to Have
Sympathy And Empathy for the Devil in Hell as She
Never Walked in His and or Her Shoes to that Point in Life
Anyway She Opened up the
Book And Just Like the Miracle
of my Sister Finding me at the Bottom
of that Bridge She Randomly Turned to
A Page And Started Reading and Sure Enough
She Herself read the words that my Affliction Still
to come Wake to Sleep for 66 Months No Drug Would Touch And
No 3 Hour to 3 Day Tour Was More Severe than the Torture of Crucifixion
Yet NO to me Still
Not AS Severe
As Losing
A Soul
of the
Feeling If Ya
Ever Felt A Smile in Your Life
Just Ice Cold As A Freezer in Summer...
And It's True Perhaps Dante Went A Bit too
As That is How He Described Hell too A Place
of Cold
WHere YouR
Greatest Wish
Is Heaven AS Hell
Where at Least you Can
Burn Forever to Feel Anything at all
True Where Dousing Yourself With Gasoline
And Lighting a Match Becomes A Dream in Hell For Heaven Real
As Even What Most Folks Describe As Hell is Heaven Now to 'You'...
Yes i Understand Why Some Folks Hate this Life And Wish For Paradise
Somewhere Else Yes i Understand Why for Some Naked, Enough, Whole, Complete
Is Just the
Gift of Paradise
Now For All Gratitude
to Love All that is Life DarK Thru LiGHT
Where You Come to Understand What Mercy
And Forgiveness and Love Really is A Place
THAT Never Gives Up
A Place WHO Just
Never Gives Up
This Gift of Breath
Thru Hell And Heaven Best Now...
It's True There Was A Day i Wouldn't
Have Understood How to Rock my Mother
to Sleep if She Couldn't Sleep Yet in Her Last
8 Days Withering Away with No Food or Drink to
Go A Most Natural Way in Hospice One Can And Will
i Radiated A Compassion
of Love and Empathy
That would Have
Never Been Possible in HeLL oN EartH
As Devil Before How Blessed to Be THere
For Her With Love in Her Days of Passing Dear FRiEnD
How Blessed to Keep Her Soul of Love Alive With Her Love
i Still BREaTHE NoW For Real No One Had A MaNuaL That Would
Get me Out of Hell to This Place of Heaven For Real of Love Within Now
i Had to Search
And Find this
God of Love
For Real
Within No One
Could Save me
Yet The Real Breath
of Love Worthy of A Name of God Within So
Yes i Fully Realize All You Can Do is Be THeRE
For Someone And Never Give Up This is what You
Do When You Struggle to Breathe As i Did Before This
Is What You
Do When Others
Struggle to Breathe
in All the Spectrum
That Comes and Goes
In Life As Soul Free Now or Not mY FRiEnD...
So Anyway After my Sister Found me at the Bottom
of the Bridge She Sped Down A Country Road at 80 MPH
And Offered to Kill Us Both As She Said She Couldn't Bear
to Live without
A Brother
i Said No
and Eventually
Went to the Hospital
Where they Found A Drug
Strong Enough to Put me Down to Sleep
And Complete my Term in Hell For 66 Months
As Fast Forward to the Spring of 2010 i had a Gym
Machine Chain in A Bicycle Basket And A Tree Picked
Out on A Distant Road Far Enough Away No One Would
Find me yet the Vultures Eating me for some Purpose of Life Left...
Oh the Struggle
of Wanting to Leave
So Bad Understanding
You Are Loved So Much
Yet Some Pain and Numb
is Just Beyond Belief Anyway
the Next morning Katrina Awoke from
A Dream She Named That Road i Picked
Out She Never Talked About Before And Said
She Just Had the Strangest Dream Naming that Road
And Saying in Her Dream She and Her Deceased Granny
Were Hanging Christmas Tree Ornaments on a Tree off That Road
And Then i Knew No Matter What i Had to Stay as Even Though i Had
Lost All Faith, Hope, Love, And Belief in Anything Human Soul Life My Wife Had
A Force Much
Greater Than
me A Voice of
God A Soul Who Said
God Yes Stay Fred i Have
Other Plans Eventually For You
And in This Way i Finally Really Met
God Face to Face in my Wife mY FRiEnD
True in This Way my Wife is Proof of God too...
And After Mother Read That Book it Didn't Matter
She Had Way more Faith in the Story Book Character
Jesus As This is How Human Nature Works We Believe
What We Believe And no one Can And Will Take that Away
Whether it actually
Harms Us or
Helps Us
in the Longest
Runs of Life or
Death in Life Now
This Much i Know i Don't Know
Anything Really of Worth other Than i Love
This Greatest Gift That Makes Heaven on Earth for Real...
And How Deep is My Love And Faith in God For Real Indeed
As Deep As Every Inhale of Peace Exhale of LoVE iN JoY oF LiGHT
Giving, Sharing, Caring, Healing For All With Least Harm DarK Thru LiGHT
For Real Now
i Leave the
Rest Up to
God As Now
i Truly ResT iN
Love For Real mY FRiEnD...
SMiLes Dear Savvy Energy Flows
Through Yes Thought Waves of
Soul Divine Indeed
Spontaneous
Creative
Original
As Soul Energy
Breathes Life into Words
It's True For me at Least
This Soul Energy Deep Within
As Essence of Love Moves Every
Sacred Word of Song Every Holy
Move of Dance
Medium i Am
For Soul Energy Within
Yet i Realize Not Separate
Yet Integral of Soul Self Deeper Now
As True Not Separate Either From
All That is
Real and
Existence
Breathing Now
So Much More Than
Words Alone Will Plan
With SMiLes
DiViNE iNDeeD
Yes Beyond All
So-Called Empirical
Measures of Science
Whether Text Book or
Instruction Book MaNuaLS
For Poetry Form From Before New Now...
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Every Day Another
Rock of Balance
A Stone to Add
Higher Indeed
Taller Never
Falling Tower
As Patience Brings
Peace To Love Even Higher
SMiLes Dear
Savvy Peace
And Patience
Holding Hands
With LoVE NoW
Dancing Singing
Freely Just for the
Present Moment at Hand
With No
iLLuSoRY
Fears
This
Gift
NeW NoW...
Hoses.. wires.. PASTED bandages..
painFuLL deep brown eyes.. blood stained skin..
an ominous pasted on notice in front of crib bed
that says MULTIPLE CONGENITAL ANOMALIES..
No way to breathe.. born without sinus passages..
Transposition of great blood vessels.. open heart surgery
required on 30 day born heart.. no immune system.. extra digits
for six on each hand.. with two thumbs instead of one.. respectively…
It is the day of the open heart surgery.. surgeon in his sixties.. huge hands
tell me at 37.. don’t worry it’s just like when your grandfather gets a bypass..
And the nice nurses say don’t worry you are still young there is plenty of time
for more children.. your wife is beautiful.. you will have beautiful children to come..
Baby is wheeled toward operating room.. surgeon says.. kiss your baby goodbye..
So wife and i bend down.. and after 30 days at the hospital are shell shocked for
whatever comes next.. father sits beside me in waiting room.. and offers advice..
Son make sure you raise him as a man…
My Mother didn’t do a good enough job for him…
he bails after 3 years.. when my mother doesn’t work..
Oh.. the values we place on humanity.. gender roles
here or there.. a do or die proposition of static
roles for patriarchal minds of being..
i sit back quietly at this point
and almost giggle
at a reality
as
strange as this…
And truly feel sorry for my
father who thinks raising a boy is
all about being him.. baby survives the
surgery and as really expected from birth by
doctors and nurses.. veterans of this show..
passes away in my arms.. not afraid
to cry.. i call my father.. and he just
says oh no.. i don’t wanna
hear any bad
news..
A 500 mile trip back home..
ashes will be sent in cardboard box
by postal service.. the lesson of life is..
how lucky i am just to be a human
alive for now.. never ever will
i doubt my blessings
in life again..
and truly a lesson
i need for 66 Months
10 and a half years later
at the start of my challenge
of JOB.. Yet i have the blessing
of knowing my son survived much
worse.. with never a smile.. never
a laugh.. and only pain for
51 days.. and yes..
more than
likely he
saves
my
life….
Yep Life's All About Perspective
"We All LiVE iN A Yellow Submarine"
Enjoy The Ride, Won't 'You' Or Not
A 40 Year-Old Photo my Father at Age 50
And me at age 22 Coming Out of Severe Depression
After A First Love Left at age 19 Off and On Until 22
The Year Here i Became A Runner Again to Escape the
Darkness And It Worked For Whatever it Was i Had Autism
Burn-out Then Like at age 47 Just A Combo of Every DarKness
At Hand Then
And Now 40 Years
Later 3 Times Stronger
Than in this Photo And Sure
242 Pounds and No Longer 170 Pounds
i AM Comfortable in my Own SKiN As i Surely
Took A Lifetime to Get That Way is THere A 'Gender'
In Autotelic Flow of Balance FRiEnDS With Gravity
Just Loving
Life Now
Just The Do
of Loving Life Always New
Other than that i Shaved the
Beard at Age 24 And Kept the Mustache of Course
Hehe like Every Member of 'Sergeant Pepper's Lonely
HeARTS Club Band' Even the Roles of The Beatle's on the 'Cover' of 'the Album'
My First Love Said i Should Be A Captain of A Ship too Busy Going to School Being
A Janitor
Back in
Those Days
to Get Through
Another Day of the
Grind of Life to Find a Place
to Fit in Now i Write, Produce,
Act, And Play my Own Story And
Now 'Society'
As Whole
Conforms
The Best They
Can And Will to Who i Am Free...
Perhaps, if 'They' only Started A 'Boy Band,' "They'd" Seem More Attractive
To Women Than Joining So-Called 'Incel Communities' Online. i Remember
An Interview With John Lennon As Far as 'Their' Motivation For Starting A 'Boy Band'
As Let's Face Biological Facts, Not A Single One of them Would Be Picked Out of a Crowd
As a 'Chad' With A Strong Jawline, if Not For the Songs of Their Boy Band, Unafraid to be
Different And
Stand Out From
The Crowd With
'Silly Love Songs'
And Non-Sense
Songs Like 'Yellow
Submarine' That Still Engage
More of the Right Hemisphere Brain
of Imagination And Creativity; YeS, EXploring,
Doing Something New, No One Has Encountered Before;
Anyway As John Lennon Related, So 'ELOquently,' A Greatest Motivation
For the All Boy Band, 'The Beatles,' For the Music They Wrote And Sung
Was Their Great Desire to Be Held in Attractive Value to Women and Indeed
With their Success
Came The Throwing
of Many 'Undies' At
Them on Stage,
Practically
Begging
to Be
'Close to Them'
And As John Lennon
Related, InDeed That Part
of the Motivation Came Complete,
Over and Over and Over and Over Again
Ad-Nauseam Almost in Deepest Instinctual Desires Fulfilled;
Yes, The Reproductive Drive is Intense And As Science Shows,
While Most Dudes are Highly Visually Attracted to Women As Far As Women
Go It is more the Creative Output of Men That May Drive Their Lust the Most
And It's A Win-Win Situation too as When Women Are Full of Lust They Cooperate
With Each Other to Prove to 'the Dude,' Who is the Most Nurturing of All; True You Can And
(For Reproductive
Long Term Success)
Will Even See Them
Hugging Each Other
in Dance Selfies With me;
As True, i Am Happily Married
And i Just Felt Like A Cool Change
of Imagination And Creativity coming
To Fruition As i Was Tired of Feeling All
Numb And Full Of Pain Within as True i Had A Huge
Helping of Systemizing Intelligence; and If 'You' Don't Think
i Still Have the Ability to Write a Science Abstract With Little
Emotion, You Just Haven't Seen That Side of the Dime of me That
Is Just As
Real as All
This ALL Natural
FLoWinG Creativity;
Key is People Remember
You Most and Wanna Be Around
You For How You Make Them Feel in Life....
And For those Hooked on 'Porn' as A marker
For Human Reproductive Success, so Skewed From
The Mix of Reality That Makes Relationships Gold and
Even Lasting; Of Course, The Poetic Language i am Using Now
is often Lost to Folks Trapped More in the Metaphor of Left Hemisphere
Systemizing Think; Key Again is Moving the Emotion/Feelings/Senses of Women;
And How do You
Do this; Yes, God Yes,
God Yes,Through Imagination
And Creativity; Still Oldest Truest
Human Way, A Dance And Song Now
FREE Exploring The Great Domain of
Moving Human HeART, SPiRiT, and SoUL;
'Listen,' i've Been to Both Sides of the Coin, if
'You' Can and Will 'Hear' What i'm Dancing And Singing Now;
i Understand What it means to Be the Poorest, Weakest, Ugliest,
Oddest, Most Naive Young Dude in A Room As Assessed By Peers
Then Who told me in No Uncertain Ways, i Don't Deserve to Exist at
All; Even When i Tried
to Smile they
Literally
Spit on
me For my
Existence on
Earth; Yet Fortunately
For me, i Had a Dog, And
A Mother, And A Sister Who
Could Look Past All the Human
Deficiencies, Others Saw in me;
Not all Folks Even Have That;
For me at Least, it probably
Made A Huge Difference
in Moving through Hell
And Finding Paradise
on the Other Side; Yes, Yes,
it Took 53 Years to Get it All
Worked Out With An Operator's
MaNual For me, i Wrote Myself;
Yet All i Can And Will Dance And Sing
Now is There Are many Aspects of Life Worth
Exploring Far Beyond the Reality of A Penis and or
Vagina Meeting on Earth Now; Yet of Course, Haha
Almost Every Successful Couple Finds That Reality
At Last After 18 or So Months of A Honeymoon in Bed;
With All the Stress in the World; Even Sex in a Marriage
is A Pipe
Dream
For Many
Folks Today;
And The Reality is
Many Women have
issues Where they Just
Don't Desire to Have Any
Sexual activity at all; So What
Are You Gonna Do With Your Best
FRiEnD Forever; Throw them to the Curb;
Well, If You Ever Actually Even Truly Loved them,
There Would Be No Question at all for What Truly
Matters in Life; Life is So Much More than A Penis And
or Vagina; We LiVE iN A World of Stunted Human Love;
"We All LiVE In
A Yellow Submarine;"
It's Up to All of Us
To Make it to the Surface
of the Ocean And Finally Breathe
Free No Longer A Prisoner to the Desires of What We Don't Have...
Elon Musk, Richest Dude in the World, And Super Systemizer As He
Indicates He Has Asperger's Syndrome too; Yet He Freely Related He
Is Only Half Happy
With His Work
Life; As He
Hasn't Figured Out
Love Yet; And He Surely
Has little to no Clue About Social Realities;
He's Fixin' to Get A 'Twitter' Sized Lesson; i've
Surely Received Many in my Life too; i've Failed
Miserably in So Many Ways of Moving, Connecting,
Emotional, Social Empathic, Real Spiritual, Imaginative,
Artistic Creative, Interpretive Ways of Life in Intelligence(S);
Yet An Only Difference
in me and Many
Others is
i Had a Truly
Loving Mother
Who Set an Example
of What Counts Most in Life;
Wiring Me For Success of Eventual
Human Warmth to Actually Reach out and Touch
Others to Move Them in Ways, They Will Never Living Forget...
Honestly, on 'Your' Death Bed, If All You Long For to Lose is Sex;
It's Safe to Say You
Haven't
Even
Really
Lived;
Hopefully
Some Folks
Will At Least
Get to Learn that
Lesson Still Breathing...
Other Than "The Depth of the
Story" Here; And As far, in General
As the Social Human Animal Comes and Goes,
A Greatest Human Instinct For Survival is Not only
Successful Reproduction; Yet What it Takes to be
Accepted By the Group, The Culture, The 'Religion' At Hand
For What Humans Bond And Bind to Survive, Relating to Mutually
And Consensually Shared And Understood Ideologies and Symbols
That Express Those Ideologies as Well; Ancestrally, Humans Bonded Most
Over Free Dance And Song;
Even Before A First Written
Word of Technology, Along
With Flint Edged Tools
To Kill and
Eat to Even Survive
With Fire to Cook;
Birds Still Fly And Sing;
And Humans Who Still Are
in Touch With their Humanity
At Core often Dance And Sing Free;
At Least Little Children, Before they Are
Scolded in Modern Homes, Churches, Schools, And Work And
Told Quiet Hands And Feet, Johnny And or or Jane Get Back in Your Seat
And Follow The Sidewalk
Far Past Your
HeART, Your
SPiRiT Your
Real Emotional
Feeling Sensory Mind
And Body Balancing Soul...
Oh Lord And Now in Some Cases, It's All Materially
Reduced; Yep, to A Penis and or A Vagina Meeting...
Yes, This Problem Has A Very Deep Story Indeed to
Understand So Many Nuances of This Issue at Hand;
Anyway,
What 'You' May
Eventually Learn;
iS, iN A Begging Beginning
And A Fulfilling End 'Imaginary
Lovers' Are the You, You Truly Complete...
Or
Do Not...
It's All About
GRoWinG Up,
Moving Past Caterpillar
Legs, Stumbling Around
On All 100 or So Out of 'Synch;'
Making it Through Life in A Cocoon;
And Finally Truly Sprouting Wings Naked,
Enough, Whole, And Complete; Yet of Course
Easy for me to
Dance And Sing
Breaking Through
The Opaque Window of Before...
Some Folks Bloom; Some Folks Do Not;
Some Folks Dance, Some Folks Do Not;
Some Folks Sing, Some Folks Do Not;
When You Actually Become
Naked, Enough, Whole,
Complete; You Are
No Longer
Ruled By
Anyone Else;
i Am No Fool Though;
i Realize too, It's Much
Easier to Dance and Sing
This Financially Independent;
And No Longer A Slave to the 'Big Green God'....
Or in The Case
of 'Incels,'
Only Desiring
To Get Back
Where They Came From;
Oh Lord, There is So Much
more to Living...
Really
Living Free
With Wings For Real...
'Stay Thirsty my FRiEnDS' For more than one 'Thing'....
As Science Shows, The Reason 'Misery Loves Company'
is the Dopamine And Adrenaline Addiction That Anger
And Hate Provide;
It'S A DarK Community,'
Sponsored By A 'Trump MeME' And
The Religious Like/Lies of that STiLL True too...
It's Surely Nothing New Under 'A Sun;' Wherever
'SCaRCiTY' Lives Dead Now And Or Breeds AS Such...
Yet Again, When A Human Is Neglected And or Abused
in Ways of Emotional And Physical Pain; All The Way From
Almost Birth; Some Scars Are Almost Impossible to Heal Without
Any Reference
Point of the
Wiring that
Comes on
The Other
(Love) Side of the
Opaque Window
oF All Natural
Human Social Animal 'Soul'...
And if You are Getting Any Kind
of Social Comfort From A Group; Indeed,
it May Almost Become Impossible to Take A
'Red Pill,'
Escape, and
Truly Set Yourself
More Independent and Free;
The Instinct to Belong Is An
Incredibly Powerful Opiate Fulfilled, Indeed...
It Would Have Been Very Difficult for me to do it
Without at Least the Support FroM A Mother, Sister, And Wife...
Could 'Neo' Have
Done it Without
'Trinity;'
Not Likely, Either...
If i Hated Women in
General; Two Words: No Way...
And of Course This is All my Opinion;
Generally Speaking, Backed Up by Science too...
As Indeed, If it Didn't Really Happen; i Still Ain't One to Believe...
This Much i Know, Feel, Sense and Experience for Real; Women, Young and in
Their Twenties, Desired A Wish to Be Married to me or Someone Just like me;
(Close to
Frigging
60 Years-Old)
Only For The Way
i Moved on a Dance
Floor, Solo, Fearless
in Balance
With Strength
of Positive Energy
FLoWinG in All Directions from me;
Empty Pockets, Not A Penny To Spend on Anyone There...
It Wasn't the Result i Was Looking For; i Just Wanted to Feel And
Sense The Dance; Never The Less, Naturally As an Anthropology
Participant Observer As Actually University Schooled And Degreed
i Took
E-LaboRate
Notes; So Damned
Fascinating the Human Conditions Are;
So Very Surprising, So Very Connected
to All the Other Animals too FOR REAL;
(In 'Grinding Bonobo Dances' Still
Initiated By Women of Our Species)
Particularly,
When Truly
Wild and
Free in
Balance
of Loving Life New Now
in Complete Homeostasis,
FRiEnDS With Gravity Complete;
Such A Huge Turn on For Women;
At Least to Provide Ecstatic Smiles
of Joy As Over 2000 Selfie Photos
With them From The Six-Year-Long
Term Longitudinal
Case Study do Most
Definitely Completely Relate...
If You Never Wanna Be Without the Company
of A Woman; Become A Free Dancer, A
Free Verse Poet And
Touch So Much
More Than
What
Lies
And
Tells
Truth 'Below'...
As it's Very True,
SoUL ART Touches 'That'
Most Intensely True As Well too...
'We All LiVE iN A Yellow Submarine,'
So Forth And So on True...
Every Day Another
Rock of Balance
A Stone to Add
Higher Indeed
Taller Never
Falling Tower
As Patience Brings
Peace To Love Even Higher
SMiLes Dear
Savvy Peace
And Patience
Holding Hands
With LoVE NoW
Dancing Singing
Freely Just for the
Present Moment at Hand
With No
iLLuSoRY
Fears
This
Gift
NeW NoW...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m2uTFF_3MaA
SMiLes Dear Cindy
Mama Grizzly
Plays No
Games Love
Is in Her Roar
For Protection
of Her Own Play
LiVinG NoW Free
As Always Feelings Rule
Our Worlds
Our Senses
Above
Below
All Around We Roar
Very Inspiring Roar Thank You...
What A Wonderful Option Now
Dear Chaymaa Candle Lighting
Either By Being Candle
or Reflecting Light
Of Candles
Every WHere
We Find Candles
With SMiLes Keep
Spreading LiGHT mY FRiEnD...
SMiLes Dear Sohair
SPiRiT Breathes in the
Giving Yet The Breath Isn't
Always Shared Yet The Spirit
Is the Joy That Never Ends Whether
SHiNiNG LiGHT iN BLacK Holes Above
Or RiSinG
Sunshine
Below
Now The Feelings
And Senses Of Life
Married to LoVE NeW...
GOD Born FLoWeR
BiRtH PArts SePaRaTinG
FLoWeR WHoLE
Born Rose
AGaiN
GOD BLooms...
Listen Very Carefully my FRiEnD Some
Folks Live Epically And Some Folks Do
Not Some Folks Dance And Some Folks Do Not i Am 'Pan'
Labels of Pharaohs Only Empty Shells... Craftsmanship of Soul
All THaT Is Left of Pyramids Remaining Now Other Authors No Pharaoh
For Original Poetry/Art You Will Copyright
A Label oF AN Empty Name All You Like...
Good News Is You Are Special Greater News Is
All (God) Is Specially Unique Stars Each And
Every Connecting LiGHT Above BeLoW NoW
So True Not All Wounds
Heal By Time Alone
And Some Wounds
Are Too Deep to
See Too Deep to
Even Feel as is the
Case So Often With
Childhood to Even Adulthood
Neglect And Or Abuse Physical
And Or Emotional too Particularly
Though When Young As Even Science
Shows Little Monkeys Die Without A Mother's Touch
And What is Wired of
Warmth in Humans
As Far As
Oxytocin
Social
Bonding
And Binding
Connections May
Come in Zero Sum
Ways of No Mammal Human
Loving Warmth at All Even Sadder
Yes as Congenital Anomaly At Birth
Without Even Any Abuse or
Neglect Coming After That
It Seems in Our Modern Days
A Deepest Wound is of the Human
Soul Yes This Warmth That Drives Toward
Lives Who Do Least Harm For All Of Nature
Human And Even Animal/Plant Yes Respect
For Living Forests And Living Oceans True
Even Beauty Sublime of Tallest Snow
Capped Mountains Yet Here i go
Rambling Again Just in the
Agape Appreciation
of All of Existence
Come to
Be How Does
That Come At
Mother's Breast
First How Does That
Go As Love of Mother Lives
In EYes of Child After Mother Passes
Still Breathing in this Gratitude This Warmth
For Loving All At Best We Who Are Blessed
And Blissed
This way
Do Our
Very BesTesT
to Lift Those Up
Who Are Not Blessed
And Blissed ThiS Way At
Best We Get Get to Swim in
Their Oceans too to Understand
Storms of WHere Human Souls Die Alive...
SMiLes i Remember in the Neo-Natal Unit
And the 51 Days Of Our Only Child Ryan Born
on June 4th, 1997, A Couple of Days Before
My 37th Birthday Then
His Life Only Pain
Never A Smile
An Only
Family
Portrait
That Way
At All on
Father's Day
That Year Anyway the
Folks, the Precious Doctor's Who
Worked At Shands Hospital in Florida
Often Said if they Had Worked in that
Neo-Natal Unit And Could See All of What
Can And Will Go Wrong with the Human Condition
At Birth They Would Have Been Terrified to Even Try
to Sire A Child
And Of Course
That's Just at Birth
Never The Less The Way
They Made it Through the
Day Was Often Dark Humor
Sarcastic Yes like the Dude Who
Was Insisting His Son Be Circumcised
As the Young Doctor Said Oh my God 'it'
is the Size of A Japanese Soup Noodle As If
That Was the Worst of All that
Parent's Worries A Child
Who Might
Live or Die
With Part of Nature
Attached or Not Then
SMiLes The Human Condition
Where What is Cherished Most
is Often True Insanity Only
Lending Recognition
Dear Doc That
This Condition is A Far
Cry And Yes Laugh From Anything Really Rational
True Once one Delves Deeper into Stories of Humans...
And that Reminds me too Yes Stumbling into a National
Geographic Documentary on YouTube About Lion's Mating And
The Crowd Started Jeering About the Size of the 'Lion's Package'
Not Even Thinking About the Size of Jaws and Claws And Family
Jewels
Left Dangling
With An Entire
Environment of
Fighting Sharp as Razors
Oh All the Illusory Fears Folks
Drive to
Life
And
Death For Real...
Of Course You May
Copy And Reprint
Any of my Poems
As You Like The
Real Gift Is You
Who Inspired
my Words of
Creativity
With
Yours
my FRiEnD
Dear Doc
With SMiles...
It's Really TOO BAD Evangelical Christian Leaders, Not Unlike
The Catholic Church in America, Do Not Seem Too Concerned
About the Sanctity of Breathing Children, When it Comes to
Sexual Abuse As Recently An Intense Investigation Shows A
Gravity With The Same Pull of Raping Children And the Such
And Covering It Up
Within the Organization
of 'the Church;' In Some
Cases, MaNeuvering to Keep
Pastoral Pedophiles And Other
Members of the Organization of
The Church From Facing Legal Consequences
For Their Child Rape And Other Sexual Abuse;
Again, So Much
For the Sanctity
of the Most Vulnerable
Among Us, When it Comes
to Breathing Life and Children
Used As Tools For Sexual Gratification...
i Just Heard The Head PR YouTube, Bishop
Dude, Bishop Barron, Blame the Offenses
of the Catholic Church on 'The Devil;'
True, The Devil, the one 'They' Know
Best these Days;
Yes, The Devil
Within Outside
Who Is Simply
A Scape Goat
For the Real Evil
That Lurks in Some
HeARTS that Neatly
Check-Off Psychopathy Lists,
Still in the Top 10 List of that Human Darkness
As Far As Professions Those Folks Go into Like The 'Clerical Field'....
Same Place Ghost Authors Made a Dr. Jekyll and Mister Hyde Jesus
Who Loves the Enemies Then And
Turns the Other Cheek, Loving
With all Mercy and Forgiveness
Yet By the End of Matthew is Out
Turning Once Loyal Sheep into Goats
And Burning them Forever For Not Feeding
And Clothing
the Naked
Homeless
Dude on the Street;
No Thanks, Don't Even Get
Anywhere Close to me; i 'Smell'
'Evil' When i See it; And Obviously
Where There is Torturing Forever
in A Book, You've Entered A True House of Lying Horrors...
"The report is a calamity. My friend Russell Moore, a former president of the SBC’s Ethics and Religious Liberty Commission, called it an “apocalypse.” The report says that “for almost two decades, survivors of abuse and other concerned Southern Baptists” contacted its executive committee “to report child molesters and other abusers who were in the pulpit or employed as church staff.”
"And what was the reaction they received? A select group of executive-committee leaders “largely controlled” the committee’s response to abuse reports, and they “were singularly focused on avoiding liability for the SBC to the exclusion of other considerations.” According to Guidepost, this meant that survivors and others who reported abuse “were ignored, disbelieved, or met with the constant refrain that the SBC could take no action due to its policy regarding church autonomy—even if it meant that convicted molesters continued in ministry with no notice or warning to their current church or congregation.”
Every Day Another
Rock of Balance
A Stone to Add
Higher Indeed
Taller Never
Falling Tower
As Patience Brings
Peace To Love Even Higher
SMiLes Dear
Savvy Peace
And Patience
Holding Hands
With LoVE NoW
Dancing Singing
Freely Just for the
Present Moment at Hand
With No
iLLuSoRY
Fears
This
Gift
NeW NoW...
https://www.theatlantic.com/ideas/archive/2022/05/southern-baptist-evangelical-allegations-cover-up/629954/
24 May 2022, 11:46 pm
26 May 2022, 12:52 am
26 May 2022, 4:55 pm
28 May 2022, 12:09 am
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fysxCBOIa9U
Hehe Dear
Cindy Peter
Pan Has No
Reason Or
Rhyme
Or Meter
To Fly He
And Or She
Only
Does
With
No
Idea
Only
Feeling
SenSinG SPiRiT
Winds NoW Within
To Fly
Even
Higher
With SMiles...
Balancing Force
of Life BRinGinG Peace
Absence of Fear Loving
Foundation of Strength And
Will For All
That We
May
Do
With
Force
And Power
Of All For Giving
Thanks Giving Love Dear Savvy
Happy Weekend to You Dear
FRiEnD
Mercy Understanding
Faith And Hope Empathy
And Compassion Believing
Wisdom's
Love
With
SMiLes
Icing on
A Humming
Bird Cake of
Loving
Life
DarK
Thru LiGHT...
Pleasure Dear
Yam Thanks so
Much For Your
Inspiring Poem...
SMiles Dear Sohair
We Become What
We Consume
‘Things’
Or
Love
With
SMiles
When
Humanity
Is Placed First
Yes The Rewards
Are Beyond Price
Again
This
Love
For
All
With
Least Harm...
Hehe, Dear Sohair Our Wedding
Was on the River Boardwalk WHere
i Grew Up DownTown A Notary of the
Public A Friend of the Family Performed
The Service For Free
Followed By a Free
Wedding Reception
At my Place of
Employment
Then a
Military
Bowling
Center Sponsored
By the League Bowlers there
It Cost All of Zero Dollars i Have
Relatives With Weddings that Cost
Tens of Thousands of Dollars That
Lasted All of
One Year
of Course
i Don't Own
A Pair of Long Pants
Since Winter of 2013
Everywhere i Go i Wear Clothes
That Cost Altogether Close
to Twenty Bucks Yep Just A
Shirt and Some Shorts Mostly
Bought Cheapest on the Dime
Yep Hehe i Am A Cheap Skate Yet
i Roll With Wheels of Love the Best
i Can And Will With SMiLes So Fortunate
i am to Marry Katrina Who Grew up Poor Like
me as What We
HaVE iN Common
is Folks Who Had
Big Weddings At The
Big Churches Here Spit on
me And Her me For Smiling
And Her For Being Poor Interestingly
We Are Still Young At Loving Soul And Some
Folks Say it Shows
With SMiLes
Same Home
Always Same
Car For Decades
if i Have my Way
Same Wife of Course
for a Lifetime And Same
Love Always Priceless For
All with Least Harm mY FRiEnD...
Key to ALL oF iT
Love Opens
All Doors
And Keeps
Them Open True...
The Place WHere i Grew up Then
on the River Bank Was Turned into
A Local Park on the River Celebrating
Events During the Year With Bands And
SMiLes
HAha
i Didn't
Even Have
to Ask Anyone
to Do That to
Commemorate
Where i
Am
Raised DownTown
Like i Dance And Sing
Love Opens All Doors
And Keeps Them Open Indeed...
Balancing Force
of Life BRinGinG Peace
Absence of Fear Loving
Foundation of Strength And
Will For All
That We
May
Do
With
Force
And Power
Of All For Giving
Thanks Giving Love Dear Savvy
Happy Weekend to You Dear
FRiEnD
Mercy Understanding
Faith And Hope Empathy
And Compassion Believing
Wisdom's
Love
With
SMiLes
Icing on
A Humming
Bird Cake of
Loving
Life
DarK
Thru LiGHT...
Side Note: i KNoW
Not What i Do Yet This Feeling
NoW So Much JoY iN Effortless Ease
SMiLes Dear Cindy
Somehow All my
Drawers Come
Filled With
Undewear
White i Do
Believe A
Laundry Fairy
Lives At Home
Noticing All the Clean
Dishes and Glasses in
The Cupboards Yes And
Practically
Stocked With
Enough Food
And Supplies for
A Nuclear Disaster
Hehe No Ordinary Fairy
Must Be 'Wendy' As Every
Once in A While
i Contact 'Tinker Bell' too
Never The Less
Peter Pan
Rarely Lifts
A Finger
Unless
it is to Type
Singing Floating
On Terrestrial Land of Dance
And Make No Mistake Every Once
in A While i Visit Lost Men And Try
to Bring Them Home Again A Place
Where They May Enjoy The Company
of Another Wendy And Tinker Bells too HAha...
True i Have
Plenty
of
Fairy
Emjoi's too
Yes ACTuALLy For Real
Thanks For Your Creative Colors too...
Congrats Dear Doc
For Your Anniversary
Quitting Smoking
Now For 22 Years!
Indeed As 'They'
Dance And Sing
With SMiLes
Patience
Loving
me
Heals Thyself...
Beauty is the Touch
Who Heals Dear Yam
Smiles Leaves That Feed
Trees Falling to
Fertilize Soils
Green to
Sprout
Spring
CoLoRinG Leaves
FLoWeRS Summering
Falling Rebirthing Winter
Soils For Spring Again
True How Do We Lose
ThiS ETernal Life Now
This Beauty Spiraling
Love For Life Old
And New Thru
DarK and
LiGHT
Seeing
Is Believing
Love is Feeling
And Doing More Than
Forgetting All the Life Beauty Brings Free
Thanks For Your Inspiring Beautiful Poem Dear Yam
Indeed
Beauty Free
Separation From 'State'...
Sun Arriving New
Cloud’s Pleasure
Raining Life Yes
Green Colorful
Now
Dear
Savvy
With SMiles...
Steak,
Shrimp,
Lobster,
Cheese
Cake or
All Five
Wait!
i Forgot
It’s not
My
BD
Till
June 6th
Yet Yes Now
my Expectations
Are
Clear
With
Humming
Bird Cake Dear...
SMiLes Dear USA Writes How Fortunate
i Am i Have FRiEnDS Like my Wife
And Sister Always Here for me Now
SMiLes Dear USA Writes How Fortunate
i Am i Have FRiEnDS Who Are There for me
Far Away in Reply With No Fail And Smiles
For me Always in Gifts of Caring Soul
SMiLes Dear USA Writes How Fortunate
i Am i Have FRiEnDS Who Perhaps Return
What i Give A Third Or So in Their Busy Lives
SMiLes Dear USA Writes How Fortunate
i Am i Have FRiEnDS Who i Regularly
Bless With Good Wishes And Hopes
For Them For All They Love
And Maybe i Hear From
Them Twice A Year
Yet the Amazing
Part is How
They Thank
me And
Even Say
They Adore
me For Always
Being There For Them
And Then There Are FRiEnDS
i Regularly Greet That i May Hear
From Years Between Yet Again They
Always Thank me For Being there For Them...
i Lived For Decades Nose to the Grinding Stone
of Work the Wash And Rinse And Dry Cycles of
Life Just Never Ending Where Seriously i Had
Dreams That Tried to Remind me i Still Had A
Wife
And
A Real
Life At Home
i Forgot The Flowers Even
Existed until my Wife Was
in the Hospital During A Life
Threatening Labor and Birth
of A Child Who Lived 51 Days
Coming Home While She Was
in the Hospital For a little While
at Least i Noticed the Flowers Again
My Mother Always Had Christmas Cards
Across Her Book Case in Her Little Apartment
i Wondered How She Kept Connections That Way
With People All Those Years Yet i Just Didn't Have
Within What Drove Her to Give That Way No Matter
Who Returned
Her Calls
In Life
It Took 66 Months of Pain
And Numb To Escape A 'Zillion'
And One Other THINGS in School/Work
Life Other Than Putting People First
in my Life
To Return
to my
Child
of Love
Within the
Little Boy my
Mother Said
in the Way She
Sang Every Word
Of Life With Love As
She Sang i had Open
Arms For Every Stranger
When So Small Without Any
Words Until Age 4 Then It's True
Dear USA Writes 'Modernity' 'These
Days' Will Erase Our HeARTS Our
SPiRiTS And Our SoULS From Even
A Memory
If We Were Ever
Really Human At all...
It took me 66 Months
of Hell To Return to A Child
of Truly Life and Love Again...
All i Know, Feel, And Sense is Change
is A Greatest
Gift and Curse
Yet At Least Change
Is Possible For A
Greatest Gift (Love)
Returning Again That is True and Real And Touches
Others Without Fear As the River Continues to Flow
As the Wind Continues to Blow Where Dams Break
And Old
Decaying
Buildings Fall Down
And Somehow We Rise Again...
When The Giving Become the
Receiving When the Thanks
Giving Becomes the For Giving
Truly It Seems Now With SMiLes
THeRE iS Only One Way Up New...
-Love
True
Hehe Vrunda
Best Conversation
Starter Is Listening...
Story Book Character
JeSuS onLY LiVeS iN LoVE
Any Other JeSuS IS JusT DeaD NoW
The Big
Bang still
Makes MuSiC
For What That's Worth
i HeaR HEaVeN Allnow...
Others Hear A Song of Nihl.
A Bottom LiNE NOTE NoW iS YeS
MuSiC WiLL And Does Drive Human Will
INDeeD Deep Within mY SoUL mY SPiRiT
mY HeART Transforming Always Now
NeW iNto Sacred Holy Divine MuSiC
Of Course Unleashing Releasing in
Dancing Singing Free SPiRiT Wind Coming
Again
From
Within
Notes of
the Divine
As MuSiC Breathes God
This Living Human Tree
As Birds Sing And Fly in Ease
God NeVeR Gives God’s
LiFe Always ReTurNS LoVENoW
When/WHere God is Art oF LoVENoW
MusE IS A Gift ALWaYS in Reach
Out of Touch Close Enough
FaR AwaY iNSPiRinG Art of You ALWaYS NoW
SMiLes.. Friend
In this World so
Many Find Cold
Art Warms Soul
In All Ways
Art Touches
Us We Art
too...
Pleasure...
Truly For All...
SMiles Savvy Listening To Silent
Voice of SouL HeART
Feels SPiRiT Speaks
Dance
Sing
Comes
Freely
FLoWinG
Wind Sees Breathes...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w2Ov5jzm3j8
Sadly Dear Chaymaa
There Are Now Entire
Varied Communities
Addicted to the Adrenaline
And Dopamine That Anger and
Hate Does Bring
Living More A Life With
Each Other of Con-Social
Emotions Than Pro-Social
Emotions that Color Life Love For Real
Indeed Anger Serves A Purpose to Fight
And Survive When Necessary Yet Indeed
Illusory Fears
And The Anger
That Proceeds
Only Fester in Hate
And Sadly For Many
Becomes a Life-Long
Addiction in
Dark
Key is
Does the
Activity
Turn Life
SHades of
Grey to BLacK Abyss
Or Do The Emotions
Related to Love So Far Away
From Fear, Anger, And Hate
Rather in
Peace Bring
Every Inhale
As Peace Exhale
As Love For All to
Give, Share, Care, And Heal
For Real With Least Harm
Two Places
To Go
One Place
Now to Staycation
For me With SMiLes...
i Watched About Half 'the Video' And Surely Could
Relate to the Reciprocal Social Communication Difficulties the Young
Man Experienced in School; And Yes, Most Definitely For me Even More So
With Gross
And Fine
Motor Coordination;
Actually, Specifically,
A Criterion in Gilberg Criteria
For Asperger's Syndrome, Along
With in my Case, A Hyperlexic Language
Delay until 4 And Problems Stuttering And
Coordinating Output of Language to Keep Up with my Mind;
Same As 'Prescription' Hand Writing Keeping Up with my Mind too....
Typing is Easier this Way; A Whole Lot Comes Out Yet Really Even
At 130 WPM Totally Focused, There is Still Some Catch-Up to Do in
Autotelic
Flow this
Way; Yes, Totally
Hyper-Laser Focused
In A Meditative Way, No
Different Than the Free
Dance i Do in Meditation too;
What i Couldn't Do When
i Was Younger as i Barely
Cracked A Book to Read in School;
Mostly Relying on The Auditory And
Visual Laser Focus of Lectures in School;
Yawn, Staying Close to the Top of the Class
With 3 Degrees, Never the Less, Never Really
Meeting Any Real Creative Potential in Life Except
in A Couple of Spurts in Middle School and A Philosophy Class in College;
HAha, What i could also Identify With, What the Young Man Said is How Much
'The Buttocks' Will Mean For a Woman For 'Base Physical Attraction' As Back
When i Was A Runner, It Was Grabbed More Than Once in Bars And That Was
Before my Wife
Even Said i Moved
From Flat Buttocks
to More of A Bubble
Butt During 16,666 Miles
of Public Dancing Now in 105 Months;
It's True, Only Recently my Wife Actually Caught
A Young Woman Taking A Photo of my Butt Close
Up When i Was Turned The Other Way At Walmart;
Yet of Course, Considering the Metro Audience Has
Determined i'm Both Famous and Living Legend, Well Documented
Still Now in A Viral Video With Close to 90 Thousand Views and 1300
Comments From the Metro Area; Sure That Goes With That Territory
Along With Over 2000 Photos With the Most Beautiful Young Women
in This Beach
Town Area
Spending
6 Years Dancing
on 'College Night' With Them' Yet
In My 20's, i Was Mostly A Wallflower
Waiting For them to Come to me Rather
Than Doing the Solo Thing And Then A Whole
Lot of Beautiful Women Coming my Way Without Fail
With Smiles Ear to Ear in Ecstatic Joy of Dance; However,
They Only Knew me By My Non-Verbal Communication
in A Solo Fearless Dance Without Fail; Hehe, They Probably
Would Have
Fallen
Asleep
And Totally
Zoned Out with
a 'Fred-Talk' Like This
And True the Dude on the
Video Did Kinda Go on and
on and on too About His Special Interests too...
Anyway, Here's the Thing; Human Beings Have Incredible
Untapped Potentials With Enough Environmental Challenge
As Adaption Comes With
Struggle or Not Now;
EPiGeNeTiC AS Such;
IF ANYONE HAD LOOKED
AT 'THIS PHOTO' OF me
AT AGE 13, ALL 5 FOOT 10
AND 120 POUNDS THEN; WHAT
ARE THE CHANCES THAT THE LAST
KID PICKED IN SPORTS, WOULD END UP
BEING AN ATHLETIC DIRECTOR AT A MILITARY
INSTALLATION AND STILL THE STRONGEST LEG PRESSING
DUDE REACHING 62 ON JUNE 6TH, STILL AT UP TO 1520 POUNDS;
Well, Again, Considering That the Peers Then At School Spit on me for
Even Trying to Smile; and Continually Let me Know i Really Didn't Deserve
To Exist
As That's
A Whole Lot
Easier to Believe
As A Photo Says So
Much More Then Than
A 242 Pound Dude Now
Who Still Has Women Following
Him Around Town as the Dancing
Man Still and Senior Citizen Hehe...
Epigenetic Effects Are What's For
Breakfast, Lunch, And Dinner ACross
The Lifespan; Some Do the Talk and
Other Folks Do The Dance of Change;
And Lord Knows my So-Called Ascension
And Transcendence Had Nothing to Do With
Meeting Societal Norms; And Everything to Do
With Naked, Enough, Whole, And Complete;
Additionally, my First Love at 18, And my
Current Love Who is 52 Have One Thing
In Common;
Haha, They
Could Still
Be Mistaken For Sisters;
And Not Likely Mother and Daughter
With Of Course Similar Reactions From
Others As Both Wearing No Make-Up
Almost 'Supernormally' Beautiful With a Perfect Figure...
My First Love Called me Her Macho Man And Said i Should
be A Captain of A Ship; My Current Wife Called me the Nicest
Man She Ever
Met;
And it is
the Second
Relationship that
Still Lasts; Relationships
Based on Attraction May
Be Temporary at Most;
Relationships Based
On HeART Are
Still The Ones
That/Who Last
No Matter What;
i Didn't Hear Any
Evidence of that Propensity
in The Video of the Young Man
Shared; He still Has a long Way
To Go, To Ever Find Love that Lasts
With His Current Material Reductionist
Superficial Attitude About Relationships;
Same as the Rest of The So-Called Incel Communities
Hooked on Porn; If You Really Want to Touch Women in
Every Way; You
Touch Her HeART;
And When You 'Touch' Her
SoUL Her SPiRiT Through
A Dance or Through A Song
She Will Never Forget Your 'Touch'...
Not Seeing Any Ascension in the Video;
Just Stale Adherence to The Way of 'That World'
Empty and Cold...
i'm Glad
i Could Never
Fit in to the Way
of That World; i'm
Thrilled That i Created
my Own World That Works So Well
For me Without GIVING ONE GOD
DAMN WHAT ANYONE ELSE THINKS...
The Benefit
of Being
The One
No One Wants
Around; Finding Your
Own Paths and Being So
Truly Successful Within, 'Normies'
Ain't Even Got A Clue Where You Are...
Thank God i Was God Damned Weird;
And Thank
God i Am Still,
Hehe, Even if i Do
Look Like i Could Hit
Homeruns on the First
Baptist Soft Ball team
Now As A Senior Citizen, HAha;
Yeah, It's True That's All it Takes
to Really Fit in, in 'Trump Town USA'...
That And the Magic Password 'Jesus';
Just Say That Word And You've Got Best Friends
Forever Here...
Yet Act With
Love For All
With Least Harm
And See How Distant
They Will All Still Come to Be...
"i've Already Been to the Valley,
Same Height as the Mountain Now;
They Ain't Even Got Off THeir Porch."
My Step-Mother Advised me to Never Believe
That Women Will Meet Your Expectations of What
You See in Porn Magazines; Yet Without Make-Up,
Both my First
Love And
Wife Now
Still Prove
Her Theory Wrong...
EXCEEDINGLY SO;
Yawn, All My High-School
Crushes Were ON Nerd Girls
From the 'Beta Club' For Nerds;
i Would Have Been As Happy Being
Married to Them As The 'Super Models'
Who Eventually Came Attached to me Next...
Love Trumps
All When You
Are Really
Capable
of Touching
A Woman's HeART,
SPiRiT, And SoUL;
It Doesn't Matter
Who You Are Or What
You Look Like Either;
Or even if they've
Never Seen you at all...
The 'Color of Water' is Love
When Real;
Clear to
See and Be;
i Still Go Places
Now Cause i
Adapted to
Struggle and Changed
That Many folks Still
Can't Even Dream of Now;
And Making Any Additional
Money or Buying Stuff Has
Nothing to Do With it At All;
As Through over 2000 Ecstatic
Joyous Smiles With the Most Beautiful
Young College Age Women in my Area,
i Never Had
A Dime in
my Pocket
or A Drink to Buy for them;
On the Other Hand, i Received
A Few i Turned Down Along With Literal Wishes
to Marry me For Only A Fearless Solo Dance then
Again at Close to 60 Years-Old;
Chances Are
With A Full
'Fred-Talk'
Hehe Not So Much...
Actually in Some Ways
i Was Less Taxing to my
Wife when i Rarely Said a
Word through the First Couple
of Decades in our Marriage then...
CHANGE
IS POSSIBLE,
ALL THE WAY
ACROSS THE LIFESPAN INDEED...
Sitting Around Complaining
Enjoying Misery Loves
Suffering With
Other Folks
Is Surely
A way
to Stagnate
And Verily Rot;
Been There and Done that too...
The Appeal of Online Incel Communities
To Anyone is Obviously Misery Loves Suffering
And A Big Helping of Addiction to the Neurohormones
And Neurochemicals That A Community of Anger And Hate Provide;
Really Not Much
Different than
The Hell
Fire
Evangelistic
Churches From
Around my Local Area too;
Yet Just Remember the Magic
Password Jesus and Look Like
You Can Hit a Home Run on the
First Baptist Softball Team With Your
Mouth
Otherwise
Shut And
Congrats
You Automatically
Become Part of the
Toxic Patriarchy Team...
Indeed, IT Proves More
Toxic Every God Damned American Day...
Other than That Happy Memorial Day to ALL; Still
Coming/Going; "Get Out and Buy A Gun," Still An 'American JeSuS' Way...
Yawn, i Can't Tow A Car Without A Tow-Truck;
Yawn, Although i Do Leg Press Up to 3 Quarters of a Ton
Now; Yet Still, i Can't Tow A Car Without A Tow-Truck.
Several Countries Have Already Reduced Mass
Shootings to Almost Zero By Eliminating
The Tools
That Are Used
To 'Tow the Car';
And to Be Clear That's Just a Metaphor;
And to Be Clear, Because i Can And Do Leg
Press Up to 3 Quarters of A Ton AKA 1520 Pounds
And Am A Well Trained Martial Artist Who Carries my Self
With Zero Fear;
i Don't Feel a Need
to Carry a 'Concealed Weapon';
Nope, i Don't Even Feel A Need
to Use A Martial Arts KicK NoW
As in Most Cases Now It is Those
Who 'Carry Themselves in Vulnerable
Ways' Who Are Attacked in 'The Street'.
i See The Value in Guns to Defend Life;
For Those Who Feel Vulnerable in Need.
i See the Reality That Without Weapons
of Mass Death, There WILL Be Less Death
By Those Tools;
As Let's Face
IT That 'Vulnerable
Little Boy' Would Have
Likely Been Overpowered
By Two Female Teachers Without A Weapon;
Particularly, A Gun of Mass Death; We Have
A Gun Culture; We Have A Gun Culture that Practically
Worships Guns Of Mass Death; What This Lends Is More
of A Propensity
For Mass Death by Shootings;
Other Countries That Don't Have
Their Heads Up their Butts Have Found
Solutions
That
Work;
at Least
For Specifically
Mass Shootings
And Mass Death This Way;
Yet, You Don't Change the Big
C Easy; Particularly in a Country of 'Spoiled Brat Leaders'...
The Realistic Solutions We Have That Might Have A Chance
of Passing in Our So-Called Representative Democracy Are
the Universal Back-Ground Checks That 90 Percent of the
Country Are Behind;
'Red Flag Laws' Have
A Chance in 'Hell' of
Passing too; Not Much of
A Chance; Never the Less a Chance;
Yet Probably Not As Much of A Chance
As the 1 in 5 Mass Shootings That the FBI
Also Associates With the Concerning Factor
of Violent Video Games.
'You' Do What You Can; Yet Keeping
Heads Stuck Up Butts and Doing Nothing,
IS ZERO
PERCENT
HELPFUL NOW.
i Fell 'Victim' to Type Two Trigeminal
Neuralgia, The Literal Suicide Disease
From Wake to Sleep, No Drug Would Touch
For 66 Months; If i Had a Gun Then, And i Was
Strong Enough to Use It, And i Knew How to Use it,
i Would NOT Be Here Now; So, Instead, i Became
Fearless and Strong
Enough to
Be Naked,
Enough, Whole,
And Complete ENOUGH
to Not Only Survive yet Thrive...
As i Will Never Be Able to Own A
Gun; For the Possibility of that Worst
Known Pain Returning to me Again;
Too Bad That Young Man Turned to
Tools Like Violent Video Games and Related Killing Machines;
And i surely Know What it feels Like When Pain is All the Feeling You Can Feel...
In terms
of Slashing
A Face With
A Knife to Feel
Anything At All;
Misanthropy With
A Lack of Human
Empathy/And or Feelings is A Key Ingredient
of Mass Murders; Indeed, 'Tow Trucks' Alone Don't Tow
Cars Without Cars; Yet i Still Can't Tow A Car, Without a Tow Truck...
Damn It, If only There Was Room for More Plates on that Leg Press Machine...
i've Never Played Violent Video Games as i Happen to Enjoy Human Empathy;
And Anyone With Any Frigging Common Empathy Understands Playing Violent
Video Games
Reduces
Human
Empathy;
On the Other Hand,
Poetry And Free Dance
in Moving Meditation of 'Embodiment'
is Shown to Increase Human Connections
in Terms of Warm Empathy to be
FRIGGING TOTALLY HUMAN.
TRUE, i Chose Different
Tools, including Martial
Arts And Strength Training
To Keep my Shadow Self Well Sheathed AS A SHarp SWord...
And Meek Enough to Still Inherit The Earth Without Being Buried
or Burnt, Or Otherwise Feeding Worms And or Vultures So far at least...
Folks Now With the Power And Force
of Giving, Sharing, Caring, Healing Love
Are Much More Likely to Stay Alive And Thrive...
And There Are Many Activities And Tools That Increase That Propensity too...
Yawn, How Different The World Will Be With Religion(s)/Politics/Philosophies/
Big Overall C's That And Who Actually
Promote Heaven on Earth Now
And
Within,
Instead
Now of
Literal
F in Hell,
Both Within
And The Reality
of Killing Machines
And Children Dead, Dead, Dead.
Other than That 'Vote' For Folks Who
Put Human Resources Above 'Things' First...
In Other
Words,
Vote For Humans...
Balancing Force
of Life BRinGinG Peace
Absence of Fear Loving
Foundation of Strength And
Will For All
That We
May
Do
With
Force
And Power
Of All For Giving
Thanks Giving Love Dear Savvy
Happy Weekend to You Dear
FRiEnD
Mercy Understanding
Faith And Hope Empathy
And Compassion Believing
Wisdom's
Love
With
SMiLes
Icing on
A Humming
Bird Cake of
Loving
Life
DarK
Thru LiGHT...
Hehe Dear
Cindy Peter
Pan Has No
Reason Or
Rhyme
Or Meter
To Fly He
And Or She
Only
Does
With
No
Idea
Only
Feeling
SenSinG SPiRiT
Winds NoW Within
To Fly
Even
Higher
With SMiles...
