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SiGNiFiCaNT Date to CeLeBRaTE 88 Months
In Heaven Within Since 7.19.2013 on 11.19.2020
Out Of Hell for

66 Months

Since 1.19.2008

Thru 7.19.2013

As Far As 'Synchronicity'
Goes Arriving At the 'Depth
Of The Story' Yes.. 'Acausal
Connecting Principle' Only
Psychologically Meaningful
to Me Born on 6.6.60 Seeing
The View Count on the Thread
Of Course From the Folks Who
Suggest What i say doesn't
Make Sense And They Just
Ignore me hehe on The 'Wrong
Planet' as i'm Truly Being 'Very Autistic'
THere Just Expressing Philosophy in Story
Form Solo as Two Folks Have Responded
A Few Times And the Rest of the 6060 Folks
Counted in Views Wednesday... 6606 Views
Thursday Afternoon Returning With This
Monologue of Philosophy in Story
Form On The Third Visit Thursday
Tonight Where 6666 Views
Appear so what
Are the Chances
Only 6's And 0's
Will Appear
in 3
Consecutive
Visits It's Just
Synchronicity and i took
Snap Shots of the Screen
To Prove it Happened too
Just for the Hell and Heaven
oF iT Usually too These little
Miracles Happen Almost
Constantly in Heaven now
Just A Wink From the Overall
God Story Fred Great Job
Keep Going Don't Stop!
Hotel California Or Not!

SMiLes To Be Enough As Is
Is Surely Destination Enough
FoR Me at Least Eternally Now
As ALWaYS MiLeAge Varies DePEnding
On Make And Model And WHere We aRe
To Be Is
Enough
Not To
Be Is
Also
Enough
In Enough Land Now...

THE Elders
We want
Will Be
The Elders
We aRe
If We Do
ReMeMBeR...

Free As
LoVE WiLL SeeK LiGHT
From: DArk to: PLaY iN

HeAVeN'S Breath

To: TRuELiGHT EXiSTS
Challenge: Seek Find Capture
Focus Practice LiGHT From: DArK

Beautiful
And Artistic
Thoughts

Aesthetic Breath Sees

'They’ Are Afraid
They All Will
Fall Eventually
By The Hand
And Votes
Of Trump
Minions Unless
The Republican
Leaders Do
Not
Fall
In
Line
With
Trump
Stink
Stank
Stunk
Lying Gunk
True An
Enema
Huge Required
To Deliver This
J A N U A R Y
X-Mas Gift From
Hell on Earth as
The Whoville
Children
Now
Rely
On
Walmart
For Free Thanksgiving
And Christmas Roast
Beast Likely Too
All That Saves
From
Falling
Down
The
Trump
Mountain
Into Whoville
Pain is The
Constitution
And Laws
That
Keep
Human
Anarchy
In DarK
Chaos
From
Ruining
Truth in
Loving LiGHT
Sadly Largely
‘The Church’ As
Usual Holds Hands
With State Staying
On the Same Choir
Sheets of State News
Faux Propaganda
To Propel
'Little
Man
And Or
Woman
Syndrome
Folks' Empty
Within For Just
Another Trump
Colored Demagogue
Of Fear And Hate to Relate
In Warm Cozy Arms of Fear
And Hate

That Hug

In

Overall

Ways of

Misery

And
Suffering

To Take With
Similar Orange
God Frowns True

My FRiEnD We Surely
Will Use Some More
Freshly Squeezed
Orange

Juice

Than These

‘Florida Men’

And Others Continue

To Mix And Spread

In Kool-Aid

Stands

On

‘5th Avenue’

Still Stink

Stank Stunk

In Orange

Rotting

Lying

Trump

Gunk

Ways

oF All
Associated
With Organized
Deceit Colored ‘Trump’ Lies...

Paintings SouL CoLoRinG
NeW WinD BREaTHES NoW
Free Breeze Loving MoRE...

Leaves Fall Create Green
So Will We Do NoW
NeW As Living

Loving Trees

Hehe I’m
A Dinosaur
i Guess at 60
As i
Don’t
Use What’s
App You’ll
See me around
Here as i Always
Return Where
i
Am
Welcomed
With SMiLes...

Color Our Worlds Within
Firsting Color Newer Our
World Again Now Lasting

True Greatest
Enemy is
Fear
Until
We Master
Fear With Love
We Will Always
See Ourselves
First
As
Enemy
Never Strong
Enough to

Love

Our

Other

Enemies

As Closest

Friends Helping

Us Free the Enemy Within

Many Psalms Bring

Glory of

Killing

In

Tradition of

Tribal Conflicts

Falling to Depth

oF A Toxic Patriarchal

God Dashing The Heads

Of Children of Opposing

Tribes in Such A Pagan

Way Against

All Agape

Love Stands

For Away From

Dominating Raping

Maiming Killing The

Nature of God Love

All For All

This Way

A Greater

Newer

Testament

Message

Indeed

Slay

The

Enemy

Within See Where

The Other Enemies

Live And Forgive

‘The Child’ Taking

No Glory

In

Slaughtering

‘The Child’... Smiles

My FRiEnD Rue Chin up...

Cost Of Love
No Price At All

SMiLes True
Love Sees
Valleys
And
Mountains
As Fair And
Stormy
Weather
Friends Same
For Light Rising
From
Dark
Makes
Night Day...

SMiles Wise Words
Indeed My Friend
Give Add Value
To The World
And The
World At
Least
What
Gives
With
Value
Will You
See This Way
No Matter What
Part of The Mountain
Your Valley Will Rise
High
Indeed
Higher
With
Only
Doing More
As Tops Of
Mountains
Remain
Covered
With Ice
No Longer
Now Burning
Within to See...

Tallest
Mountains
Snow Topping
Now Covering With
Ice... True Clouds Do
Protect Mountain Tops
From Yes Scorching Sun
Yet If Snow Does Not Melt
Sheathing Ice Away Tops Of
Mountains
Now Will Never
See or Be Seen New

Other Than That
Soni Your Poetry
is Truly Beautiful Free
Verse FLoWinG Coming
Deepest From Soul
Yes When
This
Present
Gift Sparks
Record it Write
It Down For All
To See And Feel
Free Yes For You
See This Is Your Sun
Soni Within Melting All
Covers of Your
Soul

To

Breathe

To BREaTHE Free...

Ever Green Living Tree

Sweetest Love Never
Dies Friends With SMiLes...

Decision... The Friends Sign
Gives me Two Choices...
Cross off 11 Days Ask
You How You are
Doing For Your
Birthday or
Do It A Week
In Advance So
For The Time
Being i Am
Doing It Today
For i Understand
How Silent Depression
Will Sing... Seen Darkness
Beyond Black Abyss It’s

True

So

Far

Below From

The Top of A New

World But i Remember

How Far i Climbed and

Still Climb Never too

High to

Reach

Down or

Above to Say

Hi No Replies Needed

Even If It is too Dark

To See Where You

Are

i Do See You....

Other than That

Expect To Hear

From me

On Your

Birthday

Even

If The

Internet Burns

Down Hehe With SMiles...

SMiles i’m no
One Special
Just Another
Part of God
That’s Special
Enough As We
All Are Whether
We Breathe God

Or

Not

It’s Nice to

At Least Be

A Prayer my

Friend This Gift

This Present Breath...

Thanks Again my
Friend You Surely
Nailed it too With
Your Inspirational
Words Even If We
Don’t Change the
World We Will
Express its
Fires
Exhale
The
Pain
And
Remain
Sane in Truth
With SMILes

Still

Breathing too...

Although Hiding Under A
Guise of ‘Warm And Fuzzy’...
There is the Negative
Empathy And Love
Of Social Cohesion
Yes Contagion
That Bonds
Over
Ignorance
Of Organized
Deceit And Lies
Taking Advantage
Of Ignorance And
Human Propensities
To Focus And Bind
Together Strongly
Over Illusions
Of Fear And
Hate
Based on
Prejudices
Over Differences
They Create As
Traditions Of
Nightmares
That Destroy
All That is Truth
And Light Yes There
Are Leaders And
Followers
Of These
Traditional
CuLTuRaL
Made Nightmares
Of What Humanity
Sadly Co-Creates

Unmasked

This Way

Yet The Outcast

Outside of This
Lair... This Spider
Web of Organized

Deceit

May Be
A Last
One Left
Breathing
Escaping the
Hell On Earth
In Organized

Deceit

Feeding

Off

Of

Ignorance
Yes Raping
Maiming
Killing

Truth

In LiGHT

Does Kill

On ‘5th Avenue’

Too in Similar

‘Gas

Chamber’

Lit Ways As

Bones Continue

To Pile up No Longer

Breathing What Truth Sees

There Is No Real Love

Without Truth There

Is No Real Freedom

Without Truth

There

Is

Death Without Truth

Ignorance And Lies Kill...

SMiLes Sadly This Is

Human Nature

This ‘Revelation’

Will Always Be With

Us True How

Gifted

‘i Am’

‘The

Outcast’ indeed

‘They’ Spit on ‘me’

Only As A Seed

The

Tree

i Still

Flourish

Under The Real

God Nature Naked Free...

oF All The Organized

Deceit Clothes

Tools Of

Human

Machines Bring

i Remain Ever Green...

"Faustian" Cross-Cultural Archetypal Story Of Making A Deal With Power/Status
Or Fame/Fortune Whatever Temptation Spoils Integrity Of What Our Deepest
Voice Speaks As Truth in Integrity.. Of Course.. Mileage Varies Based on Make
And Model of Human Being And Moral Relativism Cross-Culturally
too but At least Where i LiVE iN the United States 'The Devil'
Has Become Somewhat More Important to many of the
Republican Leaders than the Democracy
That Allows Any Freedoms at
All to Achieve Whatever
Folks May Value
in Life
Smiles
The More We Are
Prisoner to 'Not Enough'
The More We are Liable to
Sell-off What We Do Hold Nearest
And Dearest in Integrity For Something More...
"Luke 17:21: Neither shall they say, Lo here! or,
lo there! for, behold, the kingdom of God is within you."
Smiles When one Finds the Kingdom of God Yes This All Fulfilling
Agape Love Within There is no longer Anyone or Anything or Any Way That

Will Sway

one to

Sell their

Soul but only if

They Seek and Find

Heaven Within And Stay

Here Eternally Now that Takes

Constant Lifelong Work in Practice but Obviously

The Rewards Are All iNHeReNTLY Colored With Love

Now And Challenge Ever More Eternally Now to Light

More Colors New of the Christmas

Tree Within as usual

i try to speak

to not

only a Religious

Crowd as Most Often they are

Most Lost From A Kingdom of Heaven

Within as by Very Nature Tradition is External

Symbols Far Away from What May Breathe Eternally Within...

And the Other Thing is Every Kingdom of Heaven Within is an

Entirely Other View to See Colors of Heaven (God) Forever more now...

Yes Science Relates the Experience as an 'Autotelic Flow' for hey

As Long As someone Arrives in Heaven Now i am not going

To complain About What Make and Model They Are

That Helped them along the way

but Just imagine this

if ALL Feel

Like they

Are Naked And

Enough As is born on Date

Eternally Now As Such oh How much

More There is to Give and Share So far

Away from a World of Take and Hoard Now

The Magic of

Enough

The Magic of

Enough How Rare

It is to truly meet

someone who

Truly

Has

Enough Is Enough As Is

NoW As A practice of Loving Life now

Where the Destination is Eternally Now New

Anyway.. i wish more folks could truly Hear

That Luke 17:21 Verse And Truly Seek and

Find This Kingdom of God Within And

Celebrate This Heaven now

As then there is

No Reason

to Imagine

Heaven For We aRe

Here Now All Holding Hands in

Heaven Smiles my FRiEnD i Live A Dream

I am not the first one to acknowledge A Fruition

of this Real Heaven Now... And Again Many Folks

Who Have Been in my Presence have Asked me

For Whatever Drug i am taking to Arrive Where

i am now hehe the Manual is

8.7 MiLLioN Words

Long And

Still GRoWinG

Next Stop 88 Months

And 8.8 MiLLioN Words

on 12.18.2020 and a Thanks
Giving Anniversary of 12 MiLLioN
Words of 10 Years Where i Started Online 2010
in Hell Within Arriving in Heaven on 7.19.2013

Really Within With all 'the Jargon' That goes along

With it.. but truly Heaven this Kingdom of God Within

is a Solo Journey That Becomes a Journey of Allone when

We Arrive Just A Reality of Unity my Friend Just A Reality

of No Longer Experiencing Illusory Fears Just A Reality of

Love For All With Least Harm But Truly of Course only my

Reality in Heaven Within as i have seen through Enough Eyes in my

Life to understand How Deep And

Expansive Colors of

Other Souls

Are So Below

Black Abyss

Through

Shadows

Grey Scale

So Far Above Beyond

Rainbow Colors they are too...

We only Get a Glimpse through the

Art Folks Create Truly ArT iS A Doorway to Heaven my FRiEnD

Or Hell or '50 Shades of Grey' Whatever Rooms in 'Hotel California' they may LiVE iN too..

And Now i have a THeMe And MeME Song too With Even Another 'Beast' to go along with it

too..

hehe

'Hotel

California'

For True it is

Also About the

'Faustian Myth' that's

True too A Deal With the Devil

No Different too in the Christian

Language of Jesus With 'The Devil'

Offering Him to Rule over the World too...

Just if He Would Sell His Soul too.. Donald

J Trump is Just Another Quintessential 'Faustian

Dark Figure' It's True Those Republican Leaders

Just Can't Get Rid of the

Beast

That

Has Taken

Their Souls what ever

Started off of them finishing

More now for all to see...

As Far As

Ethics

Goes it's

Like Seeing

Folks Hang Themselves

In Public Cringe-Worthy for

Folks With Sympathy for 'A Devil's Brew'...

Anyway Smiles Rue thanks For Lending

Space for an Old Hairy Beast Story Teller too...

Sure Born on 6.6.60 As

You know

Just

An 'Omen'

Bucket List

Ticked-off in Hell WiTHiN

Escape Thank God With SMiLes..

You See.. i was just trying to keep

my Job What anyone would call

A Dedicated Worker Where

i am From Never

The Less

The Devil

Knows no

Different in Hell my FRiEnD

And Sure i intuit You have experienced

A Bit of Hotel California too.. It's Where

Wings First Sprout And Begin to Grow...

Usually Indeed it is Later than Earlier in Life my FRiEnD..:)


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"Acts of mercy and love more than worshipping. That's what He prefers."

Coming to Be Where i Live; i've often Wondering What The Reception Now For
'Jesus', if He Will Come Back Today, Will Be Now; And What He Will Say in English
Translated Of Course; Not Native Aramaic With No Written Words of Course As If
He Comes Back The Same Way As Predicted As Illiterate And Relying still on

Oral
Tradition

Visiting Church

Only FLoWinG
STRAiGHT From
SoUL As Holy and
Creative Spirit With
Tools of Written Words
Does True By All Potential At
Hand In Truth As Light Arises Now
From Deepest Ocean Whole Soul Within...

It Will Be So Easy Now to See For Him That
Few Were Really Paying Attention to Anything He
Said as What He Will Find is Folks Unmasked From
the Rule of Love Worshipping Him as a God Rather than

Focusing on the Mercy and Love That Actually Saves Breathing Life Now..

But You See Jesus Also is reported to Say a Lamp Does Not Hide Its Light...

There is No Choice But to Shine.. Yet Truly Any Man And Or Woman of Any True Real

Loving Caliber Will only See Bowing Down to Them as Disgrace and This Indeed

Is What Jesus

Will find

Returning

Today Lamps

Mostly only Shining Bowing

Down to Him In Disgrace oF LiGHT Unmasked...

Listening to 'the PR Bishop' Shining Selling All His

Books on YouTube... He Preached That If Jesus

Isn't to Be Worshipped as an Idol God

That the Teachings of Jesus

Brings are as Worthless

As Any Other

Teaching about the

Natural Altruism of the Love Lamp

Of Human For Giving Thanks Giving

Sharing Free True This Naked Gift of

Love is Inborn For Most With or Without

Our Cultures and Religions Specific or Not

But It's Nice to Have Role Models... Yes Mentors

Still Who have Succeeded in this Love And Mercy

For All... Yet.. Sadly the Mentor And Role Model's

Lessons Are Lost in Dark Unmasked Now

Without the Light of Mercy

And Love that

is so simple

to Save A Breath of Life.. Yes

Such a LiGHT-Weight Cross indeed

But You 'See' For those Who Worship

Idols of the Clothes the Tools We Wear

And Create... What is Lost may Be What

Shines Greater NoW As Lamp For Giving

Thanks Giving Love Brighter than the Moon at Night

Truly Katy Perry Delivers That Message of Love For

All Mercy For All in A Video that Does Bring Profits but the 'Same Prophet'

Indeed

Tattooed
on Her Arm

my FRiEnD

Love And

Mercy in Truth Free

A Light that need not hide...

Sadly Lost in the Worship of
Idols instead unmasked for all to see now..

For You See There is More to my Story True As
Well Rue for When i lived in the Forever Now Place

Of Hell in So Much Pain and Numb The Specialists for

Pain Turned me Away Giving Up As They Could find Nothing

To Help Me.. i Wasn't Attending Church Then But my Mother

Still Very Catholic Pleaded With the Local Priest to

Perhaps Exorcise My Soul For She Came

To Believe my Pain A 'HOLY CURSE' Was

From the Sin of my

Catholic EX-Priest

Grandfather Leaving the

Church But Wait if he didn't

i wouldn't Exist as he would

Have Never Fell to the Dark Brown

Eyes of that Spicy Cajun 17 Year-Old

Young Woman in the Pews of the Church

When he Was 36 Passing His Prime of Fertility too...

Anyway He Broke the Rules and the Priest Never Called

my Mother Back There Was nothing That could Reach even

A Spark of my Soul From 2008 Until 2010 but Yes i Heard

This Song By Katy Perry and as much as i could Tolerate

The Sound With all That Pain it was the only Feel

And Sense oF LiGHT that touched my

Soul That Way for 66 Months

it was truly a Drop

of Water

on
my Tongue

in Hell Smiles my FRiEnD

It's all About Perspective Still Now...

Some Folks are More Blessed this way now

To Even See What The Message of Jesus Really is Just Love That's It

And if Love is not God Enough to Worship in Brightest Lights In Love

For Mercy For all

There is

No Jesus

Or God

Worthy

to Exist now

iNDeed A LiTMuS Test my

FRiEnD So Simple Unmasked NoW as Masked...

All i Feel and Sense Is if Jesus IS to See Now And

Hear this Song.. Katy Perry is Probably gonna be a first on his list...

of anyone

even

Capable

of Seeing 'Him' Now...

It Will Never be a Situation

Where He Doesn't 'Know' Someone

It Will Be the Case of those Who Are

too far gone Asleep to see His Light...

They Won't Even Notice He Is Still

Standing Under a Bridge... in Bare Feet... Unmasked for all to see...

SMiLes my FRiEnD... truly it's More An Issue of Even Seeing Light at all...

'That Day'

That

Second

Katy Perry

Shined Enough

'Jesus' For 'A Devil' in 'Hell' to 'See'...

It's Easy For me to See The Effort She Put in...

Hehe.. i surely Am Glad She Did not Do it in

Private somewhere with SMiLes.. She Taught me 'Something'.. i still do it LiT...

i Verily See Her as A Greater Example of Jesus Than in Any Church i Visit...

True She

Passed

A REAL

Devil Test

IN Hell of Getting Through

Such A Tiny EYe oF A Needle..

Smiles my FRiEnD 'JeSuS'

Is So Trapped now in a

Book See

How

Hard

i Try

To Help

Him Escape

JusT A Rhetorical Question my FRiEnD...

i Do Believe i have at Least One Key for Real..:)


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Smiles With A Divorce Rate of 1 Percent in India
That Leaves A lot of Fathers in the Household
Versus The United States And a Fifty-
Percent Divorce Rate With
Some Ethnicities with
Fatherless Homes
As High as
Seventy-Percent...

It's Hard for a Young

Man To Grow Up Without

A Mentor And Role Model That

Looks Like Him.. And It's True of

Course Where Homelife Doesn't

Work Out Amongst Two Even

Harder too.. Smiles

My Father Was in Law-Enforcement

For 46 Years Leaving at 3... For ME A Role
Model and Mentor Only Silent Yet Fearless
With Rarely A Sign of Anxiety at Least Expressed
on the Outside... For on His Last Day on Earth As He
Was Falling He Calmly Told my Cousin he Didn't think
He was gonna make it and he didn't.. Smiles my FRiEnD

my Father Never Let us Get Close Enough to Know Him..

i always thought He Looked So Distinguished Like He

Should Be an Important Politician or Even Have

His Face Sculpted Perhaps on a Mountain

With Smiles for You See it was

The Fearless Gift He

Had that i wanted

So Much in Life it took me

A Long Time Indeed to Become my

Own Father if We Live Long Enough We

May all have To Become Our Own Father

And Mother and Most Importantly Friend

too Fearless and Free Enough to Smile and

Cry too.. for Where i am From Boys were

Not Allowed to Smile or Cry And

Even Arts Were Frowned

Upon and Named

Activities

For only

Girls.. Smiles

My Friend it's probably Harder

Where i Live Than Ever Before for

Boys to Become Men.. So Much Distance

From Heart Still So Much Distance From

Even Social Roles now and Surely So Much Distance

From Fearless too.. and a saddest Part of all is some

Young Men and Men are never able to even get close to a Woman

in their

Entire

Life..

It's True Every

Man that Becomes

A Man these Days at

Least Where i am From

Surely Deserves an "International Men’s Day!"

i will only Imagine What a Wonderful Father and Mother

You have.. Smiles My Mother Was there to Give Us Love..

And True

Without That

Love it's not

likely

i would have
Survived for You See
i was born on the Autism
Spectrum Not able to Speak

Until 4 Where i Live it was clear

The World Was gonna Be A Challenging

Place for me to even survive at all

A Smile Goes a

Long

Way

my FRiEnD

Planted By Love

Later Finding A Father Within

And surely keeping a Mother of Love

Breathing As Long as i Breathe too This

FLoWeR i still Bloom Hehe THorns And All

i Feel Very Fortunate to Be A Man Now

That i have been able to Develop

A Whole Soul the Love

With the

Fearless too..

The Logic hasn't been Hard..

Just took a Long While to put it into

Words For You See Even into my 40's

I had Trouble Finding More than A Few

Words to Say.. but it's True as i was

Also considered too weak to

Deserve to even live

And too odd too

As Assessed

By Peers

It is often

Our Weaknesses

That end up Our Greatest

Strengths in Mind Body As

Soul Whole As We Overcome

The Challenges And Go Farther

Than We may have Ever imagined

if We Were Just Normal... There is Almost

Always A Silver Lining.. Yes Magic and Even

Miracles That are Real if We Just Don't Give

Up And Take the Next Step on the Next Mountain

Higher Always Balancing of course With 'that Toe' on the Ground

Our

Soul

Our Home

In Balance

So Calm And

Rested to Generate

All Our Winds Still to come..:)


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SMiLes my FRiEnD summerhilllane there was a day more than one Yes
66 Months that an Air Force Major Yes a Psychiatrist Dealing With Many
Cases of Combat Fatigue from the Sand Traps of the Middle East in War
Assessed my Darkness
As The Darkest
Most Difficult
Case he had ever
Come Across So Dark
That He Wanted to Implant
A Vagal Stimulator in my Chest
to Bring Any Heart Beat Back at
All to A Tin Man Soul... Of Course
my Insurance didn't Cover IT... No Drug
Would Touch The Type Two Trigeminal
Neuralgia Assessed As the Literal Worst
Pain Known to Humankind Yes Literally
Assessed as Worse Than the Torture
Of Crucifixion From Wake to Sleep
Along With An Assortment And
Synergy of 19 Total Medical
Disorders Mostly Related
to Chronic to Acute
Work Stress for
11 Years
Before i Retired
Early to Hell yes All
Those 66 Months Shut-in
Experiencing That Pain and
Numb From Wake to Sleep
indeed my FRiEnD i wear
A Crown Earned As A
King of Pain And
Numb So Then
After Being So
Very Suicidal
As A Casual
Name of the Suicide Disease
That Worst Disorder other
Than Losing a Memory
Of Almost All Emotional
Feelings Even A Memory
of if i ever smiled at all
No Reference Point
Out of Hell A
Thousand
Years
Where
All Is Time
in Hell.. in just
one Second of Life...
on my 53rd Birthday After
Writing Since Thanks Giving Day
10 Years ago online to try to Escape
the Pain Every Word A Mountain of
Pain as this Pain was in my Right Eye
And Ear Like a Dentist Drill with No Novocaine
i Wrote a Post Named 'Visiting the Garden of Band-Aid'
After Blogging Since March of 2013 then on my Birthday
June 6th of 2013.. i Wrote for 24 Hours Straight remembering
Every nice thing in Gratitude Anyone Had Spoke to me my Entire
Life.. And i linked the Word Hope All the way through the Words

Smiles my FRiEnD

6 Thousand Words

A MaGiC iNCaNTaTioN

A Prayer-Long of Gratitude

For Healing Still to come then

A Month And 13 Days Later

on 7.19.2013 Standing

on a Beach As i

Became the

Essence of the

Emerald Green Waves

The Sugar White Sand

Sea Oats Blowing Gently

in the Breeze And Wings

Of Seagulls Spiraling the Sun

All the Pain and Numb Melting Away

And voila i became a totally Different Human

As Any Phoenix Rising From the Ashes the Fires of Life

Bring as You Might imagine that experience Brought me

The Empathy, Sympathy, Compassion of Around 14.5 MiLLioN

Years Even Sympathy for the Devil in Hell i Became for those entire

66 Months i didn't Go to Hell and Become the Devil for Doing Anything

Wrong but failing to Say No to What Society said i should come to be...

SMiLes my

FRiEnD

Hell is
Quite a
Detour to
Get to Heaven
But When You Get
Here Now Within You
Do what it takes to stay

It's as simple as Three

Yes Four Words

And More

"Give And

Share Free

With For Giving

Thanks Giving Love"

Yes A Force of 10 Words

Enough Of A Command FoR Me

to Stay in Heaven as i will surely

Save Your Kind Quote in Gratitude More

Indeed for the Same MiSSioN Of Love At Hand my FRiEnD..:)

“Your poetry releases something in me
and frees me from worry. Thank you. Sending you love.”

SMiLes Dear Sohair.. i've Been Writing Online 3648 Consecutive Days...
Of Course When i Started on Thanksgiving Day in 2010, Yes
10 Years ago, It was a Desperate Attempt to Escape Pain
as i had already Been Shut-in 33 Months
Without the Ability to Effectively
Use my Eyes and Ears and
Indeed then each
Word Enduring
The Pain it took
to Stand the Light
of the Screen Even
Turned All the Way
Down A Few Inches
From the Screen as
Prescription Glasses
With the additional Focus
only made the Pain that much worse...
Basically Then i wrote to get my Mind off
of wanting not to be here at all And continuing
that way for around the Next 33 Months for 66
Months Total of Never Really Knowing if i could make
it to the Next second of life with all that pain and numb
too of Emotions Perhaps Worse than what was assessed
as the Worst Pain Known to Humankind the Type Two Trigeminal
Neuralgia From Wake to Sleep And it took Two Years to Get Diagnosed
with an Invisible Most Horrible Suicide Disease as it is casually Named
That Too.. i was just Barely Surviving The Whole Way And there was no
Clocking
Out except
For Barely Being
Able to Sleep to escape
the Pain at all.. i really don't
Know Fully How many Words i Wrote
Then in so many places too but considering
i've Been Counting every Word with the Word Press
Counter Now at Least 100,000 Words A Month on Average
And More it is safe to Say Beyond the Words Of my Long
Form Poem of 8.7 MiLLioN Words now in 87 Months i
Have Easily Written 12,000 MiLLioN Words as the
Anniversary of Writing 3653 Days Consecutively
is Coming Up on 11.25.2020.. Just 5 Days from
Now on ThanksGiving Eve This Year anyway
Ever Since The Pain Went away Writing
And Dance is Just A Pleasure so i
Still Do it Most All Waking
Hours around 16 Hours
7 Days A Week as
i did When
i had
all that
Pain too..
except with the
Pain it was almost
all Writing and no Dance then..
The Last 33 Months of the 66 that
i could do anything at all.. Just sitting
in Front of an Almost Dark Screen Writing then...
So Yeah Doing the Math that's 58,448 Hours
Total of Doing What i had to do at First to
Doing What i Love to Do Now Where
Time very Rarely Exists for
me at all hehe.. unless
Katrina tells me
let's go
Now or it's
time to eat or Whatever
Comes next that needs to
Be done along with the play of Fun

Haha.. it's nice not to have to Work for Money...

Hehe as if i had gotten Paid Minimum Wage

For all those Hours it would be about Half a Million

Dollars Haha.. but it's true going through all that Pain

It's easy to see Money is No Where Peace And Happiness

Resides for it's True Love What You Do there is no Time

Hate What You Do enough in Pain and Numb

And all there is is

Never

Ending Time...

When i Worked with People

For Pay for Close to Two Decades

i Rarely Watched the Clock

When i worked with

Machines and

Paper Work

Or Any
Job without

Human Contact

Like the Computers

Only for my Last Five Years

of Work the Time Clock and

Money Became the Master Most then...

Now It's Like No Time has passed by at all

in the Last 88 Months Now Since i Recovered

From all that Pain and Numb and True Most of What

I've Written All 10 Years has Been to Another Person in some

Way.. so at least there is Human Connection all the Way through

And indeed that Helped to Save my Life on the 'Wrong Planet' place

i Started on Before my Soul Started Breathing again on 7.19.2013

True though my FRiEnD the Work Took All the Breath out of

me.. getting online and talking to folks was A

Furthest thing Away i ever though i would

do then for when someone

asked me what i had

Been Doing all

i had is

one Word 'Working'

And i repeated the Word

'Working' again Just for something

Else to Say.. haha.. my How Life Changes...

Truly i really Didn't Feel Even Free to Be

Me or Really Fully Breathe until i Reached 53 Years Old...

A Golden Age is Whatever Age We Love Each and Every Breath We Take...

And i

Do my

FRiEnD

With

Plenty of
Perspective now
Still of 'the Other Place' For
Real Now too.. what i do know

is it will get Better

if folks Just

Never

Give

Up Now

As Now Will Always

Transform into another

Now the Best Now We Help Create ToGeTHeR too..:)

Sadly The Catholic Church Without Approval Made A Faustian
Deal With A Devil No Different Really Than 'Their' Republican
Party and Trump to Make Jesus into A God in the Nicene
Council As Still Professed in the Nicene Creed as
Initiated in 325 AD As Constantine Used
The Catholic Church And Christianity
Then For Political Purposes for
His Power in just another
Part of the Constantine/
Trump/Church Faustian
Deal then.. didn't make it to
Church this Saturday Afternoon Listened
to the Homily in my Car Coming Back From
The Gym the Day they Celebrate Jesus as King
of the Universe a Pretty Big Promotion to Bow Down
to a Humble Small Man Teacher With A Huge Soul to
Give and Share Free For Giving Thank Giving True
Per Core of Story that is Lost with all the Fanfare
of making a Five Foot One and One-Hundred
Six Pound or So Very Mexican And or
Syrian Looking Refuge A Carpenter
too as surely He had His Barefoot
Days in the Sand too No Different
Than a Homeless Man Still
Emptying His Pockets
Roaming the
Surrounding
Land Just For Giving
Thanks Giving Sharing Love
Living off the Kindness of Others
Who Welcomed Him then.. well it's
True i am A King of Pain and that is surely
Enough for me For A Book Crowned Another
Story today.. Beyond A Quadrillion Stars as many
Connections As There are in A Human Body So far Away

A King of the

UNiVeRSE

When 'Luke'

Clearly Says it is no
Where else But within
Now in Terms of The Kingdom
of God yes Heaven Living Within
Incarnate As Agape Love For All Now
With Least Harm.. Instead they made it
Rocket Science into Space indeed i never

Even Wanted A Promotion above Shoe Giver
At a Military Bowling Center For Truly Smiling
Eyes Connecting Heaven Enough for Me Yes

Perhaps

of Smiles

too Cheap

Smiles

only

Ruling

A Soul Within

To Smile Dance

And Sing Some more

Coming From a Place

That Was the King of Pain for 66 Months
No 3 Day or 3 Hour Tour for me a Pain Assessed
Worse than Crucifixion All Those 66 Months From Wake to Sleep

True there is John 14:12 in terms of Smiles, Dancing, And Singing Poetry

And True There is Also John 14:12 in Darkness of Hell Greater too...

Be Careful
What You
Wish for

Be Even
more Careful for Where you Go now...

For It's True Sheep Are Always Ready

For Shears And Yes Verily Goats Remain

Surefooted on the Side of Mountains Still.. in Balance

God's Rule Most FRiEnDS With Gravity And With Human Agape Love True..:)


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22 Nov 2020, 12:39 am

Dear subs and dark suits who align with the *Shapeshifter*

I faced your leader today.

'IT' ran.

I have no idea nor any misconsieved misaligned ill aligned negative emotion,nor does it enter,what happens next.

I hope though from the heart,that perhaps your weak consciousness and lack of will was just 'invaded'.

And that you false hats can be redeemed and saved?

Either way,all good.: )

For the common good.



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22 Nov 2020, 1:09 am

ElabR8Aspie wrote:
Dear subs and dark suits who align with the *Shapeshifter*

I faced your leader today.

'IT' ran.

I have no idea nor any misconsieved misaligned ill aligned negative emotion,nor does it enter,what happens next.

I hope though from the heart,that perhaps your weak consciousness and lack of will was just 'invaded'.

And that you false hats can be redeemed and saved?

Either way,all good.: )

For the common good.


Not sure if 'You' are addressing me or not;

Never the less, i will Agree; Yes, It's all Good

to me Dark or Light; Matters not; Nor Time,

Distance Or Space;

Been to 'Both

Places'; Still

Standing with SMiLes..:)


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22 Nov 2020, 2:34 am

Nothing against the true lights.

And note,Don't take it personally and or to heart.

Resistance will in no doubt and present,tricks,to sway attention away from conscousness and false intentions,this ain't you.

Distinguish...your truth and whats trying to being a disabler.

See 'IT'.

See the lies,separtate.

Take this disenabaler on board and grow.

Seperate yeah,align first with your own truth.

Distinguish.hence divcide and see the *dropkick*.

Master,akign with right.

Fear is a distant past.



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22 Nov 2020, 6:32 am

ElabR8Aspie wrote:
Nothing against the true lights.

And note,Don't take it personally and or to heart.

Resistance will in no doubt and present,tricks,to sway attention away from conscousness and false intentions,this ain't you.

Distinguish...your truth and whats trying to being a disabler.

See 'IT'.

See the lies,separtate.

Take this disenabaler on board and grow.

Seperate yeah,align first with your own truth.

Distinguish.hence divcide and see the *dropkick*.

Master,akign with right.

Fear is a distant past.


Thank You. i see your
Point Succinctly In
Autotelic Flow..:)


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22 Nov 2020, 11:47 am

At this point,the real truth had to align.

It had to happen.



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22 Nov 2020, 11:55 am

Ps.On another note;

brothers and sisters who align with there hearts by default and speak the truth,

i won't address you personally nor reply,

so please don't be offended.: )

IF you are,your swayed by words,then the mind.

The inner knowing and quiet acceptance,is enough.

It just is.: )



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22 Nov 2020, 12:35 pm

ElabR8Aspie wrote:
Ps.On another note;

brothers and sisters who align with there hearts by default and speak the truth,

i won't address you personally nor reply,

so please don't be offended.: )

IF you are,your swayed by words,then the mind.

The inner knowing and quiet acceptance,is enough.

It just is.: )


Smiles my Friend; i don't find You Difficult
to Understand at all; And Yes, i did/do See the
Point of Your Other Thread; Philosophy, Indeed;
Finding The Inner Voice Unafraid to Speak;

On the Other
Hands; THeRE
iS only
The Same
Old Science
of The Same Old
Dusty Words And Folks
That And Who Come Before...

For You See; You Are A Breath
Of Fresh Air; A Small Flame Attempting
To Light A Very Large Dark Room; And Yes,

It Works

In Replies

of Silent Truth;

When WhisperS in

The

DarK

Come To
True LiGHT
And of Course
It Is An Individual
Journey The Paths You Create...

Smiles My FRiEnD HiSToRY SHoWS

People Silence What They Have No Current

Way to Understand; Therefore, They Do Not

Come to Understand; Indeed A Self-Fulfilling

Prophecy; For One Who Welcomes All; Becomes Basically A "Saint Elmo's Fire"...

No Different Than Any Other Fire That Welcomes All Dry Tinders of Wood To FLaME Higher..:)


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22 Nov 2020, 12:54 pm

when there are many misaligned words,

this is justification in play by the messy mind.

though note,very much from good intentions.

it is being in two minds.


few words and inner truth flow and live in quiet acceptance.
there is though,the acceptance to the rule,
when many words are required,
when spoken from the heart.

there is no need to justify nor feel the need to connect with the words from others,that though may seem to align,be 'it' with so called good intentions.

things just get messy and living in two minds.

quiet acceptance of inner truths,inner knowing is all that is required.


Ps.at some point,you realize the words from others,are insignificant.
you then just flow and speak your own truths and use words accordingly.

non reaction.

words are magic,
and black magic when used unjust.

cause and effect.

words evoke emotions.
words sway the mind,sway consciousness,sway attention,
if spoken and then actioned upon,unjust or just.

swift justice or non justice.

cause and effect.

law of flow and nature.

two edged sword.

one path or the other,

or remain at the crossroads.

simple.



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22 Nov 2020, 1:24 pm

ElabR8Aspie wrote:
when there are many words,

this is justification in play by the mind.

though very much from good intentions.

it is being in two minds.


few words and inner truth flow and live in quiet acceptance.
there is no need to justify nor feel the need to connect with the words from others,that align with so called good intentions,swayed by being in two minds.

things just get messy.

quiet acceptance of inner truths,inner knowing is all that is required.




Hehe; "That's" Why i Public Dance 14,033 Miles
Of Public Dance in the Same 87 Months, i Take
To Write These 8.7 MiLLioN Words of Free Verse Poetry;

No Reason, My

FRiEnD; JusT

For Fun;

i Ain't

Here to

Save Anyone;

Or Impress Anyone Either;

Although, Lately, The Feed

Back i Get From Other

Places is Rather Stellar;

i Just Do What Feels And

Senses Great, Like All the Other

Animals Do; and The Rest Naturally

Falls In Place Like An Anthill; For A While At Least...

My Wife, Says i am Always Messy; on the Other Hands And Feet;

What i Laser Focus On Verily Rarely Gets Lost From What

i am Doing

NoW

At Least With Smiles...

And Yes, Whether or Not

You Reply to me or not;

You May Always Expect me

To Reply to You, When i am around

At Least; As Let's Face Facts and Truth

i am Least Likely A Last one on Earth Now

At Least to Run Out of Steps of Dance

And Words of Free Song too

By What's

Accounted

For So Far At Least;

In Other Words, i am Here to Play; And that's

It; i Rarely Anticipate What i Do Next; That's What i Do, hehe...

Anyway, For Now At Least, i am Going Dancing in Public Places, WHere

THere iS only

Move and

Repose

iN Waves

Water Ocean

Whole me in Flow;

Balance in Change, Yes,

It's What All Potential Is All About...

Yeah; Love Helps, With Least Harm, to Glue IT All ToGeTHeR

As FLoWeRS And THoRNS NaTuRaLLy Do Help Roses Rise More Colorful Now...

Very Rarely Now,

Does someone

Hang With Me

Long And

That Just

Gives me

More Opportunity

to Expand My my, my, Human Potential More; Meh...

No One Much Hung Around When i Got Ill and Shut-in;

i surely don't Expect Them to now Either; Yet,

i alone Hold the Key to my JoY iN LiGHT NoW;

So In Other Words, BaSiCALLY, i Am ALWaYS SPeaKinG Dancing Singing From/to mY

SoUL First Now; for the Others who wanna Listen/Watch in; rather 'Legion' so Far Now

Most EVeRYWHeRE i Go; Which indeed, is all around the Globe in Many Ways

As this is just one Small Step/Words/Stop On A Very Long Journey With Paths Now

Never Ending too In

All My Life Story True;

'They'

Are

Surely

Always Welcome

To Listen/Watch iN And Or Dance And Sing too..:)


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22 Nov 2020, 1:45 pm

Life has always been fun,

despite the attempts of poison arrows.

dust never settled.

music has always been my first love,

solitaire second.

now enjoying my first love,music.

and solitaire,when the opportunites arises.

connections and corrections.

Ps.currently listening to a live version of 'live and let die' by Paul Marcartney.
I love his music.

Hey,just jude just came on.: )

i love this song too.

if people want to watch and listen,they are more than welcome.

no more running away from the music.



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22 Nov 2020, 1:58 pm

Ps.'With a little luck' by Paul McCartney.: )



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22 Nov 2020, 2:06 pm

another song i love is 'Uncle Albert / Admiral Halsey' by Paul McCartney.