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Hey! I've been lurking here occasionally since I was a teenager and now in my 20s I seriously think I am autistic, or if not that, neurodiverse in some other way so I figured I would make an account. I relate quite a lot to the stories of aspies who were undiagnosed until adulthood, especially people who mask well. Basically, I am able to socialize but only because I got really good at mimicry, you know? But I still feel estranged from people even when I put up a social front. I have made one attempt at getting diagnosed so far, but the psych didn't seem to be listening to me and just wanted to shove me out the door with some pills. I have spent quite a lot of time thinking about this, and family members agree that I have autistic traits or even brought up childhood behaviors which seem classically autistic. Still self diagnosed atm, maybe I can find a better psych in the future.

Anyway, I have attempted to try and get more meaning from my hobbies because my employment is less than fulfilling. I love film and have started really trying to get myself educated on the history of it. I'm currently on a self assigned project to teach myself film history from 1878 (kind of proto-film back then) up until the present day. Right now I'm at the year 1897. I also like some video games like Arma or especially the original Thief and Thief II from the 90s. I also like fantasy and have been developing my own fantasy world since I was in my early teens, which has undergone several major overhauls but has stayed fairly consistent for several years now. Maybe I can publish something presentable about it down the line. Otherwise I like goth music like Siouxsie and the Banshees, synth tunes, folk music and medieval/ancient history.

Oh well. I found your post in the "Hello. I'm James." thread before I found this thread. Sorry! A lot of my response is here.

One thing that is not in my earlier response: Hi! Welcome to WP!

Greetings and welcome to WP

I'm into deep history anywhere it applies.
Btw there are bits of pre-photograph stuff when researchers did work on light that are useful, the most astounding around photography I think is holography. It feels like someone has broken the rules in a way

welcome. I love your username.

Welcome to Wrong Planet!

Thanks for the thoughtful reply on the James thread Retired! I've actually taken several assessments online including the Autism quotient. I consistently score in the autism range, but on the low end. I'm really good at masking. I can hold down a job and do small talk. I don't have obvious dysfunction, but can point to several struggles in my life that I think most people find easy. I just need to wait a bit before I have money free for another attempt.

Welcome to WP!

I considered that I might have inattentive presenting ADHD until I learned more about autism. I have many of the social problems of autism, nothing too severe, but instead having to learn the social behaviors others find instinctual. I have issues dealing with loud noises, which were worse when I was a kid. I lack the impulsivity supposedly common in ADHD and I like low stimulus environments and focusing on one thing at a time for extended periods.

I never had trouble, for example, listening to a teacher in school for an hour. But I didn't like my loud and distracting peers. I get that people with ADHD can also hyperfocus, but I just don't have focus problems. Except for sometimes being in my own head too much.

Welcome to Wrong Planet. MidnightRose .

With any luck, following this link will show you a couple of distinctive symptom differences between ADHD and Asperger's Syndrome.

Welcome aboard, MidnightRose!

Welcome