There are plenty of bad mental healthcare providers out there. Have you thought about trying a different person/place? I know it's a hassle...but it also sounds like you don't feel supported in therapy right now.
I do a lot of journaling, as close to the moment as possible to the times I am "losing it." Whether it's suicidal thoughts, panic, or feeling overwhelmed. So that when I see my therapist, he can see what I've written and form his own idea of what I was going through, rather than me trying to explain my own opinions of it. For example, if my sentences are very short and intense, and somewhat lacking logic, that probably tells him more than if I just say, "Yeah, Monday was really hard. I don't even know what I was thinking, it was just very hard." Trying something like that may or may not help. But I think no matter what, you have to have providers that are willing to work with you :/
People stare at me a lot too. I often don't know why. One possibility for you is you say you were walking your dog. I think many people really like dogs, so maybe it was just that. I think I sometimes stare at people walking their dogs because I expect them not to notice me and it's just kind of pleasant to watch people interact with their dogs.
I hope you can find the support you need soon.