I wouldn't.
If you're exposed to something traumatic they won't take care of you and I believe based on things you've said on here that you'd be more prone than most to being traumatized.
I'm not shaming you, me too. I liked military s**t growing up but I'm glad I never enlisted. I had friends who went to Afghanistan and didn't come back the same. I'd have came back more f****d up then they did and you would too (and these are guys who need help).
I can put bad s**t I've actually done in a box and not dwell on it, you've got threads expressing overwhelming guilt for things you never actually did. You are not someone who should have to make grave moral decisions that might haunt you for the rest of your life.
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Watching liberals try to solve societal problems without a systemic critique/class consciousness is like watching someone in the dark try to flip on the light switch, but they keep turning on the garbage disposal instead.
戦争ではなく戦争と戦う