I spend way too much time alone.

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09 May 2021, 5:42 pm

I guess I'm glad it's been rainy, it's nice background noise to get past a dumb anxiety attack.


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09 May 2021, 6:28 pm

I have this tendency to ramble my way through threads barely anyone can coherently respond to; no pressure folks, it's a meditation or something.


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10 May 2021, 3:10 pm

I'm simultaneously tired of isolating & isolating because I'm tired. It can't go on forever, another thread acutely reminded me there are people I know who might actually want to help me, the problem is that I'm not one to trouble them by articulating all this.


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10 May 2021, 7:47 pm

This is screwing with my head to no end this week. I only really know to bury my negative thoughts in a work ethic that outpaces them & then to do everything in my power to forget I'm in that cycle.

I can make quite a lot of software work but don't ask for a clue from me socially.

Elon Musk can bask in applause for being "on the spectrum" - as for me I'm on the fence between total indifference & being terrified. I don't want any attention on that basis & now it's going to be inevitable. I don't want any part of a society that's cashing in on my brain without giving me a raise.


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11 May 2021, 10:56 am

Have you ever tried volunteering for a local charity?


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11 May 2021, 12:41 pm

It's tough to imagine how I'd really find the time... My idea of charity work is crashing free software so you don't have to. ;)

I have about 10GB of 3D scans I need to turn into wire frame models digitally this week. It's been tricky.


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12 May 2021, 9:18 am

On the other hand, it's not as if people complying with the latest trends & views on autism aren't creepy.

I guess what I'm saying is that I'll dodge that bullet if I seal myself in Styrofoam forever.


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12 May 2021, 9:46 am

I can relate to this. I often wish there was some place in between living with a housemate as I used to, and living alone as I do now. I can't cope with other people in my space the whole time, but day after day alone sends me into these wierd dysfunctional spirals. Reality checks badly needed.


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13 May 2021, 1:56 am

At least I was more productive than I was in my last reply, so I deleted it. :doh:

Now I need to go to sleep after I stop wondering why I'm freaking out, then wake up, check my work & do it all over again.


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13 May 2021, 6:32 pm

I had some long distance relationships that worked well, meeting on the weekend, being alart during the week. I haven't been able to maintain a relationship that wasn't like that.

So...Cberg... 3D Scans... What are they/what are you doing with them? I work in 3D and VR development


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14 May 2021, 4:36 am

That much might be something to PM me about. :?


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