Something Profound wrote:
Finally understanding the things that make me the way I am.
I totally understand the negative context that people might place on Autism based on experience, and those are things I have never experienced formally. A diagnosis wasn't given to me, so I couldn't tether the experiences I had to it. But I have been called...
!!Trigger Warning!!
...odd, strange, weird, ret*d, gay, stupid, annoying, slow, lacking in common sense, that I make other people uncomfortable, creepy, and a myriad of other things that I am certain others here have experienced to some degree or another.
Having no understanding of *why* I have always been the odd one out, and why certain things seemed harder for me than for others...well, that was rough. The prospect that I may have an explanation that speaks to all of my experience is something that is a bit of a relief. Like finally, FINALLY, I know what is the cause of all this.
It doesn't fix it. It doesn't make any of it better. And I am a bit angry that it wasn't recognized sooner. But I can get the closure on an always mystifying and frustrating aspect of who I am.
That is worth quite a lot to me. Not everyone need feel the same way.
That is kind of how I feel, the diagnoses did not help those problems per-say, but at least it gave me some knowledge that there was a reason why I had those problems. I guess in some way it helps at least knowing why instead of just bumbling around wondering what could be wrong with me..like I did In my younger years.
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We won't go back.