Hey, phosphorus, how awful an experience to have such a terrible meltdown. I am so glad you got help and did not harm yourself. You are one of my favorite people, if you remember, because you have read Alfred Russel Wallace. The Malay Archipelago. Your interest in birds and butterflies is so, well, interesting. And music.
So many people here care about you.
Thank you for letting us know about it, and keep getting whatever helps you. Hugs and
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The river is the melody
And sky is the refrain - Gordon Lightfoot