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17 Dec 2021, 11:14 am

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Your neurons are YOU. Who else but YOU made the calculations. YOUR synaptic clusters arranged themselves in accordance with the incoming sense stimuli, that YOU perceived. I don't believe in a mind body split. Or a mind brain split. Or a ego brain split. YOU are one seamless entity. Bio chemical electric consciousness in a material body held together magnetically. I'm aware the brain arranges preset patterns of activation, and is conditioned to react in certain ways, but you still have control over how it is programmed. To believe otherwise is to have an external locus of control. And that's a very bad philosophy to hold.


This is very impressive knowledge.

I would add to that, that I personally believe that you can 'tune in' like an antennae to certain vibratory frequencies. I don't mean to implicate anything by that word - I mean it literally. If you submit yourself to a certain way of thinking, you are vulnerable to being 'programmed'. Your thoughts will be a stream of information downloaded into your brain basically & some people don't even bother analysing the incoming information stream or pick it apart.

Hence large numbers of people not really understanding what is going on & accepting the news on their favourite media channel as 'fact'.


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17 Dec 2021, 11:16 am

Yes, First thing i thought of was: Schizophrenia. It's where a person cant distinguish their own thoughts and attribute them to external things, real or imaginary external things. It's not a normal state to be confused on this issue.


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17 Dec 2021, 11:20 am

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thinkinginpictures wrote:
... I just happen to feel that some of my thoughts are disembodied from myself, and it certainly feels like some of my thoughts are indeed external.  I have no control of them, and they often disagree with me.

Sometimes I can ask them how they come to their conclusions, and I'm 100 % relying on their replies -- but quite often they don't reply or answer my questions at all.

It certainly feels like there are more "people" inside me than me.

The only way I can make sense of this perception is to conclude that some neurons in my brain are "me" and others are separated from me and whatever cluster of neurons that "I" consist of have little to no say in the rest of my body or brain, neither in thoughts or decisions.
This seems more like some form of schizophrenia -- a mental disorder characterized by significant alterations in perception, thoughts, mood, and behavior.

But, I am not an appropriately-trained and licensed mental-health practitioner, so I could be wrong.


I was diagnosed with ASD since early childhood, then in early adulthood got a psychotic meltdown and now I have multiple diagnoses. It's not "real" schizophrenia though, but something closely related to it.

But do "ASD-only" people feel like they're in control and have a free will?



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17 Dec 2021, 11:20 am



Yawn, Obviously We Don't Have "Total Free Will" As That Would/Will
Mean We Would/Will Have To Consciously Direct Every Action of Gut Bacteria, HAHA.

On The Other Hand, Obviously, Relatively Speaking, Some of Us Have More Relative
Free Will Than Others; For Instance Science Shows Some of Us Develop the Ability Now

To Generate Our Own Feelings And Senses Within In Joy of the Doing Now; Otherwise,

Termed in Science As "Autotelic Flow"; More Specifically, Ascending the Neo-Cortex,
Transcending the Neo Cortex, More in Transient Hypo-Frontality, Generating Through

Bio-Feedback, A Greater Balance of Neurochemicals And Neurohormones Within; As It's

A Well Known Fact That Through This Bio-Feedback in Sensory Ways, Experienced Yogi
Monks Will Generate Steam off their Bodies in Icy Waters; Did i Mention i Haven't Worn

Long Pants in The Winter
Since 2013, Through

Ice and Snow

And Dancing In Public

In Gale Force Winds of

19 Degrees F; Well, It's True i Did This
in Biloxi on the Boardwalk Beaches And

(And Even Took Pics to Document The Event)

A Huge Black Dude All Bundled Up Looking Like

He Could Play for the "Chicago Bears" Said,"You Are

One Bad Dude,"

Well, Not Really,

i've Just Developed
The Ability to Generate
More Heat and on Top of that

When You Make the Choice not
to Bundle up in the Winter, You Tend
to Generally Adapt More to the Cold Like Most Folks Do.

Yawn, For Folks Stuck in Left Brain, More Material Reductionist
Black And White Thinking, You'll Find Folks With An All Or Nothing,
Black and White, Literal Approach to Life; You'll Find Folks Who Either

"Believe" We Do Have Relative
Free Will or We Do Not; While

The Fact Remains as All Stuff in

Life, it is a Spectrum, and In this

Case We Do Have Relative Free Will;

And i've Explored the 'Gray Areas' In Life

Enough to Make them Very Colorful For me;

Whether or Not, Other Folks Have Developed the

Intelligence

More of

A 'Yogi Monk';

Except, i Didn't Have go to "Yogi School";

i Didn't Need Instructions From Anyone Else;

i Simply Looked Within, Got in Greater Touch with
the Right Hemisphere of my Mind/Body and Found Out Who

The Big Boss is;

Clue; it's

Not the Material

Reductionist All or

Nothing, Black and

White Literal Thinking Left Brain
Hemisphere Mind; As Per 30 Years

of Research, As Iain McGilchrist

Attempts to Explain this in More

(In His Books, "The Master And The
Emissary" And "The Matter With Thinking")

Material Reductionist Ways Now that is All
The Left Brain Restricted Thinking Mind Will Understand.

The Left Brain Hemisphere is More Associated With Mechanical Cognition
And Materially Reducing Reality for Rigid Order; The Right Brain Hemisphere
Is More Associated In Processes of Social-Empathic/Artistic/Contemplative/REAL
SPIRITUAL INTELLIGENCES that are Much Less Verbal in Nature and More Holistic

IN Big Picture

Views of Reality;

Yes, More of a Top Down
Approach Than Bottom Up

That Only Sees Life in Terms of

Black and White Literal Think; Such

As the Quran and the Old Antiquated
Dusty Bible Are Perfect Unerring in every way

As Left Brain Think as Scientifically Assessed now

Is Much More Subject to Delusion than the Right Brain

Is as Subjects Who are Studied With Right Brain Hemisphere

Damage can't Even Identify That When Their Arm is Paralyzed it
Belongs to Them...

So True,

You'll Find

Left Brain Restricted

Folks Believing in All of
What the Bible Says Like A Science Text
Book and the Quran the Same; Even if they

Have Stellar Verbal Intelligence, And Dot All Their
i's, And Cross All Their T's in Order of So-called Perfect Grammar;

Yawn,

Meanwhile

i am A River

With Much Greater

Relative Free Will in Flow

As the Empirical Effective Results

of What i Do that Folks in Other Countries

Who Have Not Been Brought Up So Much in A Left
Brain Oriented Society Find So Easy to Interpret of What i Write

In much More Holistic Ways of Metaphors For How the Right Hemisphere

Master is Transformed into Metaphors of Words Bringing Bigger Pictures of Existence

for those Who

Have Eyes

And Ears

Beyond Organs

to See and Hear;

And Again, This is why
i am Capable of Writing

A 10 MiLLioN Word EPiC Longest

Long Form Poem Fully Documented

As of the Anniversary Month Date on 12.18.2021

With Over 100,000 Photos i Took to Illustrate it

And Public Dance Through All Kinds of Weathers

And Even Minor Injuries for 15,866 Miles in Public

In Mediating Autotelic Flow of Movement and Writing

Free Verse Poetry in 100 Months; Along with Leg Pressing

Still Up to 1520 Pounds at 61 Years of Age that Elite Military
Dudes Can't even Budge at the Military Gym i Work Out at; Yeah,

Baby the

Intelligence

of A 'Yogi' that

Just MeanS UNiSoN

of Left And Right Brain

Hemispheres of Mind Operating

On All Cylinders, Where Most Folks are

Tuned With 4 Cylinders, i have Practiced

A Way of life Where All 12 Cylinders of

my Ferrari Relative Free Will Are Tuned to
The Max of Autotelic Flow in Laser Focus of

Frigging

Bliss

Most

Every Second

Of Every Now That Exists...

Go Ahead And Believe that Some one/Some
'Thing' Else Controls Your Will; Go Ahead Give

Up And Don't Believe You Will Do What's Never

Been Done Before

And the Effective

Results of

That Karma of

Belief in Action and

Consequence Will Be You Will NOT;

And For All Practical Intents and Purposes
And Meaning in Life, Your Excellence in Free Will
Relatively Dancing And Singing Will be A Tiny Goldfish

In An Ocean

Where Science

Shows Now the

Average Attention

Span of Humans Is Now

So Distracted That it is Less
than 3 Seconds; Yes, Less that A Frigging Gold Fish;

It Should Be Pretty Easy to See, Who Has More or Less
Relative Free Will in this Life By What They Actually Do In Life;

Again,

i took

Pictures

And Documented

This Whole Case Study

Effort; Why? There is

No one Else like me to Study;

At Least not for What my Special Interests
Are in a Class All of Their Own In True Original
Creativity that is the Best Evidence of Relative Free Will There is...

Don't Live Life Like
A Parrot Only Spoon-Fed
All That You Do By Someone
Else's Instructions; i Did that

For 5.3 Decades And It Was like

Living Underground in a Cocoon

As Opposed to Butterfly Wings iN FLiGHT...

And Sure, i Did Caterpillar too, in The Interim of that too...

Basically, Cocoon is HeLL ON EartH, Caterpillar is Grey Scale

Purgatory, And Butterfly Wings iN FLiGHT Are Endless New Colors of Heaven Within...

That Yes, Baby

i Get to Co-Create

With Relative Free Will

Understanding that the

Mostly Silent Navigator And Pilot

is The Master, The Right Hemisphere in Charge...

And Indeed That Makes All these Words Only Emissaries,

Yes, Servants to

The Master

Within

Indeed, Now, For Real

In This Relative Free,
Will Returning to Page
of Original Creativity in
Every Letter A New UniVerse of Existence

Every Inhale of Peace, Exhale of Love Indeed;
This Relative Free Will Eternally Now Free to Be i am...

-me



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17 Dec 2021, 11:24 am

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Yes, First thing i thought of was: Schizophrenia. It's where a person cant distinguish their own thoughts and attribute them to external things, real or imaginary external things. It's not a normal state to be confused on this issue.


Yeah. I have met two schizophrenics I think. One in my real world high school & then probably one online via the Autistic group associated with this forum.

The biological guy I first met used to knock on my door super early in the morning, every few days, without warning. I told him not to - but he persisted, and made me out to be the problem because I wasn't meeting his needs. I could barely talk during high school & he would inappropriately touch me and then call me gay because of his actions?

I was too scared to cut him off for a while, but then when I did he went crazy, demanding a physical fight, SMS messaging me his delusions. He then used to follow me up the hill to where I live with a hoodie on his head, appearing on obscure bus routes on the same bus, and trains, too. He had stabbed someone during high school, so I had reason to be terrified.

Then I met one online & I'm not going to say too much about that as I don't want to upset people who may be reading this.


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17 Dec 2021, 11:38 am

Things i have read , looked at in last two years:

B.F. Skinner's 'Theory Of Operant Conditioning' (how environment controls our behaviors. "Despite all our rage we are still just rats in a cage." Ha!)

How Emotions Are Made The Secret Life of the Brain - Lisa Feldman Barrett (2017). (goes into Emotion formation process...its good, i didn't finish it though :lol: )

Various stuff on LSD, Media manipulation etc. Yes, Tv programs, (culture in general,) programs us. Some even believe the old cathode ray tubes had a hypnotic effect. Something to do with the flicker rate. Tv is the opiate of the masses, it's cliche but true, and who isn't addicted to the spectacle.

That story doesn't sound like schizophrenics. That's sounds predatory. Schizophrenics are generally only aggressive when gripped by paranoid delusions, and are reclusive and defensive. You're giving off prey signals. You must not have strong boundaries. If you appear weak and or confused, there are people who will spot this and take advantage of you. I've never been in such a situation, I always scan my environment. And i will not shy away from confronting a person if i feel they are trying to take advantage or intimidate me. That's why its important to stand up for yourself, and exercise 'free will', because if you don't, your 'will' can be subjugated to someone else's. Hijacked almost.


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17 Dec 2021, 11:42 am

There's no consensus on whether or not free will exists. Personally I've seen no argument supporting its existence that's clear enough to me to shake my strong suspicion that it doesn't exist. As far as I can see, the state of the universe at one point in time completely governs what happens next, so that would suggest there's no free will. But that's based on such subjects as Newtonian physics, which are seriously inaccurate under extreme conditions, and I gather there are arguments based on quantum mechanics and chaos theory that suggest I could be wrong. Unfortunately I don't think I'll ever understand those subjects, so I guess I'll never know if there's anything in it or not. I read somewhere that Stephen Hawking was pretty strongly in the determinism camp, and I suppose he understood all that woolly quantum / chaos stuff.

It often feels like I have free will, as if I'm freely deciding whether to do a thing or not, but it could be that I did a thing because I'm the kind of person who would do it, my brain was pre-configured to make whatever decision I made that I thought was so freely made.

Sometimes it's a comfort for me to see myself as having no free will, for example if I'm worried that I might need to exercise an uncomfortable act of will and do something I'd rather not do, I might think that I'd end up doing whatever it is I'm the kind of person to do, and that I don't have to drive my behaviour. Which is strangely akin to what the Zen Buddhists say, that enlightenment is about letting go and realising that you're going to do what you're going to do anyway. Or something like that.

I've heard that some people don't like determinism because they think it undermines the notion of crime and punishment. The criminal might claim he had no choice but to commit a crime, and therefore shouldn't be punished. But then the judge can simply reply that by the same token, he has no choice but to punish him. If there's no free will then it's senseless to appeal to it in attempt to get mercy.



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17 Dec 2021, 11:53 am

theprisoner wrote:
Things i have read , looked at in last two years:

B.F. Skinner's 'Theory Of Operant Conditioning' (how environment controls our behaviors. "Despite all our rage we are still just rats in a cage." Ha!)

How Emotions Are Made The Secret Life of the Brain - Lisa Feldman Barrett (2017). (goes into Emotion formation process...its good, i didn't finish it though :lol: )

Various stuff on LSD, Media manipulation etc. Yes, Tv programs, (culture in general,) programs us. Some even believe the old cathode ray tubes had a hypnotic effect. Something to do with the flicker rate. Tv is the opiate of the masses, it's cliche but true, and who isn't addicted to the spectacle.

That story doesn't sound like schizophrenics. That's sounds predatory. Schizophrenics are generally only aggressive when gripped by paranoid delusions, and are reclusive and defensive. You're giving off prey signals. You must not have strong boundaries. If you appear weak and or confused, there are people who will spot this and take advantage of you. I've never been in such a situation, I always scan my environment. And i will not shy away from confronting a person if i feel they are trying to take advantage or intimidate me. That's why its important to stand up for yourself, and exercise 'free will', because if you don't, your 'will' can be subjugated to someone else's. Hijacked almost.


To be honest, I think anxiety prevents me from confronting people. I get panicky when people confront me in person particularly.

Since I have put on weight (I was 10 stone at 23 years old due to starvation basically and now 15 stone) - I get way less attention. People pick on you when you are small.

I got beaten up once by a 16 year old when I was 13 years old on a paper round I did at the time. It was more charity work than anything. I got paid £3 for something that took an hour? I'd always get a £1 bag of sweets after so I came out with a large £2. 8O :lol: :roll:

My parents made me do it to instill a sense of responsibility. They thought I was 'weak'. So as someone with several health conditions even back then, I was freezing until my hands went stiff outdoors during the winter - and I was crying a lot due to sensory overload.

But tbh it has given me grit. It worked. Some people get beaten down, some don't. It just depends on your flavour of genes really.


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17 Dec 2021, 12:11 pm



As Far As Relative Free Will Goes, It Appears That Through

All The Distractions Modern Societies Bring Through our World of Media/Information
Technology; And Again Attention Spans as Long as A Gold Fish; Many Folks Never

Even Gain An Ability to Look Within

And Even Find Out Who They Are

And How to Develop and

Evolve As a Balancing

Human Being

Who Even Has The
Ability to Say Firmly NO

When Others Are Obviously

Attempting to Manipulate them
And Control them As Indeed More of

A Predatory, Competitive Way of Life than

Lending Hands Up In Cooperative Ways to Survive and Thrive;

i Was Always Told i Was too Nice; And Indeed i had a hard time Saying
No; And That too is Part of Relative Free Will, Firmly SAYING NO When

Someone is Trying to Take Advantage

Of You; Or Even Developing the Kind

Of Intelligence Through Cognitive
Empathy That it Takes to Understand

When Someone Is Attempting to Take Advantage
of You That Truly Comes Through Both Intuition and Experience.

Sadly, Indeed, Humans Are Becoming More the Tools They Create

Than Moving, Connecting, Co-Creating Beings Who Bring Greater
Social-Empathic Intelligences of Empathy AND COMPASSION FOR OTHERS,

Through RELATIVE
FREE WILL;

YET AGAIN,

Ya Better Become

FRiEnDS With the Shadow

Part Associated With Aggression,
Lust and In General the Fight or Flight

Instincts of Life in Balance Or Those Instincts

May Control What Ya Do Next; and This is What

It means to Be an Integrated Human Being Balancing

Will and Strength in What May Be Described As Divine Masculine
On A

Foundation

of LoVE iN BaLance

of Grace Inhaling Peace (Divine Feminine)

That Brings Exhaling LoVE iN JoY oF LiGHT

In Ways of Giving, Sharing, Caring Freely, With
Least Harm for Others as Again, A Foundation of

Life (Love) Where of Course i am Only Using Limited Metaphors
Here to Describe a Way toward Greater Relative Free Will in Balance;

Anyway, HAha, The Intelligence of Non-Verbal Communication Where

The Force oF DarK
In Shadows When
Necessary For
A Defense
For the
Freedom of Living

is Balancing Always in
A Practice of Life Now

With the Force oF LiGHT (Love)
in Inhaling Peace Exhaling Love

Are Both Necessary And i Surely
Have No Problem Saying "No" When
i Have to, NoW It is Practically Branded

By Sunshine

on my

Forehead With
Effortless Ease of
What Comes Necessary Next...

And Honestly, It's True Society,
Overall, Has Become Too Diffuse And
Stressed, to Be Able to Handle the Smallest Slights;

Canceling the Struggles its takes to Even Grow Up, Evolve
and Mature

in Balance.

And Just

Say NO

And Stand Up

For Ourselves When Necessary

Sort of Like The Illustration Below;

Where Words Are Not even Required
Like 'No' Branded on a Forehead By Sunshine...

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17 Dec 2021, 12:15 pm

Yes, left brain analytically dominated person can be quite rigid in the belief systems, I believe myself to be quite fluid in this respect. Bringing contempt maybe from more 'locked down' mindsets. Whether I'm right brain dominated thinker, i don't know. The brain switches between neural networks, given the task at hand. Some people are biological stuck in one mode though. Some people only think logically, and some people only think emotionally.


As far as anxiety confronting somebody, i dont go out of my way to confront people, but this guy not along ago was riding in the street at night erratically on a bicycle, cutting cars off, then he stated shouting into the air like he was drunk, "ill knock your f-ing head off, what are you looking at! something something ill send you back to your paki boyfriend" hes talking crap,, i'm, walking by, and i don't know if he talking to me, or just venting, or on drugs, or what, cause im in the distance (and i have a beard maybe he thinks i'm pakistani). he's flipping off cars as they go by, just riding in the middle of the road but i walking parallel, and i was gonna turn the corner, but but i had a impulse to walk right up towards him, i was ready for whatever. As soon as i get within a meter of him, He just turned around and pedalled off and kept his distance. I guess i was just feeling brave that day, cause who knows what could of happened, but no, if somebody is challenging me, or insulting me, i have confront them. It's an ego thing. Also he was my own weight, so makes a difference too. If someone outweights you, you do think twice :lol:

Oh and aghogday, you look like your 6'4 220+ or something and can handle yourself , i doubt anybody would mess with you. Ha! I'm kinda skinny, but i don't back down, it's important not to show weakness, or people will walk all over you.


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17 Dec 2021, 1:27 pm

theprisoner wrote:
Oh and aghogday, you look like your 6'4 220+ or something and can handle yourself , i doubt anybody would mess with you. Ha! I'm kinda skinny, but i don't back down, it's important not to show weakness, or people will walk all over you.





Hehe, Actually 242 Pounds, And
Yes i've Been Very Tall Since
Attaining Almost my

Full Height

At Age 13,

Yet It's Also

True At Almost
6 feet Tall Then at
Age 13, i Weighed

120 Pounds, And Had No

Social Clue How to Dress Or
Wear My Hair, And Perhaps i Was

Lucky or Not, My Law Enforcement

Daddy Went Away at age 3; And My

Mother Let me Express myself However i liked;

Yet It's true, Looking Back at Myself at age 13;

i Was Gonna Experience A lot of Bullying at School (Verbally i Did)

For Looking And Acting So Much Different on the Autism Spectrum;

Thing is, i was Nice, i Always Smiled and So-Called Bully Boy Christians

Spit on me

And Called

me the F Word
And Not Fred; Now Indeed,

(As They Literally Said Boys
Are Not Allowed to Smile at
The City Park or Middle School)

i Dance a Mix of Free Style Martial Arts

And Ballet; Yes that Ended up Increasing

my Leg Strength from 500 Pounds in
Leg Pressing at 210 Pounds at age 53,
to Up to 1520 Pounds And 242 Pounds of
Weight At Age 61; There is A Whole Lot that

Averages

Of Science Does

Not Understand;

And There is A Whole
Lot of Epigenetic Human
Potential Just Waiting to Be

Unpacked As Some Ants Become
Workers and Others Become 'Super Soldiers'...

Humans have a Whole Lot of Potential, Not Unlike

me, Not Speaking Until 4 on the Autism Spectrum
With Barely the Ability to Creatively Express Myself
in Writing Through my 40's; For me at Least, Indeed,

It Was All A Matter
of Developing

Hidden

Human
Potentials And
Getting Out of the
Metaphor of 'my Head'

That truly Corresponds

With Left Brain Restricted Thinking;

Indeed, When i Came to this Internet Site
in 2010, i Scored 45 on the Scan for ASD;

By July of 2013, When i Started Writing Poetry
Free Verse in Original Creativity And Started the
Ballet and Mixed Martial Arts Public Dance, i Scored

An 11 and the Doctor's Taking Care of me through
66 Months of Shut in Illness, Including A Synergy of

19 Life Threatening Disorders, including the Worst Pain
known to Humankind, Type Two Trigeminal Neuralgia Then

From Wake to Sleep That No Drug Would Touch; They Identified

My Fast Recovery in the Files of Unexplained Remission of Disease;

Or as my Therapist Called it a Real Miracle; And the Elimination of

All the Difficulties

i had with Not

Only Autism,

Yet Severe Depression,
Anhedonia, And The Severest
Anxiety that my Air Force Psychiatrist

Said He Ever Dealt With Wanting to implant
An Electronic Device in my Chest to Stimulate
my Vagal Nerve to Feel Anything At all; Insurance
Didn't Cover

It, so i Waited

In Hell, 66 Months
Looked
Within, And Found

Answers As Simple

As A Free Dance and
Song to Balance myself Back to Humanity Whole...

When i First Started Public Dancing in 'Trump Town
USA', Some of the Same Christian Soldier Bully Men
Tried to Give me Trouble Around the Stores Here;

Yet Nah, Once i Continued
To Get Bigger And Stronger

They Don't Even Look my
Way Now and Make Eye Contact;

And Haha, They Surely Don't Poke
The Bear All Grown Up From Middle School, Hehe...

True, It's Hard for Folks to Believe i Was Ever Autistic

Until they See 'The Stereotypical Physical Appearance' in

Middle

School

Without

A 'Social Clue'

Of What Society
Requires to Conform
to the Norm; Now, Financially
Independent, Retired, That's No Longer an Issue;

Anyway, Seeing How Severely Living Dead in Pain i was
For 66 Months, And How i Quickly Moved to All Joy

Inhaling Peace

Exhaling Love

Once Again with
The Smile of A Child;

It Was Hard to Believe

That Someone Could Be so
Happy, So i got Diagnosed
With Bi-Polar NON-SPECIFIED

AS TRUE, then they Never Saw
Anything Like "IT' Before (me) With SMiLes...

i Will Readily Admit When Stuck in Left
Brain Think, Most of my Life, All Straight
A's, 3 College Degrees, Still not Able to
Basically Find my Way out of a 'Paper Bag'

As 'They' Say;

i had Very Little
Relative Free Will Then;

And Practically Nothing i Knew,

Had Any Real Benefit to Survive
And Really Thrive in Life With An Entire
Orchestra And Symphony of Relative Free Will Now Balancing...

One Thing That Really Helped me is Selfies, For Feedback For Non-Verbal Expression;

And Really Becoming Whole With my Body; As i Really Felt Like i Was Just living in my Head before...

Movement Therapy (Basically Free Dance) is an Approved Therapy to Regulate Emotions and

Integrate Senses on the Autism Spectrum;

And Additionally It Actually Enhances

Empathy in Sensitivity to

The Other Human's

Feelings and Senses of Life;

i Already Figured it out on my own;
Before i Saw a New Psychiatrist More
Educated in New Research; Who Was Actually

Able to Give me a Real PRESCRIPTION FOR DANCE;

TO PROVE to Folks Who Might Give me Problems
In Stores, Like Management that it is A Real Accommodation
For Functional Disability as in My Case my Empathy And Senses
are Tuned Way up; With Mirror Neuron Functioning Normal to
The Extreme, Practically With "Mirror-Touch Synesthesia"; It Used

To Be A Real

Terror to Even

Walk in Walmart;

Yet the Meditating Flow
of Dance Regulates my
Emotions and Integrates
my Senses that makes it

Effortless in Ease to Public
Dance Now With Zero Anxiety;

It Does Work; And True i Do it more
Than Most; So it Does Work More for me.

i Was Terribly Anxious all my Life; Every Bit of
The Pain and Numb For What i Went through in

HeLL oN Earth 66 Months Shut-in in my Bedroom

Was Really

Worth

One Day

With Zero Levels
of Anxiety; That's

Been my Life Now
For Almost 101 Months

Now And What i Find Now is

Fear Was the Source of Most All
of the Weaknesses in Life i Experienced Before...

It's Worth All the Naysaying i've Received Both off and online Indeed, hehe..

i Do Understand Why Some Folks Don't Believe they Have Much Free Will Indeed

From Personal

Experience;

And i Do Understand
What Life is Like Now

Able to See Through what
Was Once Only An Opaque
Window of Human Potential Freer;

Really, A Metaphor of Heaven Within;

It's Like Ya Finally Understand What
The Metaphors Some Folks Used Really Mean in Real Life Now...

And Indeed as 'Pink Floyd' Sings No Longer An "Earthbound Misfit"
as Part of 'The Wall'...

Just Another

'Brick' and

'A Prisoner'

And Even Slave;

Just A Cog in the
Left Brain Restricted 'Think Tank'...

Hehe, i Live in A Much Bigger Aquarium
Now; It's Practically Wave, Water, Ocean Whole With SMiLes..

Yet one 'thing' is For
Sure, i Would

Not Go Back
to any Age yet Now at 61;

As Now is All THere Is, Eternally Now FoR Me at Least...
Every Now Continues to Only Get Better With Relative Free Will Indeed...

And As Far As the Free Verse Poetry Goes, Yesterday A Young Woman
in India Said And i Quote, "Every Love Story is Beautiful But Yours is The Best!"

Haha, That Was After
A Dude Last Week Telling
me i Write Like i Should
Be Tied Down in a Mental
Institution, and Another
One Suggesting that

Whitman Would
Starve to Death

If He Wrote Like me;

Yep on the Wrong Planet
A Place That Supports the
Truly Neurodiverse like me;

It's True, Indian Women are More like me now...

And if someone Wants to Call me a Sissy Like in Middle School, Have
At IT; For all the Smiles i Bring now, hehe, at Least in India HAha...

i Am Surely No Fighter
That's Not my Way

Although 'They' Say
Now At the Military
Gym i Have a
Unique way

of Martial Arts too;

Yet i Surely Will Stand
Up For Myself and Say NO Now...
Hehe, Without Any Words at All...

i Never Had A Clue How to Do that Until Age 53...

Yes, Indeed ASD Will Be A Real Struggle, Overall, With NO DOUBT...

Yet On the Other Hand, Without the Struggles and Epigenetic Potential Unpacked

i Would

Never Be

Who i am Now...

Including All the Bullying in School And At Work
And Even Still Now Occasionally
Online By Faceless Anonymous Avatars...
Yep, The DarK Makes LiGHT Greater
From What i See Overall, As Life Now Greater Than EVER Before..:)

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17 Dec 2021, 3:07 pm

I'm 6'1, heavy set, bald and grumpy looking and people have said they 'wouldn't f*ck with me' but what I've noticed is that while the average bully doesn't bother, the few that do tend be proper psychos who are looking for a challenge.



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theprisoner wrote:
Yes, left brain analytically dominated person can be quite rigid in the belief systems, I believe myself to be quite fluid in this respect. Bringing contempt maybe from more 'locked down' mindsets. Whether I'm right brain dominated thinker, i don't know. The brain switches between neural networks, given the task at hand. Some people are biological stuck in one mode though. Some people only think logically, and some people only think emotionally.


As far as anxiety confronting somebody, i dont go out of my way to confront people, but this guy not along ago was riding in the street at night erratically on a bicycle, cutting cars off, then he stated shouting into the air like he was drunk, "ill knock your f-ing head off, what are you looking at! something something ill send you back to your paki boyfriend" hes talking crap,, i'm, walking by, and i don't know if he talking to me, or just venting, or on drugs, or what, cause im in the distance (and i have a beard maybe he thinks i'm pakistani). he's flipping off cars as they go by, just riding in the middle of the road but i walking parallel, and i was gonna turn the corner, but but i had a impulse to walk right up towards him, i was ready for whatever. As soon as i get within a meter of him, He just turned around and pedalled off and kept his distance. I guess i was just feeling brave that day, cause who knows what could of happened, but no, if somebody is challenging me, or insulting me, i have confront them. It's an ego thing. Also he was my own weight, so makes a difference too. If someone outweights you, you do think twice :lol:

Oh and aghogday, you look like your 6'4 220+ or something and can handle yourself , i doubt anybody would mess with you. Ha! I'm kinda skinny, but i don't back down, it's important not to show weakness, or people will walk all over you.


This is good advice.

To be honest, I probably need to take it. I'm usually way more 'nice' than I should be & naively tell people loads of personal information, even in person. Like, I get set up in social 'traps' a lot.

In the past few years I have become a lot more wise to the world & less egotistical. I find transcending ego is liberating really. You simply compete against yourself, instead of against other people who you do not know everything about.

I am 5"11 but at the moment I look a bit like Homer Simpson with skinny arms.


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17 Dec 2021, 4:49 pm

Also it's not just; left brain- right brain, it's also; up brain - down brain.


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The "Super Eight" loop creates "Superfluidity" between all four brain hemispheres.
Source: Christopher Bergland, C. 2009
https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/the-athletes-way/201503/the-cerebellum-deeply-influences-our-thoughts-and-emotions


cerebrum = up brain
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8 “superfluidity” zero friction, zero entropy and zero viscosity between thought, action, and emotion.
v
cerebellum = down brain
cerebellum = 10% of brain volume / holds 50% of brain neurons.


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Indeed, "Superfluidity"; Where Yes, The Cerebellum And Movements We May Artfully Create
Deeply Influences "Superfluidity between our Thoughts, Actions, Emotions, and Social interactions."

And Yes, This Helps Explain Why Movement Therapy is Assessed As A Clinically Successful Way

To Regulate Emotions and Integrate Senses in Both Autism Spectrum Disorder and

Bi-Polar
Disorder As Well.

And Yes, 50 Percent
of the Neurons of the
Brain in that Cerebellum 'Down Part'

That Is Obviously Developed Longest
In the Evolutionary Process; One Would

Expect it to Be Vital in All Our Survival Purposes
As Social Animals Evolved, Overall, Since Our Common
Rodent Ancestor Survived Around 75 Million Years Ago;

It's Really Sad That Movement is So Neglected As Part of
Human Philosophy, And Many Religions, And Cultures Now

Too as Almost an Unnecessary Part of Life, Where Movement

Is Integral Actual to All that Exists Down to the Sub-Particle Atomic Level;

And Here We aRe Sitting

Still In Front of Screens;

One of the Peak Flow of Experiences
Where i likely Attain this State of Being
Described as "SuperFluidity" is when i Dance

A Moving Meditation in Barnes and Noble, While
Reading A Book, While Listening to Meditative Music

And Socially Hehe, While Entertaining the Sitting Still

Starbucks Cafe, Where i Surely Don't Need Any Coffee to
Focus

At Peak Levels

To Finish A Book
And Retain So Much

More of What i read

in About an Hour as

The Wife and i Drop By
There Most Every Sunday

Afternoon Where i Have Read
Hundreds of Books This Way For Free;

It Seems Counterintuitive to Most of the
Folks There to Dance With A Book Listening
to Music Entertaining the Star Bucks Crowd in

A Social

Way Yet

It is only Just
Another Way

to Maximize

Human Potential;
HAha, Yet only For those

Who Are Not Afraid to Do it;
And Understand the Benefits through
the Actual Experience of Doing it that require

No External

Science Assessed

Research at all; Just the
Speed of Reading the Book
And Information Actually Retained;

And Even More Interesting, it Seems the
Bio-Feedback of that Dance And all the 15,866
Miles of Public Dance i've Done this way in 100 Months

Provides A Bio-Feedback, Where i Move into Flow This way
Even Behind a Screen as my Fingers Become the Dance of this
Keyboard in Flow Now

Or Superfluidity

Or Whatever

Metaphor in

Form Is Used
For The Essence
of Increasing Human Potential for Real...
Folks Have Understood Intuitively that
Moving Meditation Provides this Benefit
For Thousands of Years; It's Not So Much

A New Frontier; Yet one that is no Longer

Done as Much; and Not Appreciated for the Actual Effects in Greater Human Potential;

i Managed to Convince my Psychotherapist to Use it in Her Practice Above and Beyond
Just Cognitive Behavioral Therapy in Word Think; As it Just Doesn't Touch The Part Enough

That is Truly

Broke

in Emotionally

Regulating and

Sensory Integrating Now.

Thanks For The Link, i Recently
Read another Source That Was
Trying to Explain Away Why

The 50 Percent Concentration

of Neurons in The Cerebellum

Didn't Provide Any Real Advantages;

Sort of Like Junk DNA, And Hehe, Dark Matter in Space;

As Once Held Pre-Conceived Notions in Science Continue to Change and Improve.



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