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17 Dec 2021, 11:38 am
Things i have read , looked at in last two years:
B.F. Skinner's 'Theory Of Operant Conditioning' (how environment controls our behaviors. "Despite all our rage we are still just rats in a cage." Ha!)
How Emotions Are Made The Secret Life of the Brain - Lisa Feldman Barrett (2017). (goes into Emotion formation process...its good, i didn't finish it though 
)
Various stuff on LSD, Media manipulation etc. Yes, Tv programs, (culture in general,) programs us. Some even believe the old cathode ray tubes had a hypnotic effect. Something to do with the flicker rate. Tv is the opiate of the masses, it's cliche but true, and who isn't addicted to the spectacle.
That story doesn't sound like schizophrenics. That's sounds predatory. Schizophrenics are generally only aggressive when gripped by paranoid delusions, and are reclusive and defensive. You're giving off prey signals. You must not have strong boundaries. If you appear weak and or confused, there are people who will spot this and take advantage of you. I've never been in such a situation, I always scan my environment. And i will not shy away from confronting a person if i feel they are trying to take advantage or intimidate me. That's why its important to stand up for yourself, and exercise 'free will', because if you don't, your 'will' can be subjugated to someone else's. Hijacked almost.
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17 Dec 2021, 11:53 am
theprisoner wrote:
Things i have read , looked at in last two years:
B.F. Skinner's 'Theory Of Operant Conditioning' (how environment controls our behaviors. "Despite all our rage we are still just rats in a cage." Ha!)
How Emotions Are Made The Secret Life of the Brain - Lisa Feldman Barrett (2017). (goes into Emotion formation process...its good, i didn't finish it though )
Various stuff on LSD, Media manipulation etc. Yes, Tv programs, (culture in general,) programs us. Some even believe the old cathode ray tubes had a hypnotic effect. Something to do with the flicker rate. Tv is the opiate of the masses, it's cliche but true, and who isn't addicted to the spectacle.
That story doesn't sound like schizophrenics. That's sounds predatory. Schizophrenics are generally only aggressive when gripped by paranoid delusions, and are reclusive and defensive. You're giving off prey signals. You must not have strong boundaries. If you appear weak and or confused, there are people who will spot this and take advantage of you. I've never been in such a situation, I always scan my environment. And i will not shy away from confronting a person if i feel they are trying to take advantage or intimidate me. That's why its important to stand up for yourself, and exercise 'free will', because if you don't, your 'will' can be subjugated to someone else's. Hijacked almost.
B.F. Skinner's 'Theory Of Operant Conditioning' (how environment controls our behaviors. "Despite all our rage we are still just rats in a cage." Ha!)
How Emotions Are Made The Secret Life of the Brain - Lisa Feldman Barrett (2017). (goes into Emotion formation process...its good, i didn't finish it though
)Various stuff on LSD, Media manipulation etc. Yes, Tv programs, (culture in general,) programs us. Some even believe the old cathode ray tubes had a hypnotic effect. Something to do with the flicker rate. Tv is the opiate of the masses, it's cliche but true, and who isn't addicted to the spectacle.
That story doesn't sound like schizophrenics. That's sounds predatory. Schizophrenics are generally only aggressive when gripped by paranoid delusions, and are reclusive and defensive. You're giving off prey signals. You must not have strong boundaries. If you appear weak and or confused, there are people who will spot this and take advantage of you. I've never been in such a situation, I always scan my environment. And i will not shy away from confronting a person if i feel they are trying to take advantage or intimidate me. That's why its important to stand up for yourself, and exercise 'free will', because if you don't, your 'will' can be subjugated to someone else's. Hijacked almost.
To be honest, I think anxiety prevents me from confronting people. I get panicky when people confront me in person particularly.
Since I have put on weight (I was 10 stone at 23 years old due to starvation basically and now 15 stone) - I get way less attention. People pick on you when you are small.
I got beaten up once by a 16 year old when I was 13 years old on a paper round I did at the time. It was more charity work than anything. I got paid £3 for something that took an hour? I'd always get a £1 bag of sweets after so I came out with a large £2.
My parents made me do it to instill a sense of responsibility. They thought I was 'weak'. So as someone with several health conditions even back then, I was freezing until my hands went stiff outdoors during the winter - and I was crying a lot due to sensory overload.
But tbh it has given me grit. It worked. Some people get beaten down, some don't. It just depends on your flavour of genes really.
17 Dec 2021, 12:11 pm
As Far As Relative Free Will Goes, It Appears That Through
All The Distractions Modern Societies Bring Through our World of Media/Information
Technology; And Again Attention Spans as Long as A Gold Fish; Many Folks Never
Even Gain An Ability to Look Within
And Even Find Out Who They Are
And How to Develop and
Evolve As a Balancing
Human Being
Who Even Has The
Ability to Say Firmly NO
When Others Are Obviously
Attempting to Manipulate them
And Control them As Indeed More of
A Predatory, Competitive Way of Life than
Lending Hands Up In Cooperative Ways to Survive and Thrive;
i Was Always Told i Was too Nice; And Indeed i had a hard time Saying
No; And That too is Part of Relative Free Will, Firmly SAYING NO When
Someone is Trying to Take Advantage
Of You; Or Even Developing the Kind
Of Intelligence Through Cognitive
Empathy That it Takes to Understand
When Someone Is Attempting to Take Advantage
of You That Truly Comes Through Both Intuition and Experience.
Sadly, Indeed, Humans Are Becoming More the Tools They Create
Than Moving, Connecting, Co-Creating Beings Who Bring Greater
Social-Empathic Intelligences of Empathy AND COMPASSION FOR OTHERS,
Through RELATIVE
FREE WILL;
YET AGAIN,
Ya Better Become
FRiEnDS With the Shadow
Part Associated With Aggression,
Lust and In General the Fight or Flight
Instincts of Life in Balance Or Those Instincts
May Control What Ya Do Next; and This is What
It means to Be an Integrated Human Being Balancing
Will and Strength in What May Be Described As Divine Masculine
On A
Foundation
of LoVE iN BaLance
of Grace Inhaling Peace (Divine Feminine)
That Brings Exhaling LoVE iN JoY oF LiGHT
In Ways of Giving, Sharing, Caring Freely, With
Least Harm for Others as Again, A Foundation of
Life (Love) Where of Course i am Only Using Limited Metaphors
Here to Describe a Way toward Greater Relative Free Will in Balance;
Anyway, HAha, The Intelligence of Non-Verbal Communication Where
The Force oF DarK
In Shadows When
Necessary For
A Defense
For the
Freedom of Living
is Balancing Always in
A Practice of Life Now
With the Force oF LiGHT (Love)
in Inhaling Peace Exhaling Love
Are Both Necessary And i Surely
Have No Problem Saying "No" When
i Have to, NoW It is Practically Branded
By Sunshine
on my
Forehead With
Effortless Ease of
What Comes Necessary Next...
And Honestly, It's True Society,
Overall, Has Become Too Diffuse And
Stressed, to Be Able to Handle the Smallest Slights;
Canceling the Struggles its takes to Even Grow Up, Evolve
and Mature
in Balance.
And Just
Say NO
And Stand Up
For Ourselves When Necessary
Sort of Like The Illustration Below;
Where Words Are Not even Required
Like 'No' Branded on a Forehead By Sunshine...
17 Dec 2021, 12:15 pm
Yes, left brain analytically dominated person can be quite rigid in the belief systems, I believe myself to be quite fluid in this respect. Bringing contempt maybe from more 'locked down' mindsets. Whether I'm right brain dominated thinker, i don't know. The brain switches between neural networks, given the task at hand. Some people are biological stuck in one mode though. Some people only think logically, and some people only think emotionally.
As far as anxiety confronting somebody, i dont go out of my way to confront people, but this guy not along ago was riding in the street at night erratically on a bicycle, cutting cars off, then he stated shouting into the air like he was drunk, "ill knock your f-ing head off, what are you looking at! something something ill send you back to your paki boyfriend" hes talking crap,, i'm, walking by, and i don't know if he talking to me, or just venting, or on drugs, or what, cause im in the distance (and i have a beard maybe he thinks i'm pakistani). he's flipping off cars as they go by, just riding in the middle of the road but i walking parallel, and i was gonna turn the corner, but but i had a impulse to walk right up towards him, i was ready for whatever. As soon as i get within a meter of him, He just turned around and pedalled off and kept his distance. I guess i was just feeling brave that day, cause who knows what could of happened, but no, if somebody is challenging me, or insulting me, i have confront them. It's an ego thing. Also he was my own weight, so makes a difference too. If someone outweights you, you do think twice
Oh and aghogday, you look like your 6'4 220+ or something and can handle yourself , i doubt anybody would mess with you. Ha! I'm kinda skinny, but i don't back down, it's important not to show weakness, or people will walk all over you.
17 Dec 2021, 1:27 pm
theprisoner wrote:
Oh and aghogday, you look like your 6'4 220+ or something and can handle yourself , i doubt anybody would mess with you. Ha! I'm kinda skinny, but i don't back down, it's important not to show weakness, or people will walk all over you.
Hehe, Actually 242 Pounds, And
Yes i've Been Very Tall Since
Attaining Almost my
Full Height
At Age 13,
Yet It's Also
True At Almost
6 feet Tall Then at
Age 13, i Weighed
120 Pounds, And Had No
Social Clue How to Dress Or
Wear My Hair, And Perhaps i Was
Lucky or Not, My Law Enforcement
Daddy Went Away at age 3; And My
Mother Let me Express myself However i liked;
Yet It's true, Looking Back at Myself at age 13;
i Was Gonna Experience A lot of Bullying at School (Verbally i Did)
For Looking And Acting So Much Different on the Autism Spectrum;
Thing is, i was Nice, i Always Smiled and So-Called Bully Boy Christians
Spit on me
And Called
me the F Word
And Not Fred; Now Indeed,
(As They Literally Said Boys
Are Not Allowed to Smile at
The City Park or Middle School)
i Dance a Mix of Free Style Martial Arts
And Ballet; Yes that Ended up Increasing
my Leg Strength from 500 Pounds in
Leg Pressing at 210 Pounds at age 53,
to Up to 1520 Pounds And 242 Pounds of
Weight At Age 61; There is A Whole Lot that
Averages
Of Science Does
Not Understand;
And There is A Whole
Lot of Epigenetic Human
Potential Just Waiting to Be
Unpacked As Some Ants Become
Workers and Others Become 'Super Soldiers'...
Humans have a Whole Lot of Potential, Not Unlike
me, Not Speaking Until 4 on the Autism Spectrum
With Barely the Ability to Creatively Express Myself
in Writing Through my 40's; For me at Least, Indeed,
It Was All A Matter
of Developing
Hidden
Human
Potentials And
Getting Out of the
Metaphor of 'my Head'
That truly Corresponds
With Left Brain Restricted Thinking;
Indeed, When i Came to this Internet Site
in 2010, i Scored 45 on the Scan for ASD;
By July of 2013, When i Started Writing Poetry
Free Verse in Original Creativity And Started the
Ballet and Mixed Martial Arts Public Dance, i Scored
An 11 and the Doctor's Taking Care of me through
66 Months of Shut in Illness, Including A Synergy of
19 Life Threatening Disorders, including the Worst Pain
known to Humankind, Type Two Trigeminal Neuralgia Then
From Wake to Sleep That No Drug Would Touch; They Identified
My Fast Recovery in the Files of Unexplained Remission of Disease;
Or as my Therapist Called it a Real Miracle; And the Elimination of
All the Difficulties
i had with Not
Only Autism,
Yet Severe Depression,
Anhedonia, And The Severest
Anxiety that my Air Force Psychiatrist
Said He Ever Dealt With Wanting to implant
An Electronic Device in my Chest to Stimulate
my Vagal Nerve to Feel Anything At all; Insurance
Didn't Cover
It, so i Waited
In Hell, 66 Months
Looked
Within, And Found
Answers As Simple
As A Free Dance and
Song to Balance myself Back to Humanity Whole...
When i First Started Public Dancing in 'Trump Town
USA', Some of the Same Christian Soldier Bully Men
Tried to Give me Trouble Around the Stores Here;
Yet Nah, Once i Continued
To Get Bigger And Stronger
They Don't Even Look my
Way Now and Make Eye Contact;
And Haha, They Surely Don't Poke
The Bear All Grown Up From Middle School, Hehe...
True, It's Hard for Folks to Believe i Was Ever Autistic
Until they See 'The Stereotypical Physical Appearance' in
Middle
School
Without
A 'Social Clue'
Of What Society
Requires to Conform
to the Norm; Now, Financially
Independent, Retired, That's No Longer an Issue;
Anyway, Seeing How Severely Living Dead in Pain i was
For 66 Months, And How i Quickly Moved to All Joy
Inhaling Peace
Exhaling Love
Once Again with
The Smile of A Child;
It Was Hard to Believe
That Someone Could Be so
Happy, So i got Diagnosed
With Bi-Polar NON-SPECIFIED
AS TRUE, then they Never Saw
Anything Like "IT' Before (me) With SMiLes...
i Will Readily Admit When Stuck in Left
Brain Think, Most of my Life, All Straight
A's, 3 College Degrees, Still not Able to
Basically Find my Way out of a 'Paper Bag'
As 'They' Say;
i had Very Little
Relative Free Will Then;
And Practically Nothing i Knew,
Had Any Real Benefit to Survive
And Really Thrive in Life With An Entire
Orchestra And Symphony of Relative Free Will Now Balancing...
One Thing That Really Helped me is Selfies, For Feedback For Non-Verbal Expression;
And Really Becoming Whole With my Body; As i Really Felt Like i Was Just living in my Head before...
Movement Therapy (Basically Free Dance) is an Approved Therapy to Regulate Emotions and
Integrate Senses on the Autism Spectrum;
And Additionally It Actually Enhances
Empathy in Sensitivity to
The Other Human's
Feelings and Senses of Life;
i Already Figured it out on my own;
Before i Saw a New Psychiatrist More
Educated in New Research; Who Was Actually
Able to Give me a Real PRESCRIPTION FOR DANCE;
TO PROVE to Folks Who Might Give me Problems
In Stores, Like Management that it is A Real Accommodation
For Functional Disability as in My Case my Empathy And Senses
are Tuned Way up; With Mirror Neuron Functioning Normal to
The Extreme, Practically With "Mirror-Touch Synesthesia"; It Used
To Be A Real
Terror to Even
Walk in Walmart;
Yet the Meditating Flow
of Dance Regulates my
Emotions and Integrates
my Senses that makes it
Effortless in Ease to Public
Dance Now With Zero Anxiety;
It Does Work; And True i Do it more
Than Most; So it Does Work More for me.
i Was Terribly Anxious all my Life; Every Bit of
The Pain and Numb For What i Went through in
HeLL oN Earth 66 Months Shut-in in my Bedroom
Was Really
Worth
One Day
With Zero Levels
of Anxiety; That's
Been my Life Now
For Almost 101 Months
Now And What i Find Now is
Fear Was the Source of Most All
of the Weaknesses in Life i Experienced Before...
It's Worth All the Naysaying i've Received Both off and online Indeed, hehe..
i Do Understand Why Some Folks Don't Believe they Have Much Free Will Indeed
From Personal
Experience;
And i Do Understand
What Life is Like Now
Able to See Through what
Was Once Only An Opaque
Window of Human Potential Freer;
Really, A Metaphor of Heaven Within;
It's Like Ya Finally Understand What
The Metaphors Some Folks Used Really Mean in Real Life Now...
And Indeed as 'Pink Floyd' Sings No Longer An "Earthbound Misfit"
as Part of 'The Wall'...
Just Another
'Brick' and
'A Prisoner'
And Even Slave;
Just A Cog in the
Left Brain Restricted 'Think Tank'...
Hehe, i Live in A Much Bigger Aquarium
Now; It's Practically Wave, Water, Ocean Whole With SMiLes..
Yet one 'thing' is For
Sure, i Would
Not Go Back
to any Age yet Now at 61;
As Now is All THere Is, Eternally Now FoR Me at Least...
Every Now Continues to Only Get Better With Relative Free Will Indeed...
And As Far As the Free Verse Poetry Goes, Yesterday A Young Woman
in India Said And i Quote, "Every Love Story is Beautiful But Yours is The Best!"
Haha, That Was After
A Dude Last Week Telling
me i Write Like i Should
Be Tied Down in a Mental
Institution, and Another
One Suggesting that
Whitman Would
Starve to Death
If He Wrote Like me;
Yep on the Wrong Planet
A Place That Supports the
Truly Neurodiverse like me;
It's True, Indian Women are More like me now...
And if someone Wants to Call me a Sissy Like in Middle School, Have
At IT; For all the Smiles i Bring now, hehe, at Least in India HAha...
i Am Surely No Fighter
That's Not my Way
Although 'They' Say
Now At the Military
Gym i Have a
Unique way
of Martial Arts too;
Yet i Surely Will Stand
Up For Myself and Say NO Now...
Hehe, Without Any Words at All...
i Never Had A Clue How to Do that Until Age 53...
Yes, Indeed ASD Will Be A Real Struggle, Overall, With NO DOUBT...
Yet On the Other Hand, Without the Struggles and Epigenetic Potential Unpacked
i Would
Never Be
Who i am Now...
Including All the Bullying in School And At Work
And Even Still Now Occasionally
Online By Faceless Anonymous Avatars...
Yep, The DarK Makes LiGHT Greater
From What i See Overall, As Life Now Greater Than EVER Before..
17 Dec 2021, 3:07 pm
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17 Dec 2021, 3:14 pm
theprisoner wrote:
Yes, left brain analytically dominated person can be quite rigid in the belief systems, I believe myself to be quite fluid in this respect. Bringing contempt maybe from more 'locked down' mindsets. Whether I'm right brain dominated thinker, i don't know. The brain switches between neural networks, given the task at hand. Some people are biological stuck in one mode though. Some people only think logically, and some people only think emotionally.
As far as anxiety confronting somebody, i dont go out of my way to confront people, but this guy not along ago was riding in the street at night erratically on a bicycle, cutting cars off, then he stated shouting into the air like he was drunk, "ill knock your f-ing head off, what are you looking at! something something ill send you back to your paki boyfriend" hes talking crap,, i'm, walking by, and i don't know if he talking to me, or just venting, or on drugs, or what, cause im in the distance (and i have a beard maybe he thinks i'm pakistani). he's flipping off cars as they go by, just riding in the middle of the road but i walking parallel, and i was gonna turn the corner, but but i had a impulse to walk right up towards him, i was ready for whatever. As soon as i get within a meter of him, He just turned around and pedalled off and kept his distance. I guess i was just feeling brave that day, cause who knows what could of happened, but no, if somebody is challenging me, or insulting me, i have confront them. It's an ego thing. Also he was my own weight, so makes a difference too. If someone outweights you, you do think twice
Oh and aghogday, you look like your 6'4 220+ or something and can handle yourself , i doubt anybody would mess with you. Ha! I'm kinda skinny, but i don't back down, it's important not to show weakness, or people will walk all over you.
As far as anxiety confronting somebody, i dont go out of my way to confront people, but this guy not along ago was riding in the street at night erratically on a bicycle, cutting cars off, then he stated shouting into the air like he was drunk, "ill knock your f-ing head off, what are you looking at! something something ill send you back to your paki boyfriend" hes talking crap,, i'm, walking by, and i don't know if he talking to me, or just venting, or on drugs, or what, cause im in the distance (and i have a beard maybe he thinks i'm pakistani). he's flipping off cars as they go by, just riding in the middle of the road but i walking parallel, and i was gonna turn the corner, but but i had a impulse to walk right up towards him, i was ready for whatever. As soon as i get within a meter of him, He just turned around and pedalled off and kept his distance. I guess i was just feeling brave that day, cause who knows what could of happened, but no, if somebody is challenging me, or insulting me, i have confront them. It's an ego thing. Also he was my own weight, so makes a difference too. If someone outweights you, you do think twice
Oh and aghogday, you look like your 6'4 220+ or something and can handle yourself , i doubt anybody would mess with you. Ha! I'm kinda skinny, but i don't back down, it's important not to show weakness, or people will walk all over you.
This is good advice.
To be honest, I probably need to take it. I'm usually way more 'nice' than I should be & naively tell people loads of personal information, even in person. Like, I get set up in social 'traps' a lot.
In the past few years I have become a lot more wise to the world & less egotistical. I find transcending ego is liberating really. You simply compete against yourself, instead of against other people who you do not know everything about.
I am 5"11 but at the moment I look a bit like Homer Simpson with skinny arms.
17 Dec 2021, 4:49 pm
Also it's not just; left brain- right brain, it's also; up brain - down brain.
Quote:
The "Super Eight" loop creates "Superfluidity" between all four brain hemispheres.
Source: Christopher Bergland, C. 2009
https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/the-athletes-way/201503/the-cerebellum-deeply-influences-our-thoughts-and-emotions
cerebrum = up brain
^
8 “superfluidity” zero friction, zero entropy and zero viscosity between thought, action, and emotion.
v
cerebellum = down brain
cerebellum = 10% of brain volume / holds 50% of brain neurons.
17 Dec 2021, 5:23 pm
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