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KaleidoscopicMagpie
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14 Jan 2022, 11:16 am

I feel irrepairably broken.
I feel unlovable.
I don't know how to feel better.
My feelings are too big and too dark to tell other people.
I feel alone very very alone because nobody can understand me. Nobody can fully know me.
I am nothing.


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14 Jan 2022, 1:41 pm

*hugs*


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14 Jan 2022, 2:14 pm

I've been in the same place you are and remember the pain.
I want to fix it for you but know I can not and you didn't ask me.
I could give platitudes about time but you already heard them all.
All I got is this post that says, I care.
Please remember me when I'm back at the place.



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14 Jan 2022, 4:56 pm

KaleidoscopicMagpie wrote:
My feelings are too big and too dark to tell other people.


Are they your feelings or your thoughts?
usually feelings are a result of thoughts.
And what are you thinking about to lead to those feelings?
Big, dark things?
That you can't tell other people about?
Then why are you telling yourself, I wonder?


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14 Jan 2022, 5:03 pm

I try not to let feelings show. (joy, anger, surprise) maybe. But never dark feelings. ( only at funerals maybe.)


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20 Jan 2022, 7:20 pm

KaleidoscopicMagpie wrote:
I feel irrepairably broken.
I feel unlovable.
I don't know how to feel better.
My feelings are too big and too dark to tell other people.
I feel alone very very alone because nobody can understand me. Nobody can fully know me.
I am nothing.


No feelings are too dark to share. You just have to find the right outlet. Too big is another matter though. Sometimes it's impossible to process emotions because they're just too big to comprehend.

It's a little like trying to understand and perceive a building the size of a continent. From the human perspective, stood at the base of a wall, it's just a massive grey stone edifice. You'd have to take a plane up 300 feet to start to get a sense of the building as a whole.



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20 Jan 2022, 7:23 pm

(hugs)


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21 Jan 2022, 2:03 am

Yeah, life is good at breaking people at random for no discernible reason. You're not alone there, even if you feel like it. I've seen far too many over the seasons. Bits can be put back and they do fit.

My skeletons will make people run or feel sad for me, and they put me on the lonesome road where I only walk through daydreams as I push everyone away, and I feel like it's what I deserve and that they shouldn't love me because I feel like a walking contagious nightmare. I still end up missing more than I can express as I stare at the wall and see the life I wished.

I kinda feel dead, even though I'm alive.



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21 Jan 2022, 5:11 am

incarnation on earth is a death sentence. it only goes downhill from there.