I rarely feel impulsive and I have quite good boundaries... was not always this way but I think it´s kind of normal during adolescente, especially if you did not have a healthy family environment. As soon as I was out of my parent´s home I saw myself as I really am: a calm, still sensitive to lots of things but a wise adult person with healthy boundaries (this applies even more if I think of the country I am actually living in, which has a complete different culture and "normal" people don´t pay too much attention to lots of things which I do, in my opinion). Socializing has become harder with age but I don´t think it´s a bad thing (this reminds me of a book : Solitude, by Anthony Storr, which I enjoy very much and gave me lots of inner peace with myself about not needing or wanting the "healthy" social contact.
I am still unsure if I do have a very light ASD because of these things: presence of good boundaries, low impulsivity and have been an "old like child" already, which kinda puzzled my teachers and family very often. All the rest seems to check.
I come from a culture where people are vere picky about etiquette and the culture itself is a so called "high context culture" so I think my whole family and a harsh catholic school brushed the hell ouf of me since I was very young: I was forced to always look neat and sit correctly, would write the same sentence about what I should never ever do hundreds of times , there was lots of physical punishments too. I may be wrong but I feel that this social context was a horrible thing that made me act more or less acceptable since very young and I would rarely smile as a child. There was no time to be a child.
If we evaluate ourselves through our native culture and the whole medical system doesn´t... how the hell do I know where I am?
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10 Jul 2022, 9:33 pm
