Team Player or Lone Wolf?

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Anyway once you do manage to pass an interview most workplaces have an unwritten rule of leaving your personality at the door.

Oh and god forbid you might have a life outside of the job.

I'm a "lone wolf". Other people don't like interacting with me, and they don't trust that I can get things done since I don't communicate the same way they do. If I work by myself though I do just fine and don't have to worry about working around others + having them prevent me from doing the things I know I can do.

Sometimes allistics are more of a barrier to the autistic person, than the autistic person is a barrier to them, which is how things seem to work out for me despite the fact that everyone acts like I'm a barrier to them.

Outside of work and in relation to "group projects" in school, I either just did the projects by myself or did nothing because no one wanted to be in a group with me, nor would they let me do anything if I was in a group with them. There were a couple times where I did have to do everything though because the people in my group slacked off, which I didn't care about because I didn't have to deal with them and I made sure we got a good grade.

I think colleagues think of me as a pushover. If they get tired of students, they send them over to me at the wrong times even though I'm busy with other students. Some of those students have severe behavioral/emotional issues that require ALL of my focus and energy.

I would love to have some of the kids all day every day, but I have other commitments, too, and it would be nice to have lunch and to use the bathroom once in awhile. Last year, I decided that a good solution would be to pick up those students when it was time for me to have them, and I discussed it with the teachers in very clear but kind terms. It worked for about a week, but invariably, the teachers would gradually start sending them over again no matter the time. Also, I can't just turn the little monsters away once they are with me because it would hurt their feelings. I'm like a mom to some of them.

There are other situations like this one as well. This is just one example. I've been given extra duties which involve going in early, staying late, and doing extra work that is not part of my job description. My pay has been awful, but it's going to improve in the next couple of weeks. It's a complicated situation.

Anyway, so yeah, I prefer being a lone wolf. I struggle with finding the right balance between being nice and being firm, so I err on the side of caution and am nice, but it's not exactly working out for me.

Yeah I think that sometimes nice people can get taken advantage of.

The other thing is, when kids are ill they always want Mummy, not Daddy. So Mummy ends up staying at home/ getting up in the night to look after them. That's another reason mothers stay at home with sick kids more.