What made you anxious today?

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painful ultrasound
messed up meds schedule
memories
a certain song
another day without a laptop
so much to do and write

I slept in late and had some really uncomfortable dreams. In one of them there was a young girl resting on my mother's couch covered in a blanket, I don't know who she is, but it looks like my mother took her in. She then offers me some random objects, like an old electric lamp and a large plastic toy figure of Casper. I took them but then asked, "You're not sick, are you?" since she's lying on a couch covered in a blanket. She then stutters in a strange voice, "c-c-co-co-vid."
And then I screamed and woke up.

I know Casper is a cute and friendly fictional ghost, but he's a ghost nonetheless, so maybe seeing that in my dream wasn't good either. Even though it was a toy of Casper and I don't believe in real ghosts.

My misophonia has been off the charts lately. I’ve been using Bluetooth NC headphones and I love them so much it’s hard to deal with the real world again.

So help me God, I never knew that the sound of someone brushing their teeth could go on for so long, sound so abrasive even from another room, or make me want to strangle them in cold blood.





Other than that, I’m OK.

Good God it's happening again! ^

Third time since I wrote that.

I've been having dreams lately about having gross and nasty skin diseases, like pimples or huge ugly bruises on my legs. Is my body trying to warn me about something or is it just from health anxiety?

seeing the "under penalty of perjury" sign, while trying to file taxes. makes me paranoid that if i click on the wrong button unintentionally, i will get sent to jail "under penalty of perjury".

almost getting hit by cars

tried for 20 minutes and failed to take a bowel movement

The place that my doctor referred me to for therapy has terrible reviews.

Police knocking on my window at 2.30am

Someone else in the block got arrested.

charlatans

Vad is still alive.

Gotta kill some charlatans too.

Coworker Anthony had the nerve to bark at me. Overreacting

Dropping a rather fragile pen.
Tested and the pen got a bit messy... Even if it's not perfect to begin with.

The pen's not mine.
The pen is also not exactly cheap to replace.

Gained Number Post Count (1).
Lose Time (n).

Lose more time here - Updates at least once a week.

Waking up.

I need to go to the store later and I know that I'm going to have to pass by the section with all of the alcohol to get what I need to get. Not buying alcohol is going to be really hard.

My drunk boyfriend coming to bed at 12.30am and waking me up from much needed sleep with his swearing and shouting at me even though I wasn't doing anything. Now I'm wide awake from being disturbed. I was having a cool dream as well, where I was traveling outer space and it was so realistic.

My boyfriend is so sweet (by default) when he's not drunk. Thankfully he doesn't drink often these days. If he mixes his drink then that gets him verbally aggressive and he'll tell me to f**k off and shout other rude things at me. I've learnt to ignore it, as it's only the drink making him not knowing what he's saying, but it's just annoying more than anything.

Big plans on Wednesday, a fun day out, but no the weather might be bad.Also it’s foggy and it makes me think of the movie The Others.A good movie ,but I feel trapped.Took two Ativan .