Uhh still can't seem to quite get over it, just crazy how sad I am over this cat. I did go down to my brothers place that weekend and saw where he buried her and I got a bottle of mead and also one for my brother, so we reminisced about her and it was nice, but still I just am so sad I'll never get to see that cat again.
Idk she was a cat but also kind of like a little bear, with her lack of tail I figure I will never forget that cat. And she did have a good life. I just think the only cure is getting a cat of my own, but it won't be an outside inside cat, perhaps inside cat plus taking it out on a leash. Because yeah truth be told if she hadn't been an outside/inside cat and just an inside cat that would have never happened.
I would have one already but in the current place it would raise the rent 500 dollars and they are already probably going to raise the price on our rent anyways. So basically I can't afford to have a cat right now, but I do wish I had one because I think having a cat would help my mental health. And I just really love cats idk they are like the best animal.
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We won't go back.