While I don't like having to worry about paying the bills, I would rather be 39 (current age) than a kid
When I was young, bullying, puberty, parents made me take the SAT in 7th grade
Equal Employment Opportunity Commission, gender identity, was not until age 29
Although I would rather be a skinny smart handsome cisgender neurotypical extrovert white man civil engineer, what I am now
I am just a disaster waiting to keep happening
No matter how much I studied, still academic dismissal
No matter how hard I worked, still made redundant
No matter what I ate, still fat
Everything my worthless corpse attempts to accomplish, is like, "you can't make a silk purse out of a sows ear" and"there's a hole in the bucket "
For a long time I have been feeling defective, deficient and morally inferior
Nothing I do is good enough