Interesting.
I actually kind of wish I had waited longer to have sex for the first time and had spent more time exploring with sex toys first. Because in my experience I have had plenty of sex I could have done without, I consented to all times but never really had enjoyable sex till I meant my current boyfriend.
But for me I never wanted a hook up...but ended up in them, thinking if we had sex maybe that would blossom into them wanting to actually be my boyfriend. I realize now it's not really how it works but when I was younger I was pretty clue-less. So yes I do regret not waiting longer to have sex, it would have been better to go into it having a bit more knowledge about it, and what I wanted out of it.
Also, though is the author certain they just want's casual sex for her first time, and doesn't want to establish something exclusive first?
They seem like fantasize about getting a hook up, but then when given the opportunity don't see it going there. So maybe they aren't too nervous maybe they just aren't into hook ups. Idk in my opinion I think they should consider finding someone special to have sex with. I am also not sure if as many 30+ people are looking for hook ups as people in their 20's. So could also be more men in her age group may be looking for something more serious than just hooking up, so the pool of men interested in that has shrunk for her, I could be wrong on that point though.
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