Was This abuse? *Trigger warning*

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So i posted before on being sexually assaulted as a little boy. this was by an older teen. it just hit me that i was shown several adult (softcore) movies by a supervising adult. i firmly believe this was for education purposes and after observing my behavior (specifically with my toys) they felt the need to "normalize" sex. it more so confused me. and keep in mind my autism symptoms went under the radar so i was just seen as different. And even though i wasn't outward about it, the fantasies just got more and more pronounced. I also became an easy target for perverts online. this adult means a lot to me, but i want to know the truth, was that a form of abuse? i'm thinking off and on from 8-up. and combining all these said experiences with autism, is there any information out there?

https://www.rainn.org/articles/child-sexual-abuse

Yes, showing pornography to children is sexual abuse. I’m sorry that you went through that.

((hugs))

Yes, it was abuse.

I’m sorry that happened to you.

It kind of sickened me when I realized some of the things I went through was abuse, but after a while, the realization helped me to heal.

I hope you can heal too.

thank you guys for the confirmation. yes i have more understanding why i'm so hypersexually affected, even though i'm asexual. i forgive that person and i'm gonna keep healing

this makes me wonder if self-abuse counts? Or is that a stupid question? I ask because perhaps my hypersexual tendencies arose from 7 year old me having unrestricted internet access and finding herself on the wrong side of the world wide web.