IsabellaLinton wrote:
Psychologically it's done me a world of good to understand why I'm the way I am, and to make peace with some bad choices from my past. I used to gaslight myself that everything was my fault or I should have tried "harder", when in retrospect I realise I shouldn't have tried at all with some of those situations. They were all over my head and out of my comfort zone. I shouldn't have tried at all, and I should have sought appropriate support instead of thinking more effort was needed.
It's allowed me to forgive myself for those mistakes, or at least take ownership for the parts that really were my "fault", without catastrophising and hating myself as a failure, or self-gaslighting with negative self-talk that carried on for decades about my inability to be a normal person.
This, soo much this.
I would add it informed me of mistakes I made that I was clueless about and how Autism factored into those bad choices. That has helped a lot.
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